She was not a saint; she also had a dark side to her heart.
Being able to come back to life, she felt a secret joy, usurping someone else's body, she even had thoughts of shirking responsibility: it was Alexander Summers who did it, it had nothing to do with me.
But regardless, she had replaced Purple Summers, and this was an undeniable fact, so guilt always existed at the bottom of her heart.
This emotion was not apparent on ordinary days, but after Atra Blanc mentioned Purple Summers' background, her feelings of guilt multiplied.
Because she was not "Purple Summers," Atra Blanc's kindness to her was to make amends to "Purple Summers," to make amends to "Meredith Richards," which actually had nothing to do with her!
Today, after burning the ritual money and saying everything that needed to be said, she finally found some relief—
She had to live well anyhow, so as not to let down "Purple Summers"'s life, and not let herself down either.