Expectation

I know he expects me to walk away. He had seen me running away a couple of times. He is testing me again without any expectation that I will pass. I didn't say any thing. I wanted to show him how much I mean my words. I want him like how I want air. There is no turning back for me. I sank to my knees and his eyes flickered with surprise. I had little to no idea of blow jobs. I have heard a few girls talking about it in bathroom. They said it was disgusting thing to do like cleaning a litter box. It is repulsive but yet we do it for our cats. I was confused but still unaware but staying with Bi had made me a woman. She taught me a few basics of being a woman since I refused to see the feminist porn she has. But it was basically a few oral lessons and nothing could prepare me for this. I didn't trust her because her words were too much out of world. I didn't think you can make them your slaves by giving them blow jobs.

I sank to my knees and opened his fly. His eyes flickered in surprise. I opened it. His eyes darkened by longing and surprise. I unbuttoned his trouser and pushed down his underwear. His cock was huge and I was worried. I had no idea whether I will satisfy him. He must have had many woman before me and they all must have done this for him. I was sure my inexperienced blowjob couldn't hold a candle to theirs. I was a novice who recently lost my virginity.

I wetted my lips in anticipation. His eyes shone desire for me and it gave me confidence. I took him in my mouth gently. I was afraid my teeth would hurt him so I took precaution for that. I started to Suck him. He hissed and I was happy that I could draw a reaction from him. I sucked him growing my pace each time. I used my tongue to lap him. He groaned, his head thrown back. He pushed my head to his crotch. I was unable to breath for a few seconds. He immediately loosened his grip. I could feel him on the back of my throat. I didn't get a gag reflux though. I guess I was lucky.

He started to move. I could feel him moving back and slamming back to my mouth. I didn't know that he could take control even in a blow job. He was enjoying it. I tried to accommodate him. But he was larger and pushed inside my mouth.

"My angel", he said. Blood was ringing in my ears. A combination of adrinalin fuelling my actions. The nature taking it's course. He took my head and did a final slam. I felt something liquidy filling my mouth. He kept me frozen. I don't know what I should do? He didn't ask me to move or stay. Since he didn't lose his grip on my head I guessed he wished me to remain in my position.

I swallowed him each drop savoring him.

He was raw and spicy. He burnt my throat like whiskey. My mouth started to hurt with the foreign exercise. He took his dick out of my mouth slowly as if he wanted to stay. I wiped my face with the back of my hand. My knees hurting. I sank back feeling tired.

He looked at me in surprise and awe. I knew he still couldn't believe that I had done it. I wanted to smile at him. I had done something for him. I gave him more happiness than getting a million. It was me all me. I had made him lose his words for the first time. Then it striked me what have I done?

I gave him a blow job in a hallway. People were living here though I saw all the doors closed. Has someone saw me? Did anyone video record it? We both would be ruined. We will be laughing stock. My mother poor old widow living in Tallahassee would bow her head down in shame. Is this how I repay her for sacrificing her entire life for me?

Why didn't I think? I had destroyed everything. I could never work for him now. I would never be hired anywhere else. Suddenly I could hear the world judging me. I was so desparate I cried. I was shaking with worry. It was so embarrassing that I had lowered my mother's head. I hope she forgives me.

I felt Harry's heavy hands wrapping around me. I was soaking his shirt. I have no words to tell him. He found my face and dragged it up. I don't think I will ever be able to lift my head and walk.

"Fuck why are you crying?", I heard Harry asking me. I could hear the concern and worry. I couldn't say anything other than sob uncontrollably.

"Tell me. You didn't like it? Was I too rough?", he asked me desparately.

"It is not that. I - I thought we would be arrested for public indecency. I'm glad no one walked in at least I didn't see anyone. Is there any camera here ?", my voice broke at the last words.

"No there is no camera", he said relieved that I had spoken. I nodded my head trying to calm down. I felt my head ache returning.

"Relax I thought that I scared you with my roughness. I would never put you in danger. I own this building. No one lives here except me this floor. I had given first two storeys for rent but only a few lives there and the rest is stayed shut. It is bought by celebrities and billionaires for investments. I thought you have noticed it ", he told me.

" I haven't noticed it. Thanks for telling me", I hiccuped.

He gently pulled me to my legs. He was kneeling next to me too. I walked my leg was wobbly and he caught me. I was glad not to meet the floor.

"Get inside. I should've been more careful with you. Warn me next time you are uncomfortable with something. I take the complete responsibility. It won't happen again", he said rubbing his palm on his temple.

We walked inside. He closed the door. I felt tension leaving me from my body. I managed to secure him. I won't lose him ever again.