Our Past

Adah's P.O.V

I heard knocking on the door what time is it? I glanced at my window. It was still dark outside, and then I checked my phone. It was 6:00 in the morning. Who was up this early? I had no lectures to attend on Saturdays, but this was my first day in the photography club, and I still had 3 hours before I woke up to get ready for UNI. I quickly rushed to the door and I saw my mom standing out we didn't wish each other good morning this is how it is and has been for years "Me and your father will be going out for a few days mostly until Monday Your aunt has fallen sick again, Don't worry I gave your grandma a call but she will be coming tomorrow so you are alone for the day because Mihir (my brother) is out for a camp and won't be back until Monday" I just gave her a prompt nod and was about to close the door when I heard my father's voice "Us going out is not an invitation for you to bring boys home" I avoided the stinging feeling in my heart and closed the door softly. Lying down in the bed, my only thoughts were, 'Just a few more years and you will be out of this hell hole' Please stay brave, Adah, and with this, I fell asleep.

I was woken up by my alarm clock. It was 9:00. I had to get ready for the photography club. I was in the bathroom staring at myself in the bathroom mirror I was just staring in the mirror because I couldn't get his damn picture out of my mind, my eyes fell on my neck and a picture of his tatted arm around my neck formed in my head but as soon as I imagined that I turned the water tap on and splashed some ice cold water on my face What was I even thinking, I quickly got dressed and as I was about to make some breakfast I heard a knock at the front door I ran to open it. It was Siya I gave her a call and told her to come to my house so we could go to the university together because we both were in the photography club. she was extra happy today because as soon as I opened the door she jumped on me and I had to take the support of the cabinet behind me so that I wouldn't fall backwards "Thank you so much for what you did I don't even know how thankful I am to you" I just warmly smiled and said, "Don't thank me thank her, and what about your Ex did you file a complaint at the police station?" "Yes I did but he requested me to take my complaint back, promised me that he would never do a thing and said that he was in a rage when he did that, The police took in all his electronics and cleared any pictures of us together and just my pictures so I did take back my complaint" "Why did you do that? He deserved being in jail for what he did, how could you just let him go?" I was beyond furious how could she just let someone who almost ruined her life go? "Adah he was the person I once liked and I didn't want any bad feelings between us, one of us had to take a step down and I did that because I value my relationship with Abhi more than anything more than my ego right now," she said with slight tears in her eyes I just gave her a long tight hug "I can never understand love, it's beyond my mind," I said in a sarcastic tone she just warmly smiled at me and said "Don't worry everyone falls in this trap at least once in their lifetime" I just laughed at it and walked to the kitchen with Siya right behind me staring at my house "Your house is so-" "Boring" "No I was going to say Modern" I gave her a prompt nod I know my house may seem modern because it was mainly white.....white walls, white couches, white furniture and white floor but to me it was depressing.

I took her to my room and told her to wait there and I ran off to the kitchen to make some breakfast for both of us I was not that good at cooking the only things I could cook were An omelette, scrambled eggs, and some rice that's it other than that it always ended up in a mess so I decided on making some scrambled eggs and toast. I finished cooking in 15 minutes or so and carried both the plates along with a mug of coffee and tea into my room but when I opened the door to my room I caught Siya sitting on my bed staring right ahead of her on the wall when I followed her eyesight it was an old picture of My summer camp from 2015 it was an old picture and it was a group picture so no way in the hell was it possible that Siya recognised me and Tamas hugging each other tightly and showing almost all of our teeth in the picture But her eyes said the opposite. her face was showing the emotion 'I just figured out the biggest mystery of my life' and then she spoke "I didn't know you were the girl in the picture with Tamas, Tamas had the same picture on his Instagram account" she said without a hint of emotion in her voice and looked at me for explanation I just opened and closed my mouth like a fish struggling to breathe I was deciding on whether to lie or tell her the truth but there was no point in lying because there was an entire wall of childhood pictures, anyone could tell that the girl in the picture was me looking at my childhood photos.

"Yeah, me and Tamas went to the same summer camp back in 2015. We were best friends, but on the last day of the camp, he abruptly left without saying goodbye; he and his entire family disappeared from the face of this earth. I haven't talked to him since but then I saw him at the university and recognised him" I said in a low voice her face was void of any emotion "That makes sense as to why you are always walking on rocks around him, always avoiding him and staring at him when he looks away I definitely noticed the tension but I just thought maybe because you are an introvert. Why didn't you go and say Hi? I know it's tough sometimes to acknowledge our old friends it may be awkward but always worth a try " She made a confused face like that was the most obvious thing on the entire planet but then she realised and now I could see the shock on her face she finally figured it out and I mentally winced I just had hoped that she wouldn't figure it out but I knew she would know because of the panic attack I had the other day I was standing in the middle of the road staring at Tamas and Aishwarya "Don't tell me you used to like him and still do, was that panic attack because of him?" I gave her a nod and corrected her "I don't like him now" She just let out a sarcastic laugh "Who are you Lying to, even a blind man can figure that out" but immediately after that, her face turned sympathetic "Adah you have to move on from him they have been dating for almost 2 years now, I don't want you to get hurt" I just stood there lost in my thoughts I know I should move on its been 9 years a sane person doesn't wait for 9 years but I hated the fact that he had moved on but I hadn't, he found love in other people and I didn't, he didn't wait for me but I did, he forgot about my existence but I remembered him every day. But this needs to stop. I can't keep hurting myself over someone who doesn't give a shit about my existence; I used to love him. It was the past and my future and my freedom were more important for me than any person in this world. me selfish but this is the most selfish I have ever been in my entire life. I made a promise to myself not to let his presence affect me and try to avoid him as much as possible "Don't worry; I have moved on from him", I said with a smile that didn't quite reach my eyes.

We both finished our meal and left for the UNI, but I didn't forget his jacket. I quickly packed it in my bag. When I stepped outside my House, I saw a bike parked before the gates. Siya has a sports bike, huh? Now this should be interesting.