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"That's because he has been brainwashed by you, and you are taking advantage of his will!"
"Yeah?"
Sakayanagi Arisu seemed to have thought of something interesting. She didn't pay attention to Matsuo Eiichiro's somewhat rude tone:
"It's a pity that his will is not that strong."
"In the fourth year, um, around fourteen years old, Ryo seemed to have reached his limit."
She raised her head and recalled very seriously:
"Whether it's learning, physical fitness, or other knowledge development, he suddenly can't keep up."
"It's a terrible thing to regress in a place like the White House."
"He began to lose his memory ability in large areas. Not only could he not remember what he learned today, but he would even forget what he learned last month tomorrow. As a result, Liang's grades dropped step by step to the bottom of that batch of students."
"Now that I think about his expression after he realized that he had been eliminated... he was very desperate, but he cried and shouted that he wanted to stay for his sister. The failure was also very ugly."
The corners of Sakayanagi Yusu's lips curved into a cruel arc:
"So in the end I can only send him out as a failure."]
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[You turned over in the ocean of dreams, and these bubble-like dreams wrapped you in as softly as the highest-end sofa. You waved, and a piece of dream flew over, just like a movie. The movie starts in front of you. ]
[You realized that you could spy on other people's dreams when you were thirteen years old, so from that time on, you deliberately tried to pick up all kinds of dreams in this area in your dreams at night. You didn't Without realizing how much pressure this behavior will put on you later on, it will be nothing more than a way to pass the time at night. ]
["But these people's dreams are so boring."
You yawned. Most of the dreams of those in the white room at night were blank, as empty as the huge white room. These dreams without anything could even make a splash in your mind. ]
["Do you want to see your sister's dreams?" You struggle with this question every night. On the one hand, you are indeed obsessed with your sister beyond imagination, but at the same time, you feel that it is not right to pry into the dreams of close people. Behavior.
"But I really want to see it."
The thought pops up in your mind, spreading like wild weeds in your heart.
"How about just taking a look?"
Moved, you slowly search for your sister's dream in this area. After a while, you find her, because unlike other white dreams, this is a crystal-clear and colorful light. dream. ]
["If my sister says something bad about me in a dream, I will treat it as a dream."
"If my sister says something good about me in her dream, I will take it as my sister's true subconscious thoughts!"
In this way, you comfort yourself in advance, and you touch this dream carefully, and the next moment, your consciousness is sucked into it]
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["Dear brother, Kitagawa Ryo! This is Ichinose Honami. It has been two weekends since you moved away. Because I am very unhappy now, I don't want you to be happy when you read this letter. , that way, you who are happy won't know that I am unhappy."
"Actually, what makes me even more unhappy is that when I'm unhappy, I can't go directly to your home and tell you that I'm unhappy. Instead, I have to write to you at this time and wait until you receive the letter. , maybe I have forgotten this matter, and when you reply again, I may have something new to tell you."
"I really don't like writing letters. I would rather look at your face and your eyes and say these words to you."
Sakayanagi Yusu looked at the letter in his hand from Hanami Ichinose and covered his forehead with some tiredness.
"So why do you want me to reply to the letter?"
"Because it was you, Miss, who took the initiative to take on the role of 'sister', so I think asking Miss you to reply to this letter can give you a deeper understanding of the other person's thoughts and better play the role. ."
The old butler next to him, wearing a suit and ties, bowed and said.
"Is this so...?"
Sakayanagi Yusu, who claims to be a genius, has not been interested in something for a long time. The recent "Kitagawa Ryo" can barely be counted. She read the entire letter again. According to literary standards, this letter The letter was suitable for the other person's ten-year-old age. It was filled with various typos and occasional grammatical errors, but if you only consider the emotion, it is still sincere.
"In order to compensate for replacing your identity, I will create a sweet dream for you."
Sakayanagi Yusu held the pen:
"Don't wake up."
She quickly wrote a reply to Ichinose Honami as Kitagawa Ryo, expressing her longing for Ichinose Honami, and vaguely mentioned that she hoped to increase the frequency of communication with him, and finally said bluntly The previous sentence "As expected, my favorite is Honami Ichinose!".
So for the next three years, she communicated with Ichinose Honami like this.
"Are you at a loss when a boy in your class confessed to you? Oh, he should be in junior high school now, and it's almost time."
Sakayanagi Arisu opened the letter and suddenly had a mischievous idea in her mind:
"I like you. Although we have been separated for three years, it is precisely because of separation that I can realize my feelings."
"Although I can't meet you right now, can I ask Honami Ichinose to be me and Ryo Kitagawa's girlfriend?"
Sakayanagi Yusu stopped writing. She held her head and tapped her pen on the table with a chuckle.
She didn't know why, but she wasn't as happy as she imagined.
On the contrary, when I wrote the last sentence, my heart throbbed slightly.
It's an illusion.
she thought. ]
ps: I will continue coding tonight until I feel sleepy. I didn't handle the third simulation well. I will finish this part before it is put on the shelves. You don't have to worry about whether this will affect the plot. The outline is already there. , if the previous chapters make you feel incomprehensible, it's my problem, I'm sorry.
ps2: Thank you for your support, thank you.
Ichinose Honami's summer reappears: Chapter 31: Waking up from a dream
["Hey, this is psychiatrist Sakayanagi Yusu."
"I'm Kitagawa Ryo."
You heard yourself saying this. Although you have lost your memory now, you were keen and found three notes from the pocket of your nightgown.
The first one: "If you have any doubts, please call the phone number of psychiatrist Sakayanagi Arisu", followed by a list of contact information.
The second picture: "Meow, meow, meow, meow," a word with no meaning at all. You don't know yet whether it is a strange code, but it is signed "Firefly".
The third picture: "Don't believe what Ichinose Honami says, everything - Kitagawa Ryo."
After confirming that Honami Ichinose, the woman who claimed to be your wife, left home, you called the psychiatrist Yusu Sakayanagi. ]
["Ryo Kitagawa, Mr. Kitagawa?"
Over there, Sakayanagi Yusu, who calls himself a psychiatrist, chuckled.
"You just dialed my number yesterday. I didn't expect it to be you again today."
"I have no impression."
You can't find any trace of yesterday in your memory, so you carefully probe:
"What did I tell you yesterday?"
"Well, let me take a look. I happened to keep yesterday's recording. Do you want to listen to it?"
"Well, that's troublesome."
"After all, you are also my patient. It would be great if you could recover your memory as soon as possible."
The recording she plays next for you is not long. Apart from the communication between you and her, it is a large amount of white noise. You noticed that yesterday you would fall into a long silence every time you heard a word spoken by the other party, but Today, you have naturally accepted the words "White Room" and "Matsuo Eiichiro", and the memories about them have gradually revived in your mind.
"Well, this means your situation is improving, congratulations."
Sakayanagi Yusu also seems to be happy about your situation, and her always calm voice seems to be smiling at this time.
"Did I really jump off the window sill yesterday?"
At the end of the recording, you hear the other person telling you to "jump off the window sill."
"...If you really jumped from the window sill, I don't think you can still talk to me honestly here now."
"That's right."
You glanced down through the windows on the wall. The floor you were on was estimated to be on the sixth or seventh floor. If you had really jumped from here yesterday...
You touched your arms and legs. These parts were still fully installed on your body.
"Anything else?"
Sakayanagi Yusu on the other side of the receiver seemed to have received another call. Perhaps the daily life of a psychiatrist is such a busy one.
"I'll call you when I think of it."
You looked at the clock hanging on the wall. It was only nine o'clock in the morning. You thought you should continue looking in this house to see if there was anything that could remind you of your memory. ]
[You first went to look through the photo album that Ichinose Honami handed you before leaving. There were some photos of your childhood posted there.
This is probably a photo taken by your parents. The reason why you have this idea is that there will definitely be some writing on your personal photo. Like "Ryo is studying hard," "Ryo is playing football," "Ryo loves sweets," and other small words written in regular handwriting.
Different from the handwriting written by Honami Ichinose on that wedding photo that you had seen, this upright regular script is much more mature, and you vaguely believe that it is your mother's handwriting.
Everyone has a childhood. Even if you have lost your memory, you can flip through this photo album and imagine your own childhood.
Your eyes quickly stopped on one of the photos.
"Happy tenth birthday Ryo!"
It seems like this was a photo taken at a birthday party. The place is - where? The photo doesn't look like it was taken at this home, but more like it was taken somewhere in the wild while camping. You can also see a car parked nearby. In the photo, you are smiling happily in front of a big cake with ten candles. Maybe it was just in the middle of eating that your cheeks were stained with cream, and your big flexible eyes opened wider because they were suddenly frightened by the camera taking pictures at regular intervals. Beside you, there was a man and a woman. Smiling around you. ]
[You continue to flip through the pages, and soon you reach the end. There is a photo of you and Ichinose Honami when you were sixteen. You stretched out your hand and pinned her hairpin in front of the camera. Honami Ichinose's smiling face in front of the camera is so bright that you suddenly feel dizzy.
"Huh...?"
You couldn't help but mutter to yourself.
It's really a sense of abrupt dissonance that even you feel, and you feel like you've discovered something that shouldn't exist and can't exist.
But at the same time--
There is also a feeling of finally finding something important and missing.
You hurriedly turned back the pages, turning, and turning.
Avoiding and constantly looking back.
But - no.
There is no "that" anywhere.
There is nothing in it that absolutely should be there.
"Well, when you were sixteen, you went out with your uncle and aunt, and there was a car accident on the road. Although you survived alone, you also lost your memory."
You remembered what Ichinose Honami said again.
If you think about it carefully, there are other doubts.
Yes, there are many more. ]
[You place the three pieces of paper in front of yourself again.
The first one: "If you have any doubts, please call the phone number of psychiatrist Sakayanagi Arisu", followed by a list of contact information.
This is the only one among the three notes that is not signed, but the information above is true. This contact information indeed allows you to contact the psychiatrist Yusu Sakayanagi, and from her, you get relevant information about your memory. , and this is the only note that uses machine printing, similar to a business card.
The second picture: "Meow meow meow meow", a word with no meaning at all, signed "Firefly".
Is it cat?
You look at this series of meows and meows and have constructed a white kitten in your mind.
Why white?
You shook your head, but the memory of the cat became clearer and clearer. Every hair on its body was as fine as the first snow, and it blinked its fluorescent eyes at you.
firefly!
You seem to suddenly remember it, and then, as if the valve of memory has been opened, all the memories of you and this cat rush into your mind.
You pet the cat at home...you pick it up on a rainy day...you see it being bullied next to the kennel in the village and take it home.
Why three memories?
You held your head and let your body sit on the sofa in the living room. You read the second note several times, but the strange feeling just now never happened again, but at least you thought of you. pet cat.
The third picture: "Don't believe what Ichinose Honami says, everything - Kitagawa Ryo."
After thinking about it for a long time without any clues, you turned your attention to the third note, which was also the one that shocked you the most when you saw it in the morning. ]
[Ichinose Honami is the woman who took care of you tenderly in the morning when you lost your memory. She calls herself your wife. Do you still remember her saying in the morning that today is the third anniversary of your marriage and the tenth anniversary of your relationship? On Sundays, she would come home from get off work early in the evening, around 5:30.