First Fear.

Hope's Pov

Work was done and dusted with me being at the bad receiving end. The fucking first water/Blood that was meant to spill on the baby splashed me in the face. My uniform is a fucking bloody mess and I meant that literally!

We, nurses, try, yet all because we are in this fucking demented country we don't get the credit we are meant to! Like seriously!? Anyways I could care less how bloody I look or how disgusting this may look but I know what I did in there.

I sacrificed myself to save the kid first. But now why do I have so many dark thoughts. Not about the poor kid but myself. Who would save me when I need saving?

I don't know what forced my hand to borrow 37k from those loan apps. I did it expecting to get something but why are things not working out for me!?

I thought this year was meant to be my year of no sorrow, no pain, nothing sad but why is my life turning for the worst in this month of February!?

December ending 2021 my blessings started to appear right before me. First, my contract got finally signed after so many errors and trials, January I began to receive little money from unexpected people but the moment February came it ah! It was like I was getting choked.

I began going to work on an empty stomach even while knowing about my health issues/Alcer but what could I do? Daddy had just gone to burrow 500k from the bank and mummy had also gone to burrow 250k for her business not also knowing she would fall into a ditch with her only phone which is her only source for her business falling and got smashed.

The whole fucking screen was a black idol. To repair was 15k and she couldn't touch the money since she had a budget for it. What would she do? Sometimes I began to wonder why did daddy go into poultry!?

Now the chickens aren't laying any eggs for close to a month now! Feed prices had increased to 7k per bag if not more and those chickens are eating 2bags per day! What can we do!? Hoping I could earn from webnovel but I am not earning shit!

I know it's probably because I don't update that frequently but what can I say I'm a very busy person without time for myself or my wellbeing. While I always am the most understanding person in the family it seems like no one even appreciates that.

If only I hadn't gotten chased out of school for having so many carryovers and a CGPA of 0.98 how can I forget that. In a course, I never wanted, tried to understand for my parents but still, I failed and yet I am to be blamed.

I never once liked the course because even the lecturers don't know how to break the explanations down. I was never granted the opportunity as a science student to know what they do in the laboratory and that was because of how low funded my secondary school was.

As science students, we didn't have a lab. It was bad and it affected me more than I could think but it wasn't just my secondary school, my university which I was eventually thrown out of, we don't have all the lab apparatus. I did some laboratory research when I was in my 100-200l but that was it. And honestly, it felt and looked like a repetition of research that was based on titration.

Anyways, now isn't the time for reminiscing. I have to get home on time just to cook for my dad since mum went out today. I am tired as it is but does anyone care!? Of course not! Especially him, as long as he eats he doesn't care if you do or not yet he will definitely complain about something.

I was so lost in my head that I almost hit a moving tree but what can I say, I'm that clum... Wait, what!? A moving tree!! Turning around I couldn't even scream at what I saw, the tree was eating a baby.

Red eyes branches were melting, its whole bark was filled with Margot, they are so plenty it's irritating to look at. Spiders were pooling out of the baby's eyes, blood on the ground at my feet with dead bodies of babies...

Bones rotten, jumping maggots and crawling Spiders everywhere. Goosebumps could be seen on my skin, suddenly the maggots and spiders began to combine.

The joined, intertwined, mixed till before me stood a marspider. It was about to grab ahold of me when I evaded. I ran!

I ran like never before my throat felt dry, I couldn't breathe I just kept running, but the most Bizarre thing was happening around me, people were looking at me crazy.

My right twitching eye was seeing monsters while my left and perfectly working eye was seeing the world as it is.

What was going on!? Oh my God!! I want this joke to stop!! I have enough on my plate please don't add mental issues to it! I don't want to also be labeled crazy! Yahweh!! Where are you when I need you! Ahhh!

I didn't know where else to go so, my legs took me home. The fucking thing was still chasing me. Luckily the gate was opened this time so I ran inside the compound jamming the gate closed.

I didn't expect what would happen next. The thing basically phased through the gate and grabbed me. The next thing I know I woke up in a Red World.