Dear Adam : Know you

POV KHADIJAH

I walked into the campus area, I saw a man who managed to make me fall in love. However, I still don't know what his name is.

The man's voice managed to shake my heart at that time.

The man's smile looks beautiful like an addiction, it feels like I always want to see him. Maybe he's interested in getting to know me, or am I just figuring it out.

I know falling in love for the first time like this, falling in love because of his character.

How not, a man as good as him who is almost extinct. His smile alone thrills my heart, unfortunately I can only secretly love him, maybe until an indefinite time.

He smelled like a flowing heavenly scent, a hot dizzy feeling when he was close to her.

"Dijah, who are you looking at hayooo?"

"I?"

"Of course."

Sera looked suspiciously at me, she was my classmate who was super curious at the goddess level.

"I know who you saw."

I glared when Sera said that.

"Rummy!"

Suddenly Sera called someone with the name Rumi. My heart suddenly stopped when the man turned his head towards us. My mind whispered a little "Damn, this Sera! but, what is Rumi's name what is hers?"

The man came to us, I was only able to bite the corner of my lips, it was shaking and nervous.

"What are you calling me for?"

"Hah?"

I saw the damn Sera disappeared leaving me and him facing each other. I just smirked.

"Miss?"

"Eh, sorry for calling my friend earlier, but he's already gone."

At that time, I was very awkward in front of the man who had really made me fall in love and changed my world.

I remember the love story between mother and uncle. Mother fell in love with uncle Haqi not because of his good looks and material things, but morals and chanting of holy verses. No wonder if love for Allah is extraordinary compared to love because lust in the form of physical and material can fade.

Maybe, I can only pray to love him, I really want him as a dream priest.

He and I just stood staring at each other.

"Miss?"

"Uh, yeah."

"I want to go first, I understand that there is a lot of work," he said with a smile.

Then he left me still standing there. While his shadow steps had disappeared.

*

"Dijah?!"

"Duh, why did the child's sich tuch appear?" Khadijah muttered.

Khadijah also turned around and quickened her steps, she chose to hide in a campus cafe kitchen. She did it on purpose, because she was too lazy to meet Ridwan.

"Eheeemmm....."

"Ssssttt...."

"Ma'am, why do you look hideous and scared?"

Khadijah was surprised to hear the familiar voice.

"Oh, um...."

"Is there something...."

"Khadijah where are you?!"

"Please, sir. I don't want to see him."

"Okay, I'll kick him out."

Khadijah stroked his chest, as if the man could read the code of his heart.

Outside Khadijah saw Ridwan chatting with the man whose name was Rumi. Then, I saw Ridwan leave.

"Ma'am, the man in front is gone now it's safe, you can go out, but this is a drink first." Rumi handed her a glass of mineral water.

"Thanks."

"You're welcome."

"Oh yeah, what's your name?"

"Rumi."

"Khadijah."

"Oh, it's you who often call to prayer, huh?"

Rumi just smiled.

"Oh, are you here to work?"

"I'm here finishing my studies, and that's because of the scholarship if I can't afford it myself."

"Same then."

Rumi's smile.

"Master's Scholarship?"

"Rumi nodded in agreement."

"Just the same."

"Yes, it's called sustenance to be grateful for."

"In Indonesia, which city do you live in?"

"Magelang, sis."

"Eh, don't call Ms., just call Khadijah."

"Yes, that's fine. Khadijah is like the name of the wife of the prophet Muhammad."

Khadijah smiled, "Maybe my parents are having fun with the prophet Muhammad so give me the name Khadijah, hopefully I can find a soul mate who has good morals like the prophet Muhammad."

"Amen."

"Eh, thank you. You saved me from being chased by that guy."

"You're welcome."

*

After school, I went straight to my room. I feel like my body is heavy. Some courses make my head a little dizzy. Not to mention working on a thesis whose deadline is just around the corner.

"Why does Ridwan use everything to come to campus? I know that I hate seeing his face that is always showing!" I was very annoyed with Ridwan's attitude who always looked like a paparazzi. imprecise never even possible I expected.

I started laying down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling. I feel like I miss my whole family but unfortunately I have to be able to accept a destiny.

"I'm really grateful, when God still gave me a chance to be able to meet my father again." I sighed a little heavily because I still wanted something that would never be possible.

I began to recall some of my past memories with my family who were still intact at that time. I really want my family to remain intact, but circumstances have given me something to stay aware of in the face of the realities of life.

I started to close my eyelids and then I felt how my father and mother were together. A happy little family just me, Hasan, my father and mother. Happiness is really simple but unfortunately all that has passed. I haven't found anything that makes me want to continue to be happy, other than being with those who are truly whole.

"If only I could turn back time, maybe I just want my father and mother to be one. But the truth is. All of that will never be possible. Everything is just what I want or say if." I muttered in my heart then I started to open my eyes again. Everything really can never be changed at all. "I miss my past. "