Again?...
"I'm so so so sorry for not updating I've been very busy with writing other stories on wattpad so if you wanna go read them _Tiktokbichhh_ that's my name alright let's start!"
*after school*
*sensitive content*
Yesterday I was with Blake and Amelie we were having a lot of fun.
They're gone again tho. But it's fine I like it here.
I just got home and layed down on my bed.
Not now..
There's times when I just get very depressed and get a lot of anxiety..
I start overthinking a lot.
I started shaking a lot..
Chanell..c-calm down..
I started crying and thinking about bad things..
I need to call Blake..
Blake..
What is it cha?
I really need you to come back I'm getting a anxiety attack-...
I hung up..
I don't feel good...I feel a lot worse than I am..
I go downstairs and sit down on the ground..
Trying to calm down.
I go to the kitchen and get a knife.
Seeing my wrists again..it's been a long time.
My heart says no..but my head says go for it..
I started cutting myself..
It did hurt but it's fine I'm used to the feeling..
And still have a lot of reasons why my depression has been bad.
CHANELL! STOP.
Blake came.
He runs to me.
He puts down the knife and hugs me.
Hey you don't ever do that again.
I had a breakdown..
Cha promise me you won't do it again?
Blake I'm sorry..
Your bleeding let's fix that.
He puts bandaids on my arm.
Chanell..you wanna go back?
That would be good.
Well I gotta go get Bella so I'll go to Hollywood tomorrow morning if that's good with you?..
Yeah that's fine.
Stop crying I don't like when your crying..
I'm your brother and it's my job to take care of you..I want the best for you.
Bella packed your things before we went to work so your fine to go but here's some bandages if you need to change alright?..
Thank you Blake i love you.
Love you too lil sis..
Blake went upstairs and got my things..
Thank you bye..I'll see you.
I have Blake one last hug and went out of the house.
I took of the bandage cause the blood stopped real fast.
I really didn't expect this to go this way..
Oh well things happen I can't change that.
*some minutes later after walking*
Olivia and her little gang saw me.
I did have a hoodie on so no one could see.
Well look it's the tiktoker! Olivia said.
That was fucking terrible.
What do you want?
What do you do with your boyfriend huh?
Something you will never get.
Atleast I'm prettier than you.
Stop acting like a 12 year old your 18!
More like you are acting like one.
Atleast I have a boyfriend.
Hey! Stop saying back!
She punched me to the ground.
I can't take it anymore..
I let her hit me like it was nothing.
She was weak.
Hey don take it off!-
You- cut yourself?!
I'm so sor-
Don't even finish..Look now you actually care about me cause I hurt myself.
So it's true everyone gives a fuck when you hurt yourself or dead.
But when your actually alive! No one gives a fuck about no one!
Your one of the reasons why I actually moved away.
Olivia be nicer to people cause being mean is not going to help you or everyone else.
Now I have to go.
I'll see you never.
I walk away with my hands in my pockets.
*back at Hollywood*
I just got to chase's house and I go in.
Chase you here?
Chanell?!
I see him come downstairs.
I run to him and give him a hug.
I thought you were coming-
I'll explain later..
Now I just want to hug you.
Oh and it was 7pm right now.
You wanna go up and cuddle?
Yeah.
We go up to his room and cuddle.
He was playing with my hair.
Cutie..
I need your lips right now I haven't kissed you in a week..
He leans in and kisses me.
I missed his soft lips..
He slowly goes on top of me and starts to kiss my neck.
I moaned a little.
He close to taking of my hoodie and shirt..
Chase...
Yeah?..
I don't think this is the right time..
What's wrong you never act like this?..
...
What happened back there?.
Babe?..
He took of my hoodie and shirt..
He looked at my arm.
Who did this to you?
I did.
Babe..
please don't be mad. There's just some things I haven't told you..
Why would I be mad.
I love you baby.. I always will and I'm sorry I did this I just got a anxiety attack but worse..
But my brother saved me or I would be dead by now..
Don't say that..
I love you too cutie..
Just don't do it again.
Yeah.
He kissed me.
Promise me you won't do it again?
Promise.
That made you better.
I laughed.
I'll be careful..he winked at me.
I laughed hm fine just cause I missed you.
He kissed me body going up to my chest.
That tickles..
Does this too?
He started to touch/tickle me.
I laughed.
Little cutie.
He took a picture of me laughing while licking my stomach.
Your really going to upload that on Instagram?
Hm yeah.
Pinterest boy.
We both laughed.
He captioned "baby's back boys n girls"
The comments-
Look what kelianne writed.
The comments
Keliannestankus: I don't even wanna know what is happening after this post.
User473: they look so happy together bro I love this!
Thomas.petrou: chase you nasty man
User372: what did y'all do ever this?-
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Chanell.-Sanchez: post, read the comments •-•
Tiktkroom: oop-
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