part 3

Binc has been married to Joshua for 6 years now; they have two children; Nathan who is 5years and Agape who is 3 years. They are a family I have always admired to have, happy, full of love with 2 beautiful angels.

"He said he wants a divorce..." Binc said staring blankly a head.

"I don't know how to tell my kids that I and their father are going to be living a part. I don't think I can handle that." She never changed her position; her eyes were fixed onto something far away.

"They are too young to be tossed around." She sighed and put her car into ignition again.

"Good night Tiii" she said and waited for me to get off which I did because I had nothing to say or I just didn't want to say anything.

Binc is my best friend, the only one I can rely on. I have always gotten marriage advice from her despite the fact that I got married earlier than she did. I always felt like her marriage life was progressing better than mine. She had her first kid on her 1year anniversary and her 2nd child 3 years after that. She has been so proud of her family and every one near her knows that. But how didn't I see that she was on a draining road. My friend was going through so much and she didn't at anyone moment think of confiding in me.

I got into the house and I was still sort of tipsy. I don't want Nain to see me like this. He hated it when I drink, actually he doesn't want me to drink at all.

I move on my tip toes to the stairs but clumsy me had to trip on the fourth step.

The lights to the bed room were switched on and I had him opening our bed room door.

"Shit...."I exclaimed and just sat there like a helpless child.

"Baby what's wrong?" Nain rushed when he saw me on the floor.

"Are you OK." He examined me for any injures with concern written all over his face.

I was too absorbed in admiring his beautiful face and I didn't notice he was asking me a question.

"Tiannah, have you been drinking." His tone was serious "with whom? You know I don't like it when you come home drunk." I couldn't answer any of his questions so i kept staring blankly at him.

I think he caught on because he stopped pestering me.

He carried me bridal style to our bedroom and he laid me on the bed carefully like he was afraid I would break but truthfully I was already broken. He couldn't give me what I want.

I laid quietly in the bed thinking over on how life has turned out.

When we were Young we had so many dreams, fantasies of how our youth would be, our adulthood. The families we would make, the vacations we would have, the reunions when all our kids are there running in the grass, in the field. The walks at the park where I get to tell my daughter how she should not be easy on boys and being tough to my son when he makes a girl cry.

All those dreams and we have achieved none, only unhappy marriages, broken families, everything is just falling apart. Maybe we met the wrong people or our choices weren't right. Where did we go wrong?

"Hey, baby wake up." Someone was shaking me vigorously.

"L-eave-e me al-one." I didn't want to wake up. My head feels like a rod right now.

"Take this pill you will feel better." He placed a tiny tablet in my palms and held the glass of water close to my mouth; I took a sip and swallowed the tablet.

"You can nap again for a few minutes; I will come and wake you up." Nain said as he laid me back on the pillow and covered me up to my neck.

I blacked out faster than I thought.

I got up to an empty room. Quite with no trace of Nain, I moved to the bathroom had a quick shower and moved down stairs to the kitchen because I was starving.

I warmed up some food in the oven and sat on the kitchen island to enjoy my meal.

"Didn't expect you to be up early." I gasped and nearly dropped the plate to the floor.

I didn't expect Nain to be home.

He was standing with arms crossed at his chest. He wore those cargo shorts of his that I love the most, it’s the color and the pattern that get my attention. He combined them with a plain white T. shirt giving him a casual sexy look.

"Why are you so worked up, did I scare you that much." He asked with a side grin.

"Jeez Nain, you nearly gave me a heart attack." I exclaimed holding my chest tight as though my heart would pop out any second.

"Sorry babe, I was in the study working when I had some noise in the kitchen so I came to check, but it seems like it's just my hungry wife." He chuckled.

"It's not funny." I said and immediately grabbed my fork to go ahead with my meal.

"Why didn't you go to work, like your office?" I asked with my mouth full.

With Nain I kind of don't mind my manners because I feel so free with him especially in private, that's what 10 years of marriage, would do...I mean almost 10.

"I didn't want to leave you alone here." He said as he leaned into the island with is back.

I laughed so hard.

"Since when did you start minding about leaving me here alone?" I asked in between giggles.

"I always mind about you, where ever you are. When you drink yourself senseless or those late dates with your girlfriends or on those work trips of yours. I always mind and worry about you." He said his tone lingered with unfamiliar emotions.

I think it was a bad idea to joke about it.

"Am sorry, I didn't mean it that way." I moved closer to him closing up the little space between us.

He didn't say anything for like a minute.

"Do you really want this marriage Tiannah?"

I could no longer process a thing in my head.

"Why? You want to divorce me? Am I not good enough for you? What haven't I done right?, Hmm...Tell me what do I have to do?" I spoke the last bit a little too loud. I was looking everywhere except his eyes...face...him.

"How do you ask me if I want this marriage?" I was so worked up and screaming right now.

Nain kept his calm as usual and stared at me the whole time.

He tried to calm me but I was at it now, I was like an erupting volcano. I couldn't control my words, my anger my emotions, my feelings.

I do not want to end up like my friends, I don't want my marriage to end, and I don't want to end what I have with him.

Nain is the man I love, it took a lot to love him losing him will not be that easy for me.

If he wants to leave me, divorce me, he is not going to get it that easily.