Warm… Comfortably Warm.
It felt like I was being cradled in my mother's arms and she was cooing me to sleep or… just cooing me, I guess?
"Hmmm Hmm"
"Hmmm Hmm"
I could actually feel the cooing feeling like it was realistically being sung.
"Hmmm Hmm"
"Hmmm Hmm"
Again, it felt like a beautiful tone was drifting me too a dream far far away.
"Hmmm Hmm"
"Hmmm Hmm"
… Is it just me or... Is this shit really happening?
I could actually feel my body slightly moving and something warm was holding on to me.
Right now, my eyes are closed so I can't tell what was really going on… but the only thing I hoped was to not see something disturbing when I open my eyes.
"Hmmm Hmm"
"Hmmm Hmm"
Obviously the chances of that not being true was increasing dangerously.
So with the slightest bit of courage that I had, I opened my eyes.
...
...
Beautiful
…
Artistic
…
God's Creation
…
I don't know how to describe… her, but words couldn't simply describe the wome- being that my eyes saw.
Golden Hair, Vibrant yellow eyes filled with the purest intentions, a face without a mistake, a smile that could stop a war… no, stop any war and lastly her cleavage…
DAMN! ARE THEY HUGE!
Coming to this point, the fact that I thought such a thing made me unconsciously feel guilty towards her. To think, that a being such as her was gazing at me with such a love filled gaze and that one of the first things I did was… think lewdly of her?
What is wrong with me!!??
I lowered my gaze in shame and looked away from her.
"It's okay."
A motherly voice said to me as a warm hand touched my face. Her hands were large, larger than my head but she was caressing my head as if I was made of some fragile component.
Slowly lifting my head, I hear her say, "It's not a sin to think."
"Nothing, no being in all of creation is without fault and not are you."
"But that doesn't mean it's anything bad, simply it makes you more special."
Special?
"Yes" She nodded, "It's your independent and honest choice of thinking that makes you special from us who only seek to make everything as they should be."
"So in that sense, you can say you are much more important than me."
Important than her? I definitely didn't feel like that.
Somehow though, I couldn't help but feel giddy hearing her say that. As if I was a child and she my mother just complemented me in the most uncomplicated way possible.
"So do not doubt what you think. This is safe place."
"You are safe here."
Those words unconsciously made me feel more at ease. I don't how much more when I already felt like this is the safest place there was in the world.
Ehh?
It was at this moment when I realized a certain special thing.
First was I wasn't in the world… or anywhere for the matter. It was someplace distant. I was literally in nowhere; the whole space was white. There wasn't any walls or sky to be exact.
I couldn't see anything other than white.
Secondly and I swear this isn't my crazy fantasy.
I was actually being cradled by the women.
LITERALLY!
Alarm bells rang inside my head as I felt myself heat up just thinking of being in such a situation. It looked like she understood what I was thinking as she laughed.
Not in a funny way but… a happy way.
Like she wasn't making fun of me and was just laughing at the situation. Does that make any sense?
Because I certainly don't get what was happening.
"You don't have to be ashamed of such a thing, in fact I feel glad to have someone like you in my bosom."
I smiled at her and finally said my first words since I came here.
"Than- Thanks… my lad-queen… goddess. Buuut, can you… you know, maybe put me down."
Surprisingly she pouted.
"I don't want to do that but since you asked I will."
Saying that she put me down on the floor… which were made of clouds now that I noticed.
"There, and if you want to come back here again just ask, okay?"
I nodded and even though the offer was excellent, I was not going to do that. Seriously it was a tough offer to refuse.
"Before we continue, do you know where we are?"
I looked around again and shook my head.
"Do you know what happened to you before you came back?"
I tried to think before this and it took sometime before a certain disturbing memory came back to me. The memory of me, clutching my chest as a heavy feeling suddenly came over me as I was bringing back the food.
Then just like that, I fell flat and… died?
I look to her in confirmation as she nodded.
...
Somehow it didn't feel as shocking as I thought would feel like, maybe I already had accepted the fact when I came here.
"Do you want to ask something?"
I hear her and many things go through my head before I ask the one meaningful question.
"What happens next?"
"Your next life happens."
"… Rebirth?"
She smiled at me and this time I felt curious at that.
"Not only that, but if you want I can send you to any world of your choice."
"Seriously? Can I ask why?"
"It's your reward for the smiles you put upon your fellow friends before you died."
I didn't understand what she said but as if understanding that she showed me pictures, memories of the employees back at the company, my team members to be specific.
Memories of me helping them out and others before the final thing of them coming to my funeral and saying nice stuff about me and such.
Seeing the short but heartfelt memory made me feel very glad and I had to wipe out the tear that came to my eyes.
After thinking for a loooong time, I made my choice.
"I'm ready."
"Well then, tell me where do you want to go?"
...
( After a while )
The perfect being was sitting upon her throne as another one same like her but smaller came to her with a worrying look.
"Mother"
"Yes, angel."
"You know the person you had recently sent to a world."
"That darling of a boy? What of him?"
"You made another mistake." Mother looked at the angel with confusion before being told what she had actually done. Hearing what she did, the beautiful face of hers paled in horror.
"Oh My!"