Twenty Seven : Depressed

Kim SoRa POV

28 September 2019,

I sat behind my desk, looking at the rain falling from my office window in Minerva. I was working on the monthly report when Sunmi called me earlier. She said she would stay in Gwangju for a few days. It's been a week that Sunmi has been at her parents' house, because her mother is sick and wants her to come.

Hearing this, I thought of my parents in Gwangju. Even though we often text and call each other, sometimes I still miss them a lot and feel worried about their health.

*knock knock

"Noona ... we finished cleaning the book area. We will go home now", said Yunsu from the doorway

"Ye (ok). You guys go home first. I'll lock the ground floor door", I replied

It's 11 p.m, Minerva's just closing. I don't want to go home because these days I feel lonely there. Usually, Sunmi would come to Minerva or my apartment just to chat or have dinner together.

I miss Sunmi and Namjoon. Yes Namjoon. We haven't seen each other since our last day in Copenhagen. We parted at Copenhagen airport. My flight to Korea left 3 hours earlier than Namjoon and his two friends' flight. Even though we are still exchanging messages, I still miss his presence near me.

Actually, Namjoon has been in Korea since three days ago. He and the other BTS members just returned to Korea after filming Bon Voyage in New Zealand. Namjoon told me that they had a very pleasant time there. Their return to Korea means that BTS has finished their break and has returned to their schedules. This makes me happy and sad. I'm happy that BTS will be active again and make a comeback in the media. And the other hand, I feel sad that it will be really difficult to meet Namjoon.

I turned off my computer and cleaned the papers that scattered on my desk. I'm so hungry, maybe I'll stop by somewhere to buy some food, I'm not in the mood to cook. I locked my office door and didn't forget to lock Minerva's ground floor door. The atmosphere outside was very quiet because it was almost midnight and still raining.

I drove my car to a convenience store near my apartment. I bought a sandwich and a box of juice.

"Kim Sora ssi?", I heard a male voice calling me

I turned my face and saw Park Minwoo standing behind me carrying a shopping basket.

"Minwoo ssi? What are you doing here?", I asked, surprised to see him

"I'm buying food, my apartment is across the street. What are you doing Sora? Do you live nearby too?", He asked

"Ne (yes)...", I replied, nodding

"You haven't had dinner yet?", Asked Minwoo when he saw the sandwich and juice in my hand

"Ye .. I stopped by to buy this before I go home", I said awkwardly

"Do you want to eat with me? I also haven't had dinner yet", he said, showing his shopping basket

"Uh?", I said confused

"We can eat this while sitting there", said Minwoo, pointing to the row of chairs near the shop door

"Mmm alright", I said, feeling bad

We paid for our meals and headed for the diners seats for dinner.

"Did you just come back from Minerva, Sora?", Asked Minwoo as he opened the plastic Gimbab (Korean sushi rolls) he had just bought

"Ne .. you just got home too?", I asked while drinking my juice

"Ye ... I'm very busy at the end of the month. I have to make sure our magazine is published on time", he said again after swallowing his food

"it must be very hard," I said

"It is...sometimes I have to stay overnight in the office if there are pending articles", he replied smiling as he ate his food

I nodded my head while eating my sandwich.

"Anyway, how are your parents?", Asked Minwoo looking at me

"They are fine," I replied

"Are your parents still angry with me?", He asked again

"Uh??.. mmm I don't know", I replied awkwardly

"I can understand if they're still angry", he replied with a smile

"Mmm...when you were in Japan, did you also worked as a fashion editor?", I asked trying to change the subject

Minwoo smiled at me. Surely he knows that I was changing the conversation. He really knows me well. He sighed and started talking again.

"To be honest, when my father took me to Japan, I didn't work for about 5 months", he said seriously, looking at me sharply

"Huh?What do you mean?", I asked, frowning

"My father took me to visit a psychiatrist there. I underwent therapy and medication for several months. After my condition stabilized, I start working at a company owned by my father's friend", he replied, looking at me with a hurt gaze

"Jjinja? (Really?) Psychiatrist?", I asked in shocked

"Ne, you've seen how I was when that incident happened right? I was very depressed, I felt my world was destroyed", said Minwoo, smiling bitterly

I couldn't say anything, I could tell from the look in his eyes that he was telling the truth.

"Minwoo~aah ... I didn't know that you experienced something like that. I ... I ...", I stammered

"Gwaenchana yo (it's ok) Kim Sora! Indeed, I was wrong, you didn't do anything wrong to me, so don't ever feel like that. I am really sorry for what I did to you before. Really really sorry...", said Minwoo with pleading

"Ye.. I told you that I have forgiven you, so we shouldn't have to discuss it again", I said to him sincerely

"I am grateful to you for forgive me. Thank you Sora-ah. I hope we can be friend again. I will prove that I've changed", he said with smile on his face

"Ne," I said while nodded

We smiled at each other.

"By the way, do you always come home this late Sora?", He asked again while eating his last gimbab

"Ani (no)... like you said, the end of the month is a busy time. I also have to complete some reports", I replied after finishing my dinner.

"You're still the same as before, Sora, always work really hard when you do something ", said Minwoo chuckled

"What? I think everyone did the same too", I replied laughing at his comment

We sat there for a while in silent, just looking at the window where lots of cars were passing by. Busy with our own thoughts.

"It's midnight Sora, we better go home. May I take you home?", Asked Minwoo looking worried, when he looked at his watch

"Ani. I'm driving here. You don't have to bother to do that", I said, shaking my head as I got up from my seat and walking towards my car

"All right. See you next time then. Be careful huh?!",said Minwoo when we were in front of my car

"Ye. You too", I said as I closed my car door

I drove my car slowly and looked at Minwoo in my rearview mirror. I saw he was still standing in the same place, waving his hand. Minwoo's words about his condition really hit me. I know, I don't have feeling for him anymore. But knowing that he had to visit a psychiatrist after that incident made me feel a little guilty. Did I hurt his feelings so deep??. I shook my head .. it's over Sora, it has passed, it's not your fault!! I said to myself. I continued my journey, trying not to think about it anymore.