Chapter 6: The Corrupted Lost Memories

"I wonder if this is the place where I really belong."

I pondered as I healing my now numbed and broken right hand, with the flesh still dangling from the now ripped blood vessels, whilst the cold wind from the cloudy sky breeze through my now bloodied hair and my chest wounds.

After that, I ordered Analysia to open the front door whilst also requesting her to buy me some black gloves to conceal my horrific left hand since it's still in the process of healing and constructing it.

With this, I took of my brown sweater and sat down on my bed, thinking back about the rules that Kazuto-san explained to me yesterday.

"The third and the fourth rule...He really lied to me doesn't he?"

I begrudgingly started grumbling about that whole ordeal before Analysia interrupts, saying:

"There's a secret rule where if the grace period's students engage the other students, their protection from other students will get disabled."

"Wait, How did I get attacked then? Didn't my protection should be enabled just because they're the ones engaging"

I replied, furious and mad from this illogical rule structuring.

"I don't know, maybe that specific rules could be just an inside joke or something, the school is already cruel enough to put their students in this condition, maybe this is just a cherry on top or something. Look, I don't know what they were thinking, I'm just a gadget."

I jumped to bed without even washing the blood stains on my hair and I screamed as loud as I could in frustration into my pillow with the sounds muffled by it.

"What's even wrong with this school in the first place, putting faked rules like that, do they want all the new students to die or something!? AGH!"

After my whole bed smells like blood just because I roll on my bed for too much, I asked Analysia to give me a sleeping story book, to which she instantly materialize it in my hand.

Later on, I read the story like a lunatic, like I'm literally reading it in such weird way, that I don't know how to describe it, I don't know why, it's probably stress or something, and knock myself to sleep leaving the last page on unread, literally unbelievable.

As I entered my deep slumber and my body slowly fades away from my consciousness, I woke up in a garden, with the sounds of chirping birds, and the moving grass.

I feel the wind whiff through my shirt and lift a bit of my skirt. that which gives me chills.

With The tree leaves breeze against each other and the morning sun shines to me, I saw something that looks like a wedding arch, with white roses covering the arch and is planted to the sides of the arch using the flower pots.

"What's even this place?"

I mumbled, walking along the pathways that is provided for me there closer and closer to the arch in front of me, with my mind stumped and can't even process anything that I was seeing in front of my eyes.

I keep walking and walking until I passed the arch and saw a structure paint white.

If I remember the name, it was called a gazebo, upon noticing this structure, I saw a pair of maybe husband and wife, sitting there and chatting about some fun topics.

I waited for them to go but after it felt like forever, my curiosity got the best of me and I decided to go and check what conversation that they were discussing.

Upon closer inspection, as I enter the structure, the woman notices me, turns around and make a smile that is directed towards me.

With the way I describe it, is the most genuine smile that I ever see in my entire existence.

"..."

"Stop staring...at me."

After those words were uttered, I could feel my eyes slowly, yet surely let out a tear. Within seconds my breath were getting heavy and heavier. 

It felt...It was just only a couple of days. Yet, I fear that I'll missed her. The feeling of helplessness and despair swallowed me as I sob.

And sob.

"W-What's this feeling...I...don't understand."

And without giving me time to react, the woman hugged me, with that hug that the woman gave me, is where I feel the safest that I have been since I've been here.

The woman later strokes my hair that instantly soothes the chaos and discord that's happening in my soul, but with remains is the mental anguish and guilt that still clings in my heart.

"I'm...sorry...Please, forgive me...I didn't mean to...I'm sorry..."

Instinctively, I uttered those word several times without even knowing why with my body shaking with sadness and sorrow, until she whispered something that instantly calmed my anguished heart and my cries of sorrow stopped instantly.

*Along with the tranquility that the hair stroke and the hug gave me, I also heard a piece of music that sounds familiar in my head, with the peaceful melody and the harmony that it brings, like a gentle breeze.

As the melody start out slow with the music starts with a certain key, that reminds me of the beautiful past and still has the resemblance of pureness in my soul, the melody seems to progress faster along with the enchanting yet melancholic tune, as the key intertwine and complement each other, with the beautiful serenity, the melody swirl and twirl together like it was dancing, until suddenly.

A loud screech was heard across green field that was once charming, turn into a horrifying nightmare, as the sky turns red and all the flowers turn to dust, the beautiful melody that I heard switch into a minor key, as this world seems in the process of falling apart, with the chaos that this woman once pacify in my heart and soul comes back stronger than before, my visions goes red and darkened as time went on, I try to cry for help, but it's no use.

With a haunting melody of the once music that was the symbol of tranquility and peace, now becomes an eerie, melancholic melody with a twisted meaning from the original music.

As I lose my grasp on this woman and sinking into the void below, my hands was trying to reach out for her while I cry for help, but with the hopelessness of the situation finally sinked into my heart, my hand stopped and I pulled my hand back, with the last thing, the last melody of once such beautiful song now gone from my ear, what I heard is just a haunting melody, telling me that such past, will be lost forever.

**In the midst of darkness, all I hear was not the music that I heard earlier...as my memories starting to come back, I knew that this music is from Rachmaninoff, I just can't pinpoint which one his pieces is this, at first, with an interval, the key jumps over from high to low, with a slow beat like an approaching dark clouds, after a minute or two, as the melody for the right hand goes crazy with such quick succession.

Just like a storm, it finally calms down again and begin like the first part, and exited in such mysteriously frightening way, it's like the music is reminding me, that my action that has already been done, can't be return back ever again.

Confusion combined with horror, that was my feeling when I woke up from the Nightmare of a dream that I just went through.

With my heart thumping, my body sweating and my breathing getting a lot more rapid, I tried to explain my dreams in a logical sense, but even after I thought of tens of ways to explain the strange dream earlier, all of them still ended up making no sense in the end.

The feeling of lost. 

With that, I looked at the time and it was 11 PM, so I can conclude that I slept through 12 hours of sleep, and at that point I just didn't care about the time anymore and forced myself to sleep, no matter the consequences, and with that, I slept without even dreaming.

All I do for that night, is hugging my pillow, muttering:

"Please...Forgive me...Mom..."

𝐌𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐲,𝟏𝟒𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐟 𝐀𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐥,𝟐𝐗𝐗𝐗

I woke up at 3 AM in the morning, and I feel like my energy was wasted and I still feel as tired as ever before.

At the same time, Analysia told me that my left hand and chest were already healed. Hearing this, I didn't even react a single bit about the report and more focus on thinking:

"𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘴 𝘺𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮?". With my still sleepy eyes, I walked into the bathroom, bought toothpaste and toothbrush along the way and brushed my teeth inside the bathroom, and afterwards I walked out and sat down on my bed, with my mind still blank on what exactly can you do on three in the morning.

With my mind told me to sleep again, which is the thing that I wanted to do anyway, I was already midway through my sleeping process, but Analysia stopped me and told me that maybe we can talk about the school rules about the Black System.

At that time, I knew that Analysia talked about a long and wide explanation about how the school system worked and with more details on some specific rule, but with my mind not in their fullest potential right now, I didn't hear almost 90% of the things that she said.

All I heard is just, that the students in the Black Logo also need to come and study to school, except they only need to come at Monday, Wednesday and Friday, just because the school wants more time for the student in the Black System to interact with each other meaning more fun than go to the boring school that their normal students already go.

And now, after several minutes of me just daydreaming pure white abyss with my mouth open just to wait for a fly to enter.

I finally remember that I wanted to ask the same question to Kazuto-san about this, but because of his time wasting on explaining the Sacred Rules, he forgot about it and left without explaining this whole system.

A couple of minutes of continuous daydreaming later, my mind finally shut down and I passed out onto my bed, and with that, I feel the calmest sleep of my life, just because of the stress and tiredness that all added up until now, in which after three hours, I woke up as fresh as ever.

"Good morning...𝐘𝐚𝐰𝐧 '', I said to Analysia which she responded.

"Good morning too Master, what do you want to buy for breakfast today?", She asked.

"Can I...ask for a cup of coffee and maybe a cup of ramen noodles?", And as soon as I said that, both items instantly popped up in front of me.

"Thank you for the food...", I said whilst I quickly ate the ramen and drank the coffee, even though I knew that the school would start at 8 AM, I still wanted to see the school vicinity.

As the empty ramen and coffee cup disintegrated, and crumbled into dust, I'm starting to worry that I didn't bring my uniforms here. Knowing my concerns, Analysia asked:

"Is all the outfit that you wear today which is the brown sweater, white T-Shirt and the brown skirt, all of them are the school gifts for you?".

I quickly nod it to which she replies:

"Just say change clothes and uniform, and you're good to go, you can also do this to other sets and clothes".

At first, I'm still skeptic that this trick doesn't work, but just because I've already seen a ton of weird and super advance stuff in this school, It would've not surprised me if this work, and so, I said:

"Change Clothes:Uniform".

And in rapid succession, that it doesn't take a couple of milliseconds, all the clothes from my sweater to even my shoes changed to a school attire, with a White School Shirt with Blue Vest, a Red Bowtie, Blue Skirt and a Black stocking with Black Shoes. With this I quickly open the door, lock the door behind me and begin walking in the main street.

Just when I begin to walk, I saw Kazuto-san again, seemingly walking the same way as I do, but just because I don't want to disturb him.

I continue to walk until both of us reach to the entrance of the school, where I can see Hundreds of students-

"Correction, 1000+ Students".

I mean a thousand plus students seemingly waiting enthusiastically for something, until a voice, that I presumed to be the voice of the principal just because he's nowhere to be found welcoming us into the school with a mic, with the echo spread across the school field saying:

"𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐒𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐆𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐉𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐧, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐮𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐥 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥".

*Canon in D

**Prelude in C Sharp Minor