05

Tomorrow will be the day of the date. I am so nervous. It is my first date and i don't know what to think about it. Also, living alone, i have nobody to ask for an advice about what to wear, what should i do during the date, what kind of discussion should we have. Then, i took almost two hours to find the best dress to wear. I know that i don't have many clothes, but it is the first time i took so long to find something good.

Now, it's bed time. But, i don't know if i will fall asleep. And then, if i do, i hope that i will not find him again in my dream. For now on, the only dream that i want is something kind and peacefull.

"Think about something good and you will have good dream", i told myself

And slowly, i fall asleep.

What a peacefull palce. Happily, i take deep breath and apreciate the view in front of me. A beautiful landscape, like enchanting, with bird's voices that give the place such a magical and peacefull atmosphere.

" I can stay here forever." I said

" But you will be bored." Said a woman behind me

I will recognize this voice everywhere.

" Mom ?" i ask while i face her. " Mom !! "

And i run to her. She is real, she is really there. I can touch her.

" Is it really you?"

" Sweety, how are you?"

it's really her, there's no doubt.

" I missed you so much"

I can feel my heart going crazy and my hands trembling while i am huging her. Her perfume has not changed at all.

" How ? " I ask .

" You are not ..."

I knew what she will tell me, i new it since a long time, but i didn't expect to find her here.

" I know mom, i only dreaming"

" You know? "

" Yeah, it's not my first lucid dream"

" Really? it's a good thing then"

Good?

" Now that you only there, from now on."

"Hmmmm, sweety..." She looks embaraced. " I can't stay here forever"

" What are you talking about? Of course you can"

"Listen, sweety. I am here to tell you that everything happen for a good reason. You shouldn't force fate, dear."

" Fate? You are talking about the fact that i ask you to stay ?"

" Not only, you will understand while it's time."

" Time for ?"

" You will understand by yourself, dear"

"And, if i don't ?"

"It only means that it's not the approriate moment to understand then. Trust yourself and listen to your heart, and everything will run good."

" So, you will not stay ?"

And suddenly, she laughs

" No, i will not. But, remember that, when you will need me, when you will ask for me, i will be there for you. Even if you do not see me."

" But, i always need you"

"You are strong, you can do and can be everything you want", she said while taking me in her arms.

" I will see you again ?"

"You are not alone, never give up. I love you."

I slowly cry. And i wake up.

It was a dream full of emotion. I still crying, but i am not feeling sad. It's like i am filled with peace.

My mom was right, i can be everything i want. I just have to trust myself and never give up.

And i leave my bed for the bathroom. And, when i walk through the room to the bathroom, i see her picture smiling on me.

" I love you too, mom"