RUFUS BLAME HIMSELF

Rufus just look at the cake, knowing now how talented she is, and how he had disrupted her life. Hearing his mother saying to him, as he turn aside to see where she were.

"Your grandmother has been doing cakes for years, but seeing this cake Courtney help her with is magnificent, I thought she did something special just for Carlos."

"Mom, you know grandmother like perfection, she must have sits with her companion to ensure she was satisfied, but yes, it is really nice."

Rufus thought back about the meeting on the beach, between she and Carlos, 'Did she do this to get favor?

'She said he made her an offer, if only I wasn't so angry seeing them talking, she might have told me what was his proposition?

Now I will never know what she is thinking, and from seeing the work she did with the girls so far, I know for definite she is not stupid.'

With so many questions on his mind Rufus felt broken. Not paying attention to his mom talking, he walks in the yard where all the tents were set up.

The decorators were busy doing the finish touches. "Little brother, did I see correctly, that little lady was driving grandfather van?"

"Yes Carlos, you've seen correctly, and she will be here to have you organize on time tomorrow, so be in place for eight in the morning, and don't have her waiting."

"Sorry brother, Mom made arrangements to have someone come in to attend to me, so there's no need to worry about me."

"Then if you are not organized for eight, big brother and you run late, don't blame anyone except yourself, you were worn."

Hurting, but he keep his emotion in check, until he reaches to his room, where the tears began to flow."

Blaming himself, "Because of me she didn't eat, if something happen to you I will never forgive myself, so how can I expect she to forgive me?

Lord I have said I am sorry so many times, how many times again must I say I am sorry begore she forgive and speak with me?"

Hoping while he took his bath the tears will stop, but it didn't, and neither did sleep come. Feeling restless turning from side to side, knowing tomorrow will be a long and tedious day.

Closing his eyes knowing the only thing help is when he pray, "Lord Jesus, forgive me please, that stain I made though matter how I tries it seem as though it cannot be wipe clean, I beg for your mercy and ask you to please wipe it away."

Though matter what Rufus tried to fall asleep, nothing seems to work, Hearing as the clock bang hour after hour then finally he had fallen asleep, only to hear the pounding on the door and Dad calling him to get up. "What is the matter, Dad?"

"Come on and hurry, we have to do a few things on the plantation."

"Dad, it is still night please let me sleep."

Looking at Rufus' face Rawlins knew he was still very tired, becoming concern but with dad foot sick he know he cannot complete the work by himself.

"Son, I wish I could manage by myself, and you look so tired but it is already seven and we are getting late to full the order."

Freshening up, "Oh Lord, You know it's going to be a long day, so please help me today, I only just fall asleep and I am so tired."

Reaching downstairs seeing Pappie van park up at the side of the tent, "Dad, how long ago Pappie came?"

"It's not Dad Son, Courtney came early to help the girls. Son, we must remember to pay her something special for all this extra work she is doing for the family, and your Mom said she help Ma, with the cake."

"Yes Dad, but I thought you knew that?"

"Yes, I heard when you told your mother last night, but I was so tired I wasn't sure I heard right."

Hearing Janis said from the stairs, "Mom, Courtney said your hair needs trimming and for you to wash it, and soon as she has some time she will call you."

"Honey, will you ask her if when she has some time I could get a razor mark."

"I will ask Dad, and Dad I know you are busy but can you and Rufus be ready by one so we could get some family pictures, I asked Courtney to take some for us."

"I don't see why not honey."

"Thanks, Dad, and I love you and you, my brother how can I thank you, if it wasn't for you we would have been stranded."

'If they only know the truth and why she is her, I will never hear the end of their dissatisfaction.'