Completely different

Matty drops me off in town, he tells me to be careful but not in a controlling way and to let him know when we're done and that he will give us both a lift back.

I smile at him and kiss him passionately in the car, it's hard for us to not show we are pregnant by touching each other and giving it away. We are keeping it just between us for now. In case something should happen.

"Hey" Rach greets me.

I briefly wonder if we've ever spent time together alone before and realise we haven't.

"Hey how's you and Brad then" I ask smiling.

"Very, very good." She laughs and I laugh back. I don't want to know what that means.

"Problem is we've seen each other on and off before and it's not worked out but I hope this time it will" she says. And I desperately hope for her too, Brad is quite nice. Nicer than Jay, he appreciates her.

"Let's look in the sex shop" she laughs.

"For bunny ears, of course" she adds smiling at me.

I like Rach, she's pretty carefree and easy going. It's nice hanging out with her, without guys she's a little bit more relaxed. She doesn't feel she has to show off or prove herself.

"Tay?" She says as were eating lunch.

"Yep" I say getting the vibe that this is going to be an important kind of question.

"I'm worried about Jay and his obsession with you" she says.

I look at her gobsmacked.

"He is not obsessed with me" I say defiantly.

"Look he told me a few times that he likes me that's it, I've told him I'm in love with Matty" I tell her.

"Yesterday in the canteen, I know you weren't looking at him because you are with Matty but he cannot help himself. He stares at you, he wants you. I know that face Tay. Can you please not put yourself in any vulnerable situations with him alone?" She says genuinely concerned.

"Matty has that covered" I laugh. If only she knew.

"What did you think about Jane?" I ask smiling. Changing the conversation.

"Fuck me where did he pick that up from?" She laughs.

I laugh with her.

"She looks at him a lot in psychology. He winked at her and now they're suddenly seeing each other" I tell her.

"You mean he's just fucking her" she says laughing.

"I'm not silly he did the same to me the bastard" she adds.

"He is very good in bed. I won't ever lie to you about that but is he worth the trouble definitely not" she admits.

"I don't need to know" I say to her.

"I'm being straight with you completely off the record I won't ever bad mouth Matty again. He is decent, he has changed entirely. And he is completely in love with you. Jay would fuck you and leave you at the curb. He's so easy to fall for, I've been there. Okay he's hot with the whole blue eyes and blonde hair thing, and he can pack on the charm like anything. He's an absolute dickhead though, Do I sound bitter?" She laughs

"No I understand, thanks Rach" I tell her.

"Thanks for looking out for me" I say.

We finish up our food and I ring Matty.

"He says he's on his way" I tell her and she smiles at me.

"He'll drop you off home too it's not a problem" I say to her.

"See he's completely different" she says to me.

I smile. He's completely mine too.

Matty pulls up ten minutes later and we jump in. He has the heater on and the warmth is welcome.

"Did you get everything you needed" he asks.

"We did yeah" I say.

"I got you a takeaway sandwich" I tell him.

He laughs and thanks me.

"I think you're going to like my outfit, Matty" I tell him.

I glance over and he smiles at me.

"I'm sure I will babe" he says.

Once we've dropped off Rach, we head home and its already nearly 5pm. I make us some pasta for dinner. He smiles at me and thanks me. He glances at my waist all the time now, it makes me smile. It's like it's always on his mind.

"It won't pop for ages yet babe" I say to him.

"Are you okay with everything" he asks me.

"I've never felt more sure, Matty" I admit.

"I had a dream this morning" I tell him.

He glances up at me from his pasta. He pushes his brunette curls off of his face. And I briefly imagine our babies hair, and how it will be dark and curly like ours.

"When I was in my dream I had a little bump and you were there stroking my belly and the bump started kicking. It was beyond words." I tell him.

"That sounds like all of my dreams" he smiles.

"But for now we have to focus, on not telling anybody. If something happens I can't imagine how painful that would be especially with everybody knowing. And also tonight I'm obviously not drinking, I'll take glasses of wine but I wont swallow anything. And I'll use Ross as my excuse too" I tell him.

He cleans up everything.

"That's a good plan. By the way you are not going out of my eyesight tonight" he laughs.

"I love you, but you're gonna have to do this my way tonight" he smiles.

"Mmm I'm happy to do things your way" I say.

He kisses me. Lifts up my shirt and spontaneously undoes my jeans. I keep his eye contact, I love it when he's like this. It drives me wild.

He pulls them down watching me.

"You were going to get changed anyways weren't you" he laughs.

I undo his jeans and pull them down. He smiles and lifts me slightly against the wall. And he's inside of me. We don't even worry about contraception anymore. We're pregnant already.

I gasp at how big he feels inside of me at this angle.

"Okay babe?" He asks. He's so naughty, I love it.

"Mmm" I say.

"I want it, Matty" I tell him. He thrusts into me continually and I'm moaning his name in his ear.

He sits me on the side of the table. I lean back sightly. And he's inside of me again.

"You're so naughty, Taylor" he says looking over my body sprawled out on the table.

He reaches his climax at the same time as me, calling out my name. I smile and bite my lip.

"I kind of like it a lot when you say my name" I admit standing up.

"Especially like that in that context" I say.

"You drive me insane" he says.

"Me too baby" I say.

I go upstairs when I can tear myself away from him, I shower and get ready listening to music at the same time and singing along. I mean out of all of my outfits I think this is the sexiest. I tan up and pick out my maroon heels.

Rach sends me a picture asking me which shoes to pick. I answer telling her the black ones. She messages back asking me to send her a pic when I'm ready as we're matching today.

I put on my leotard, it's velvet black one and it's off the shoulder. It's a dance performance one, it's secure it will hold me in. I tie up half of my brunette curls in a high ponytail and leave the rest out. Next I put on the black choker Rach picked I it for me.

I look very hot. Like a glamour model. I almost chicken out and text Rach to say I can't wear it. But I don't. I won't let her down. She wants to feel good and so do I. I snap a pic and send it over to her. She sends back a fire and a bow down emoji. She sends me her pic with a bunny emoji which makes me chuckle.

I focus on my makeup, I'm matching with Rach with red lipstick and Smokey eyes. I even got some false lashes which were a bitch to put on. But I got there after around five try's. I curl the front stray pieces of my hair to frame my face. I then douse myself in perfume. It's the expensive one that Matty bought me, and it's his favourite.

I put my shoes on and then take them off again deciding to tackle the stairs without the risk of falling down them.

I walk down to Matty who is waiting in the front room wearing his best shirt. It's pink and I pretty much melt looking at him. He hasn't seen me yet I put my shoes on and he looks up from his phone.

"Fucking hell" he's says mouth open.

"Is it that you like to make my life really difficult?" he laughs.

"Not at all baby" I laugh.

"You look incredible. Your legs woah." He stands up hand tracing my thigh. It sends shivers through me.

"There's not much of this" he chuckles in my ear.

"I figure if I'm going to get all pregnant soon then I'll max up on the sexy now" I say to him.

"You will be incredibly sexy with a bump, don't even start with that" he smiles.

Matty is driving, I'm not drinking and he says he'll have one. Famous last words from him.