Chapter3:A past that is worse than a beast

Because of being drunk, Jiang Chu felt weak and stumbled.

But he still opened the door regardless and rushed out!

boom!

The door opened heavily.

A familiar figure that had haunted him for countless years came into view.

Ye Qingxuan!

at this time,

Ye Qingxuan sat on the sofa blankly.

on the ground,

There were broken plates and bowls scattered everywhere,

tears,

Silently moving down the corners of her eyes.

endless sorrow,

Rise from the bottom of your heart.

Disappointment, despair!

Could it be that his love for her was all fake?

Those vows of eternal love, those romances, those sweet memories,

Scenes flooded my mind.

But,

How sweet it was,

How heartbroken it is today!

How long can I hold on?

several times,

When Jiang Chu beat himself,

He even pinched his own neck fiercely,

I almost fainted several times!

If not at the last minute,

I begged myself hard,

Maybe one of these times, he will be strangled to death?

And how many times has this happened?

A dozen times?

Or more than twenty times?

Ye Qingxuan himself didn't even remember.

I just remember that Jiang Chu would apologize at the beginning and write a letter of guarantee to himself, promising that he would never dare to do it again next time.

But later, Jiang Chu didn't care about his own feelings or life and death at all, and got worse every time!

Days like this,

When is the end? !

Maybe it would be nice to let him strangle himself to death next time?

At least you don't have to suffer these tortures anymore, right?

But,

In that case, Jiang Chu would be sentenced for murder. How could I bear to let him go to jail and suffer?

But this time,

Jiang Chu actually lost himself to a gambler and asked him to spend a night with him to pay off his gambling debt.

this moment,

Ye Qingxuan's heart was completely dead.

she knows,

The Jiang Chu who once loved and cherished him will never come back again!

Never come back

th.

Ye Qingxuan didn't want to be humiliated,

I don't want to continue to suffer.

Rather,

Just go like this,

Leave this world,

Will there be less pain and suffering?

Not so much hardship and bitterness?

this world,

I don't want to come here anymore,

This world is not worth it

"Dad, I'm sorry, my daughter is unfilial and I can't fulfill my filial piety to you."

Tears fell silently,

There was no expression on Ye Qingxuan's face.

Lift up the fruit knife in your hand,

Ye Qingxuan cut the radial artery on her left hand.

"no, do not want!"

At this moment,

Jiang Chu rushed out of the room.

He rushed to Ye Qingxuan's side,

He stretched out his hand and grasped the sword fiercely!

The sharp blade instantly cut Jiang Chu's fingers and palm,

The heart blood also flows out along the blade,

Extremely bright red!

"Qingxuan, I'm sorry, it's all my fault!"

"Please, don't hurt yourself, don't leave me, I can't live without you!"

Jiang Chu said quickly,

And the tears, unknowingly, had already flowed freely.

He blamed himself deeply!

"I know that I did a lot of things that hurt you in the past and made you suffer a lot."

"This time, I was even more obsessed and did something worse than a beast. I know I was wrong, I really know I was wrong."

"Qingxuan, give me another chance, I will definitely change my past and be a new person!"

"I will definitely treat you well, love you, love you, and treat this family well."

"Qingxuan, please forgive me this time, okay?"

this moment,

Jiang Chu burst into tears, crying like a child.

He kept saying these words in his heart countless times.

In the second half of his previous life, Jiang Chu, after repenting, faced Ye Qingxuan's photos countless times while crying and apologizing in his heart.

However, when I really faced Ye Qingxuan,

Jiang Chu discovered,

Apart from the words "I'm sorry," I didn't even know what to say.

All language seems so pale and feeble.

He didn't even dare to look into Ye Qingxuan's eyes.

At this moment, Ye Qingxuan's eyes were dull and indifferent.

It was as if Jiang Chu was a ball of air.

There was no trace of brilliance in her eyes, only endless numbness, emptiness, and despair.

If it were before, seeing Jiang Chu crying in front of him,

Ye Qingxuan will definitely feel extremely distressed.

But this time,

It seemed that it was difficult for Ye Qingxuan to feel the slightest fluctuation in his heart.

It seems that everything has nothing to do with me.

Seeing this scene,

Jiang Chu's heart couldn't help but sink.

I really hurt Ye Qingxuan too deeply.

It is simply impossible to obtain the other party's forgiveness in a short period of time.

However, he was confident that as long as he gave himself some time, he would be able to mend Ye Qingxuan's riddled heart.

What's more, in this life, he has also made up his mind to do his best to make amends and cherish the woman in front of him.

Taking a deep breath, Jiang Chu suppressed the sadness and self-blame in his heart, tried his best to use a rational mind, maintain a calm tone, and spoke softly to Ye Qingxuan:

"Qingxuan, don't think too hard. What I said last night was all drunken talk. I won't let anyone touch you!"

"In this life, you are only my Jiang Chu's woman, and you will also be my only woman!"

"I swear, I will let you live a happy life, and I will use my whole life to cherish you and love you!"

"Whoever dares to touch you, I, Jiang Chu, will protect you with my life!"

After speaking, Jiang Chu looked at Ye Qingxuan and waited for her answer.

Ye Qingxuan didn't move.

Like a clay sculpture.

This scene made Jiang Chu's heart feel as if he had been severely cut with a thousand curved knives.

He wanted to give himself a few slaps!

He blamed himself to the extreme.

It's just that he's such a scumbag that he made a woman whose eyes were so sparkling lose the light in her eyes!

"sorry..."

Jiang Chu lowered his head in guilt, and the hand holding the knife involuntarily increased its strength, letting the blood flow down the palm of his hand and drip onto the ground, but it could not withstand the stinging pain in his heart at this moment.

He would rather be physically injured than make Ye Qingxuan feel miserable again!

Silence, as if everything fell into deathly silence.

After a long time.

Ye Qingxuan said slowly: "I'm tired and want to be alone for a while."

After a pause, she seemed to be thinking about something, and then her tone was excruciatingly calm: "Since you don't let me accompany others, then I won't commit suicide."

"In a few days, I will go back to my dad's place."

After saying these words, tears fell silently down Ye Qingxuan's expressionless face.

Bang.

The knife he was holding tightly was stained with blood and fell to the ground.

Hearing that Ye Qingxuan would not commit suicide, Jiang Chu felt relieved and secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

He knew that this heartbreakingly strong woman always meant what she said.

He also knew that if a glass of water was cold, it would take time to heat it up.

And when a heart becomes cold, it may take half a lifetime to warm it.

However, he also firmly believes that as long as he gives himself time,

It will definitely make Ye Qingxuan change his mind!

"Qingxuan, let me help you treat your wounds first."

Jiang Chu ignored that his hand was still bleeding,

He immediately stood up and quickly brought over a medical kit.

There are some iodine, alcohol, cotton swabs, gauze and the like inside.

In 2000, most places still used iodine for disinfection, and then used alcohol for deiodination, and iodophor had not yet begun to be used on a large scale.

Jiang Chu gently held Ye Qingxuan's left hand,

Check the wound carefully,

Fortunately, the injury was not serious.

There is no foreign matter residue either.

"I'm going to disinfect you. It hurts a little, so bear with it."

Jiang Chu did not forget to whisper.

Ye Qingxuan, like a puppet on strings, remained silent and indifferent.

Feeling her attitude, Jiang Chu felt severe pain in his heart again.

He quickly dipped a cotton swab in iodine and began to clean the wound.

Immediately, alcohol was used to remove iodine.

Finally, wrap the wound with gauze.

Jiang Chu took every step carefully and attentively, for fear of hurting Ye Qingxuan.

"Okay, the wound has been treated, but remember, don't get wet within three days, otherwise it will easily cause infection!"

"These days, I'll be cooking, so you can have a good rest!"

Ye Qingxuan, who was originally like a clay sculpture, was stunned for a moment.

Are her ears hallucinating?

This is real?

Subconsciously, he lowered his head and glanced at the delicate gauze covering the wound on his hand.

For the first time, she discovered that Jiang Chu was so attentive to her?

Such a scene might only have happened four years ago when two people just fell in love, right?

Everything feels like a world away!

Suddenly.

Ye Qingxuan suddenly thought of something, completely unable to control himself, and showed an unbelievable look.

"You, you're not afraid of blood anymore?!" Ye Qingxuan asked in disbelief.

"I'm not afraid anymore."

Jiang Chu tried his best to smile.

No matter what, Qingxuan is willing to talk to herself, even if she says a word, it is a good start.

However, Jiang Chu's heart ached even more.

This woman, even until her death, still cared about her in her bones.

"I really deserved to die back then!"

Jiang Chu murmured in self-blame.

"..."

Ye Qingxuan once again fell into silence.

Jiang Chu was also unsure of her current mood and thoughts.

I could only observe her carefully.

a long time.

Ye Qingxuan returned to a calm and emotionless tone:

"My mother left a bracelet as a family heirloom. You can take it to the hospital leaders to take care of it."

"I hope you can return to the operating table and realize your dreams."

Ye Qingxuan was like an emotionless machine. After finishing speaking calmly, she seemed tired and closed her beautiful eyes.

She... is still thinking about herself!

Even if you just made up your mind to commit suicide!

He is still thinking about himself! ! ! !

Jiang Chu instantly felt suffocated, and his heart felt as if he was experiencing the pain of a thousand arrows piercing his heart!

Such a good woman!

I didn't cherish her at all back then!

I don't even understand how good she is!

The feeling of emotion and guilt in my heart once again amplified.

He knew that the bracelet was the only relic left by Qingxuan's mother! Ye Qingxuan usually regards it as a treasure, even more important than her own life!

for myself,

She... even sold her mother's belongings without hesitation.

Just to make myself feel better in the hospital!

Thinking of this, Jiang Chu suddenly remembered something.

In the last life,

Ye Qingxuan also did the same thing,

But at that time, she was deceived by herself, and he vowed to change her ways in the future and let her live a good life.

As a result, after the bracelet was sold for money,

Jiang Chu immediately took the money to gamble.

Think about yourself in the last life,

What a beast!