Tired

In a room full of books, Jifan sat down by himself reading a worn-out book. The book was somehow present in his private room, as if it were present when this room was built. In fact, most of his books are books that are out of nowhere but contain fascinating material. Jifan could never get enough of reading a book once, he had to read it again and again. Repeated until he himself forgot how many times he had carefully opened an old book to prevent further deterioration.

He liked her sitting alone in silence. It's like finding a place to rest after a long trip. As soon as I sat in a chair made of woven bamboo with a layer of melted pine resin all at once. Every inch of this room holds a lot of inner calm for him.

Knock!

Knock!

Knock!

The knock on the door made Jifan head look up. Closed the unfinished book and stood up. He lightly tidy up his black ghost and steps toward the door. Opened the door so she could see her older sister's face. The face was full of happiness, Jifan was jealous of it.

"Look! I brought a present from last night's festival!" Jifan smiled to see what his sister had shown him. Hardly ever did he eat the sugar because he was always in the palace and never saw how ripe the market was. He'll never even know how the people outside the palace mingle with the clan leaders if he doesn't go out last night.

"Let's eat!" he exclaimed with delight. Jifan followed her sister out of her room and made her way to the park by the fish pond. They sat both surrounded by servants and guards. Sharing their sugared greens. Anna's purchase of refreshments from the market made Jifan snarl about spending it all. But seeing Anna's enthusiastic face made it impossible for her to refuse as the teenager presented her with another treat to eat.

"It's so nice to have young master's life, just have to sit in a cage all you can have."

If he was in his place, he wouldn't even chew the food in his mouth. His body stiffened at once to hear an audible voice and he knew who its owner was -Filo.

The woman stood behind the two who seemed to enjoy a snack. Obviously the snack Anna bought yesterday from fersitval, there's no way a Jifan could get that kind of market food. The father would forbid loudly and chose to open a market in Jifan room door for his beloved son. Even the world might be transferred to the musty chamber of jifan if the boy wished.

"Filo wants to eat with us?" Anna asked. She handed me the red butterfly shaped candy. Filo commented on his slight smile and removed Anna's hand in front of him. His gaze was fixed on the boy sitting behind him with his stiff shoulders.

"Do you want to be punished for your disrespect, Jifan?" said Filo. Filo smiled on his face. He will be respected even as a teenager.

"I'm sorry..." said Jifan again bending over his head in an apology, and that made Fillo smile even more remarkable. He was content to be born before the two weak people in front of him. Even if he could choose to be the firstborn in order to be respected by his siblings. Born a second child, she never even bowed down to her sister.

"You deserve to be punished, don't you? If dad had seen that attitude with his own eyeballs, he would have lost his face," Filo and walked away. At that, Jifan breathed a sigh of relief and shrugged his shoulders.

But Filo stopped his step. His body then turned back toward his siblings. He commented on his subtle smile on Jifan back bow to him.

"Oh, yes, can you be my sparring partner?" said Filo with a friendly face. Jifan looked down, thinking clearly about how to refuse the invitation. But even before his brain had found a good reason, his eyes saw the big brother hanfu standing one step ahead of him.

"Ok, Filo," Jifan answered. Filo smiled and then patted his brother on the head twice.

"Good, I hope your hair turns brown after practicing with me," she said and left. This time he actually went making Jifan clench his hand. He doesn't like being physically insulted like that. Fucking hate it.

Anna touched her brother arm and invited her to snack again and forget earlier Filo speech. Jifan shook his head against it. He just wanted to be alone in his room full of his annoyance from Filo teasing. As if her hair truly was a curse on her.

"I want to go to my place, Anna. Can I come home early?" say goodbye Jifan.

Anna was saddened to hear that her little brother wanted to return before finishing the sweets she had bought from the market. Despite this, Anna was unable to refuse her brother request to see her injured face covered. Anna nodded to her younger brother in the presence of her bodyguards and personal servants. Her gaze was on the Filo back, which seemed far from where he was standing.

Anna never liked her sister much less her brother. The two of them had always made Jifan so sad that it bothered him to entertain his younger sister how. Then he took off and left the food's.

Meanwhile, as soon as Jifan room gets in his private room. Sitting in that quiet place all by himself with a frown on his face. What was his fault? Did not the people understand that he also never expected to have a physical difference with his own family. He also wishes to live with the same physical life as them. But in his different physical form he tried to express his gratitude freely, and could people also stop at least begat him? Can they shut up and stop taunting him?

Her tears fell as soon as her chest felt tight. He really hates it when he feels weak like this. It was as if he wasn't grateful for his god's creation. Her hand moved away from her tears and then chose to read a new book that she had taken from the inside shelf. Removing the unfinished book from her reading and starting a new one from the shelf.

A knock at the door drew Jifan out. Who else is she supposed to meet this time? He wishes it wasn't his brother or even his father. She still remembers yesterday middle of sulking with her father because his aloof attitude hurt her.

His hand lazily opened the door and watched as his older brother stood with his hands outstretched behind his body. Her ill feeling made her quite reluctant to face one more brother. It's barely noon yet, but its energy feels like it's wearing out.

Can she express her annoyance like her father suggested? Would it be all right if he said he was reluctant to meet his sister and kick her out? He's really tired. But she still had the courtesy of accepting the arrival of her brother who never even referred to her as a sister.