When I??d reunited with Olivia, I had no intention of becoming attached to her child. My adoration for Courtney grew out of the anger and resentment I felt toward her parents. But I didn??t say any of this to Olivia. Instead, I told her that Courtney was special to me because she was ??sweet.?? Olivia gave me a skeptical look.
??And her being Jay??s baby doesn??t have anything to do with it, right???
??No,?? I lied. ??Not really.??
??He wanted me to have an abortion, you know,?? she said. ??And I seriously thought about doing it. I always assumed if and when I had a baby, it would happen with someone I actually loved.??