I CAN'T HELP

Am sorry

I know I told you not to worry

But my world's still a lil blurry

I still have my scar

My journey to healing is still far

Am sorry I lied

Am sorry but I tried

I can't help

Can't make you feel better

When am still under the weather

Dear mirror i hate you

Cause everyday I wish I ain't you

I want you to take back your crown

But right now I still drown

Right now I still breakdown

Right now I still wish to be six feet under

Thinking I could help you was only a blunder

I want you to be brave

But I also need to be saved

I can't take the advice I gave

Cause it's still hard

Cause I still feel sad

Not just love,I have other issues

I've cried out all the tissues

Am not that type too

Never Let any see through

And I stupidly tried to heal you

When am broken too

The crazy truth

Is am broken to the root

I can't tell anyone,I keep mute

Myself I try to fix

But I can't take the risk

Am sorry...

Am sorry for the trouble I caused

But I can't help cause am also lost

I fake a smile

Be somebody am not

I tried, gave it all I got

But I have a hidden cut

The pain still hits the spot

Those battles I fought

They still hurt Alot

In this unending darkness I still rot

Breaking every night with my thought

Sorry can't fix you, myself I have still have to sort