"Hmm, I have to take the steps very carefully this time, the past women and men have been easy to discard of, but this time Shiwoo has feelings for the other party....hey Subaru what do you think I should do to dispose of that trash(Youngwoo)?"
"I would do whatever you want master, just say. your word"
"Stupid, I'm asking what to do not what. you would do for me"
"I'm sorry master"
"Hmm, maybe I should hire a gang to beat him up, or maybe cause an accident but then again all of. them sound like an amateur would do, should I hire someone to do a crime and blame it on him but then again Shiwoo might figure it out, hmmm what should I do? Should I just corner him and kill him or something?"
"M-master, p-please don't do anything that. might cause you to be sent behind bars"
"Shut up, i know what I'm doing, if I don't keep any traces then no one can blame me"
*ring ring ring*
talk of the devil...
"Hey Youngwoo, how are you doing?"
"I'm doing fine, thanks for asking, I wanted to tell. you something that has been filling me with guilt"
"What's i t?"
"I~I love him...Ever since I was Young I have loved him but I never had the courage to tell him and after knowing that you love him as well, I have decided to distant myself from him cause I know if i stay with him my feelings will only. grow for him and i don't want have a heartbreak, I'm. thinking of migrating to another place or maybe even country"
"But why are you. telling me all this?"
Well well would you look at that i wouldn't have to get my hands dirty. anymore, since he is leaving he won't be near him, in that case Shiwoo will belong only to me, hahahaha what a pleasure this is.
"I just wanted to tell you, I think of you as a friend who has the same feelings for the same person that's all"
What? The hell he is talking about? Your feelings are inferior to mine don't you dare compare them with your feelings.
"I see, and i presume that you don't want to tell him right?"
"Yes, i would like to keep this a secret"
"Ok, you can count on me"
*call ended*
This was easier than I thought.
.......
I decided to tell Kaname about my feelings towards Shiwoo and how I was planning on leaving the place. I just couldn't keep it to myself that's why decided to tell him.
Every time I see Shiwoo I remember that day when our bodies intertwined, and then I would want him to touch me more. Many times now Shiwoo has caught me with the lustful look on my face and told me not to look at him like that,but can you. blame me? I love him, and he hasn't touched me since that day, maybe I'm just pent up. I-I want him to t-touch me.
Youngwoo woke up feeling cold, he opened. the curtain which revealed and white landscape.
It's snowing today...I hope he wears something warm today.
"Good morning sir!"
"wow, that's a new, you've never wished me before this"
"Uh, uh, I-I'm sorry I-I will from the next time if it makes you feel happy"
"You know I have been. noticing and you have changed since you got out of the hospital, what changed?"
I should tell him about me leaving right? But then, what if he tries to stop me? Should i. make up an excuse about something and take a holiday and never come back? What will i do if he comes to look for. me? Who am I kidding why would he even look. for me? Stop. getting delusional, he was playing with. you that day, it didn't mean anything and all the sweet words about how worried he was in the hospital. were just so that he doesn't loose a good employee....I~I wish. that j~just once he would look at me before I leave. I~
"Wh~Why are you crying?"
"I~ I don't want to leave you"
Youngwoo falls on his knees and starts crying with his head in between his palms.
"Why are you being like this? Did something happen?"
"I can't bear it a-anymore, every time I look at y-you I want you to hold m-me and ravage me l-like you did that time, but I know that I'm n-nothing to you,maybe I was just a play toy for you that you played for one day and then threw it away, or else maybe you must think of me just your little brother who looked up to you b-back in the village, do you remember how we v-vowed to marry each other and and....sniff"
"So you remembered?"
*embarrassed*
"Huh? I~I didn't say anything, j~just forget what I just said"
"How can I? If you think you can run away from me then you're sadly mistaken, I'm gonna tie and lock you up at my house if you say that again, do you get it"
"Y-yes"
My mind was in a bit of relief, even though I don't know why and since then two weeks have gone by,
*ring ring*
"Hi Kaname"
"So, when do you plan on leaving?"
All the guilt came rushing back.
"T-tomorrow"
"Oh, where will you be going?"
"Not decided yet but I had made. up. my mind leaving, didn't I tell you that?"
"Whatever, and listen one more thing, and don't ever come back, also change your number"
"Yeah, I know"
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