Chapter Three: Questioning the heart

It was raining

It was snowing

But all unhappiness stopped

You brought heaven to me

Don't speak so easily

Because without you, there's no me

You're the best of me

The best of me.

_Best of me

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Jungkook Pov

"Everyone gather in the living room. We need to talk."

Namjoon hyung announced as we all made our way through the main door of our dorms after a long ass day.

I took an exasperated sigh cause I knew what was coming. To be honest, I was trying to avoid it for three freaking days but somehow I knew, there was no running away this time.

I unwillingly dragged myself to the living room, throwing my bag at the floor and slamming down on a single couch in the corner.

I really didn't want to talk about what happened three days ago. I was still going back and forth between guilt and confusion.

It was hard to understand that why I get goosebumps whenever I think about that kiss? Why my heart would go on roller coaster ride at thought of him being close to me?

I took out my cell phone and started scrolling. This had been the best way I found to avoid particularly V hyung these days.

To my surprise, he didn't sit anywhere near me instead he took the farthest spot from me.

Well, it was a relief. Wasn't it?

'Yes Jungkook. It's a relief that he's sitting away. You're not hurting. You're more than fine!!'

I reminded my heart, cause in my whole body, my damn heart was the only thing that wasn't matching my words and actions.

"Okay, Jungkook and Taehyung.."

As soon as we all got seated, Namjoon hyung mentioned me and V hyung catching our attention respectively.

"What had been going on between you two for last three days?"

He asked being calm but firm at the sametime.

'It's 3 days 10 hours 16 minutes hyung.'

I thought to myself while staring at the floor now.

'If only I had anwer to his question.'

"Nothing!!"

V hyung blunt voice caught me off guard.

My gaze involuntarily went to him, which turned into few seconds of eye contact.

And my heart trembled...

His eyes..

His sparkling cheerful eyes I used to see, were not there anymore.

They were replaced by emptiness, having little to no existence of emotions left in them.

A lump started to form in my heart. My gaze dropped to the floor again, not able to face those eyes.

"Do you both take us as fools? Do you think your behaviour towards each is going unnoticed? You both aren't talking, avoiding each other and skipping your meals. What we're suppose to make out of it?"

Namjoon hyung snorted as the leader of group BTS took over him.

I neither moved nor replied. I could feel my shoulders getting heavier with his every word.

I knew no matter whoever fights, everyone of us get affected by it. We had that kind of relationship. We were family.

And this time, somehow I was responsible for that, for acting all selfish. Because V hyung had tried every f**king possibility to talk this out but I didn't give him a single chance. I kept avoiding him like an amateur kid.

"And Jungkook, you have always been the fast learner during choreos but now you are having hard time getting your moves right. What do you have to ²say about that Jungkook?"

And suddenly, I was the target of all canons.

"I'm sorry Hyung."

I merely whispered while my eyes weren't leaving the floor.

"It's okay to fight and it's totally understandable, if you both don't want to talk about it in front of us. But just sort it out as soon as possible. So that we don't have to be worried about you two."

Yoongi hyung entered the conversation like a life savior.

Yoongi hyung might looked colder from outside but he was the most understanding person I had ever seen in my life.

"Yeah, talk it out. And turn this place back to noisy and louder shit again."

Hoseok hyung joked with his sunshine smile making the air bit lighter.

"Okay let's get going. Let them have a lovey dovey moment."

Jin hyung who was sitting beside me on the couch patted on my shoulder before getting up.

I looked up at him before he mouthed me 'Fighting' and left with other hyungs.

"Hurry patch up you two. I want to take my revenge so badly." Jimin hyung added pulling his face humorously as he was the last one to leave.

Everyone had left now leaving me and V hyung in the living room alone.

The air started to get intense again. We stayed silent for like 5 to 10 minutes until V hyung spoke out.

"You wanna talk here? Or how about taking a walk to the park across the street?"

His voice sounded meticulous like he was being cautious with his words.

My gaze followed the voice to see him looking at the floor and fidgeting with his fingers, seemed totally nerve wrecked.

It wasn't a lie, if I say I was going through same. My legs were literally shaking and I was chewing my nails due to apprehension.

I didn't have to think twice, cause I didn't want others hyungs to hear what exactly happened between us.

"Let's go to the park."

I replied trying to act calm but failed.

'Stop shaking damn Jungkook.'

He nodded as we both got up and left for the park being anxious.

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The cold breeze tickled my face causing me to sneeze right way as we made our way to the park. It was literally freezing outside. And the fact that we didn't have dinner yet, was causing me to feel weaker and frigid.

To be honest, I only had breakfast in the morning and I didn't have much after that. For last three days, it had been same for me. Not having proper meals and proper sleep.

I could tell V hyung was going through same. I heard it from Jimin hyung back in the morning that V hyung had been skipping meals and not sleeping at all.

And now we both had been settled on the bench in the park for like half an hour. There was nothing but a long distant silence and awkwardness between us.

"Are you cold?"

V hyung broke the silence and I was thankful to him for starting the conversation.

"Umm... It's pretty colder than I thought."

I replied nervously.

To my surprise, he started to scoot closer to me until our shoulders were touching each other.

I stared at him in confusion as he kept staring at the fountain ahead of us.

"Is it better now?"

He asked out of no where, turning his face to me, causing me to gasp.

"Uhh..kind of.." I uttered while grinning like a fool.

In fact, I could feel heat rushing in my whole body. My heart was dancing in my chest like it hit a jackpot.

For few minutes, I literally forgot what happened between us. It felt like we were back ti normal again.

But everything disappeared as V hyung said his next words.

"I'm sorry Jungkookie. I was taken away by emotions that day. I.. I.. I didn't.. I mean I was so careless with my actions. I didn't want to hurt you. I can't afford living without you Kookie. Last 3 days were like a hell for me. So, please forgive me and let's go back to the way we were."

He recited it like he had been memorizing all this the whole time. But I could tell how sincere his words were. I could feel the pain he had been through whole this time.

Well, I had been through the same. The pain was mutual as far as I knew.

"Hyung can I just ask you one thing?"

I asked making him to look at me with curiosity.

"What is it Kookie?"

He sounded too soft for my sinful ears, melting my heart away.

But I had to stay put to know everything I had been asking to myself since now.

"D..do you have feelings for me?"

I nearly shuddered cause my own words felt foreign to my ears.

His eyes widened as if he was taken aback by my question. I was trying to read his every expression, staring at him without a blink.

But all of sudden, his expression turned into something unexpected for me.

The corner of his lips curved up into a smirk, leaving me puzzled.

"What if I ask you the same question Kookie?"

He indeed had his ways to get at me.

My heart sinked in my stomach and I could feel myself getting anxious.

'Do I have feelings for him?'

That annoying question, I had been asking myself for last three days.

I had been freaking out because of this f**king question.

"Answer me Kookie!"

He snapped in front of my eyes catching my attention back.

"I.. I don't know hyung."

I replied with a scoff.

"But I asked you first... Your answer?"

I continued.

"I'll answer when you'll answer kookie."

He said playing with my hair and smiling for the first time in a while.

For some reasons, that put my heart at ease. It felt like the wall of tension between us was breaking now.

"But I answered it already hyung."

I pouted making him laugh, showing off his box smile.

"You said you don't know. You have to answer in Yes or No."

V hyung explained stroking my head playfully.

"Then, I'll say no."

I said immediately with a smirk making him block his ears with his fingers.

"I didn't hear that."

he said sticking out his tongue jokingly.

I jumped on him without any notice trying to pull his fingers out of his ears.

"I'll make you listen then."

I declared before I started tickling him.

"Stop it... Jung.. kookie..please.. st..stop.."

He uttered during laughter but I was having fun of my life.

I was so happy that we were back again like we used to be. I wanted the time to just stop right here.

"I...I lose..please!!!!"

V hyung surrendered as his both hands were in the air. His eyes were watery due to fits of laughter.

I pulled away as we both came back to our previous stance, sitting beside each other with a little smile playing on our faces.

"Yes or no Kookie?"

V hyung whispered huskily in my ear making me gulp.

I could feel his breath over my neck which was strangely making me blush like a tomato.

"Why are you blushing , kookie?"

V hyung nearly screamed making me jump in my seat.

"Blushing? Who? Me? No! I'm not."

I snorted giving him a scowl.

I was looking at everything but him. I didn't want to show him how much he had been affecting me lately.

"No, you're..."

He teased me, squeezing my cheeks.

"No!!! I'm not.. " I insisted like a grumpy kid, causing him to burst into laughter.

"Yes you're.. Want me to prove that?"

He said with an evil smirk, suddenly getting closer to me.

"Nooo.."

I shouted and before he could reach me, I got up real quick and started running.

"You can't escape me."

I could hear him screaming as I ran for my life.

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