Parameter of Love

Aldrick was looking for Zacharie in every place he could think of. At last, he went to the place where the possibility of finding Zacharie was negligible; but miracles do happen- and there he was, sitting by himself, staring into the void, probably trying to find something out of nothing. Anyways, the drama had just ended and Aldrick had somehow managed to calm Amélie and Reneé down along with the help of his brothers. The one thing he wanted to do at the end of it, was to have a peaceful conversation with his brother- in- law, who was more like a best friend to him. But after one glance, Aldrick knew that something was not right; but what? Had something gone wrong with Nitya now, and why had he himself not been able to sense it? 'They were indeed made for each other; sometimes he and Jasper were also unable to sense if there was something wrong with her, while Reneé had already locked her powers away so she couldn't do anything either. But Zacharie- Zacharie always knew when something was going to go wrong in Nitya's life. How could- sorry, that was a stupid question. No wonder he had always been there with her, but what was bothering him now? Shouldn't everything be normal for a few days, now that Rénee had stopped the dreams temporarily after thoroughly scarring Ji-hun for his life by making a fake scenario to show him the reality of his heart and confronting him with his actual emotions! After a long monologue in his head, Aldrick realised that he was not going to get any answers this way; and for getting answers, he needed to open his mouth and let loose the questions that were hounding his mind.'

He finally walked up to him and demanded, "What are you doing, sitting here all alone? Do you know how hard I have been trying to find you, I looked everywhere among your favourite and most probable visiting places! And here you are, sitting somewhere nobody could imagine that you would ever be found. We all know how much you hate this place, so tell me, what is the matter? Is something bothering you? I know you how much you loathe visiting this place because, because-"

"Because I lost Amelie at this place itself. I lost her here, with the curse of repeating the same destiny in every world, every dimension, and every lifetime...due to my mistake of making it permanent. I don't know how much I love her; if somebody would ask me about the amount of my love for her, then I will probably remain quiet, unlike her - she can easily narrate her love for me, do you know why? It's because she knows that she has never loved anyone more than me; so it is really easy for her to describe each and every feeling of hers, each and every fear of hers, every strength of hers...but as for me, I don't know if I would ever have known what love is if I hadn't met her! I didn't know what was the meaning of love before meeting her, and I don't know how to describe my fears and strengths after losing her, as she is my only strength. She is the reason behind me being alive; she is the reason that I am even daring to think about changing the destiny; she is the reason I am not afraid of anything. Yes indeed, she is my biggest strength. But the irony is that she is also my biggest fear...each and every second of mine is spent in fear of losing her, as I know I can't breathe without her, living my life is a secondary matter of discussion! While I wake up every day with the hope of changing my destiny and keeping her by my side forever, I always go to sleep with the fear of not being able to save her once again. I don't want much from the Almighty, just that if they can grant me one wish, it will always be for the lifetime of our love story to remain intact. We also deserve a happy ending every single time, but yes- I will be happy if she will get one, only one complete lifetime to spend with...you know. I know it's her only wish, as she has never been jealous of anything, but this is the only thing she was jealous of, that she never has the opportunity to spend time with....with-"

Aldrick held him as his voice cracked and his body shook with the overflow of emotions. He patted his shoulder, trying to calm him down. After a while had passed, he asked again "Do you mind me asking, why are you thinking all this today? I mean you really don't bring it up so frequently, then why today- is everything alright?"

"No!" Zacharie replied with a tear rolling down his cheek, "She is alone again, and you know he is there once again. He is going to hurt her again, and she will have to endure it one more time, even if it's the last time she would be alone and tortured by him mentally, but this is going to break her brutally. And I am not there- I am not there with her when she needs me the most. I should be there right now; and trust me, had I been there, I would have killed that bastard. He doesn't deserve to live anymore, because I know he is not going to stop there. It's all my fault, it was all my fault...I am your sinner, I am guilty of meeting her and messing with everything. If I would have known that one mistake of mine would transform into a blunder, then trust me, I would have chosen death without a moment's hesitation. The drops of her tears feel like somebody is hammering nails into my body, and death would have been a way easier option for me compared to that. But I really can't help my feelings, you might be thinking that I am spouting bullshit; but believe me, if you don't understand this now, you will only understand this when you will fall for someone. Only then will you know that the most painful thing in this world is to see tears in the eyes of the person you love the most, and not being able to do anything for her. The heartbreaking part is, despite knowing that the person you love most is not going to be by your side after a certain time, you are unable to do anything to change this; and the moment- the moment you lose them will be the end of your life. It will make you feel like your body is a soulless hollow shell, that knows how to perform respiration but has forgotten the necessity of breathing...it's like your body remembers the need for water but has forgotten the uneasiness that comes along with being thirsty, as well as the feeling of contentment achieved by getting a glass of water after so long! Everything in this world becomes colourless, meaningless, and the most heart-wrenching aspect is that...it becomes lifeless...but you still have to drag your lifeless body for the sake of others who love you and out of the love you hold for them- your friends, your family. Aahh! I can't bear it anymore; God, please have mercy on her...mercy on me!"

Zacharie knelt down crying, and punched his fist on the hard ground out of frustration.

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