28 Starting over

Janette said, "At least he wanted to cuddle after he had finished it was not like he wanted to kick you out of bed as soon as he got off but I think that was part of him picturing me as his sweetheart it was like he just couldn't get close enough to me. I know that he had been picturing her in his mind the whole time he had his eyes closed almost the whole time just using the way I felt to guide him. She must have liked it a little rougher than I do or maybe it was just him and what he wanted to do but at least he checked at times to see if it was too rough. And he did catch every time I grimaced and moved slower or at least applied less pressure to take the pain away. I can't say that he was the best lover in the world but I can say that at least he was trying to make it good for me by optimizing the pleasure that he was giving. At least that is the way I felt as he got what he wanted. I have to admit that it was very nice just sitting there cuddling and he seemed to be enjoying holding me and just lightly kissing me lightly. Above all else, I know that if I am with him that I will be loved. They told me that his love was killed by I drunk driver I doubt that there is a day that goes by that he is not missing her at least that is how he acts."

Janette knew the feeling of the loss and so did a lot of the others and that was why she had started bonding with him. Janette was thinking about all this and she was looking down at her hands she just didn't want to face the girls any more her emotions were getting to be too much to face and the feeling of being drained was getting worse it had been adding up but at least now she knew that there was only a little left to tell them she just hoped that they would be able to help her decide what to do next.

Janette said, "I have to admit that he really did want to cuddle after so it left me kind of confused about the whole thing unless Aleen was a stripper or acted like one after school unless that is what he wanted her to be or act like at least that is how I was seeing it. Well, it was not that long when Will came after me and he was very reluctant to let me go he just wanted me to lay there holding him running my fingers through his hair. I was sure that he was used to her doing that for him. When Will called I started to get up when he took ahold of my hand and looked deeply into my eyes and said that he didn't want me to go he wanted me to stay and just be with him and I think he was meaning permanently. When Will didn't hear a reply he once again knocked on the door and called out that his time was up and that I needed to get going to prepare for the next appointment. At first, he held me down not wanting to let me go but then he realized that he couldn't just keep me no matter how much he wanted me so he finally let me up I started to collect my outfit when he stopped me and said that I couldn't have it and he tossed me one of the robes to put on. I did not know what to do so I finally slipped on the robe and went to the door where Will was just waiting on it to open."

Janette continued, "I told him that the guy would not let me get the clothes and that they had to stay there. Will gave me a look like a father that was quieting a distressed child and told me not to worry about it that everything was ok he could deal with all that later it was getting late and we needed to get going that the mistress does not like to be kept waiting. So he took me by the hand and we started walking down the hall. I was so shocked when he did not put a blindfold on me to take me back to the room. After walking for a little bit I understood everything all the people that we passed in the halls had the same robes on so I kind of look like I was one but then I saw the true reason that I didn't need the blindfold they all had masks on so there was no way that I could identify any of them. So then I understood everything it had never really been for my protection it was just for the guests. But since I had a robe on just like all the others it didn't seem like anyone was paying that much attention to me as we walked along."

"I was amazed at the beauty of the place it was just elegant in every detail all the paintings that were hanging on the walls each one had its own lighting to show it off and it looked like the place was built in order to show it all off and some of them looked like they should have been hanging in some sort of museum but it was private for the select few that were allowed to come in and look around. It was not just the painting that made the place look like a museum there was art everywhere along with what looked like priceless vases on display here and there. I had to be careful I almost knocked one off of a table when I accidentally bumped into it. I saw it at the start to tip and I grabbed of it before it could fall." Janette said.

Janette took a sip of her drink then said, "The biggest shock I had was while we were going down the hall one of the doors opened and someone came out of one of the rooms just ahead of us it was such a shock as we passed by the open door I was able to see in and there looked like there could have been like ten or fifteen people in there but it was really hard to tell for sure there was both male and female in there and they were all nude there was a big pile of them in the middle of the room where you could not tell where one ended and the other began it was just like a mass of moving bodies and off to the side were a few more that it looked like didn't want to be part or maybe they just broke off doing there own thing. to tell you the truth I would have rather been off to the side I think." But the more that Janette thought about it the more that she thought that she wouldn't mind trying it at least once she remembered how it felt like having so many touching all at the same time, and she knew that that would just have to be more intense.

"As I stood there looking through the door with my mouth hanging open Will told me not to worry about that they were all there because they had asked to be part of it and there were none that didn't want it. That made me blush and I could tell that he saw some desire in me he must have by the look that he gave me. He saw right through me and seen that all these new things that I had been exposed to had broken me out of my shell, but I was still too new to it all to know just what I wanted. He gave my hand a pull and it started me moving and I think the guy that was in the doorway was a little upset at it I think he was hoping that I was going to be going into the room. I saw him whisper something to Will and Will's expression changed to a mean hard look and bluntly said no she is not part of that. Then the guy whispered some more and I saw Will's face redden and in a sterner voice he said I already gave you my answer please go about your business. I was surprised by the way that Will had talked to him and the difference in the way that he handled it as opposed to the way he handles it with Miss Lola he seemed like she was ruling over him and this guy was just an annoyance. Janette said as she regained her smile.

Janette had been putting off going to the bathroom for a while because she wanted to get through it all but now she knew that she was not going to be able to hold it any longer and so she said, "I am sorry I just have to go again."

Stacy got the biggest grin on her face it was no wonder that she had to pee so much with all that she was drinking and when she started to get up Molly told her that she could go with her. This made Stacy very nervous and she whispered in her ear, "You have to make sure that you keep her distracted so she doesn't notice that the place has filled up with coworkers."

Molly looked around and she had not really noticed it before she had only been paying attention to the story. Molly nodded in agreement that Janette shouldn't be aware of them. Molly just wanted a little more time with Janette she was dying to tell her that she liked her, well-liked was not really the correct word but it was, not love either so liked would have to do. Every time that Janette looked her way she couldn't help but smile, and half of the time Molly would lose track of what she was saying or doing as her mind would wander off thinking of different parts of Janette's story. The reason that Molly wanted so badly to stay close was to get the chance to be with her and ask her a few questions that the others would not hear. Molly stayed close and just as Stacy suggested she kept her distracted. Janette was surprised when Molly started asking her questions about her feelings and what it was like when she was with the groups and then when she was alone with Lola and Kimberly if she liked the dynamic of being someone's pet and what did she feel when she was with Kimberly if it was better then when she was with the others.

Janette could tell that there was something that Molly really wanted to say that was guiding her questions but Janette did her best to explain how emotional that the whole thing was and how it was just so confusing she had never been attracted to a girl before.

Molly heard that loud and clear she had never been attracted to a girl BEFORE. After that Molly kind of stopped listening or not so intently, she was dying to ask her how she felt about her but she knew that she still had a little more to tell. And then there was going to be the question that she would be asked but she did like the fact that she was open at least to try different things. Molly was hoping that meant that her mind was open to at least thinking of other choices because she was thinking that she wanted to offer one more.