I Need To Cry

A leader raped Thomas at the camp they forced him to stay in.

They raped Thomas at 12, so he bottled up many emotions in public so he wouldn't be mocked for crying as a man or for not liking the rape.

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He knows a place in the forest that men tend to visit for the privacy to cry.

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Men are oppressed here, it sure seems.

The men are usually young boys when they marry adult women or teenage girls.

The courts don't take their victimization seriously; it's hard to get a woman in jail for the rape unless...

It was violent.

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Due to this, male rape victims advised boys to steer clear of drunk women, like girls were told to steer clear of drunk men.

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The boys would go through practicing how to defend themselves against older women without hurting them, as hitting a girl was seen as wrong.

However, if you ever needed to get them off, you could push or punch, even.

That's how bad the situation with the women molesting them got.

Older sisters & brothers were tasked with protecting the younger ones, and many women were taught by fathers to dislike rape in all forms, a step in the right place, but most of the commune was still broken with the idea that woman-on-male rape was okay.

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Thomas went to that part of the forest on an hourly basis.

It was constant. Sometimes, if Thomas wasn't in that part of the beautiful forest, he'd play with his friends.

In that porcelain forest, Thomas would cry, admire the scenery, and play around.

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Behoeden & Thomas were chatting when Thomas told him, "Let's run away. This place has nothing for us."

Behoeden says, "You can't forget your wife and child."

Thomas says, "Oh, um, I got my son, Luis, and Wilda. I told them my plan. They're on board."

Wilda is 15, and their son, Luis, is a baby.

Behoeden says, "I need to get my father."

Thomas says, "While you do that, I'm gonna get Sindy and my family and go." Thomas reaches out his hand as an invitation.

Thomas says, "Will you join us?"

Behoeden says that "I can't leave my father."

Thomas begs, "You have to leave him!"

Behoeden says, "I can't, buddy. I'll bring him with us."

Thomas says, "I just think I... I don't know."

Behoeden says that "I mean, you just... I have to bring my dad, just go on and take Sindy with you."

Behoeden decided to take a shower the next day when he heard a guy crying. When Behoeden heard it, he quickly got dressed and yelled, "You good? I heard crying❗"

The man yelled, "I don't wanna talk about it❗"

Behoeden left the room. An hour later, a kid whispers, "Did you see Tim in the showers? He said you were in there with him."

Behoeden: "Because I was showering..." With these wide eyes, look while awkwardly explaining the reasons for being there.

The cult had public men's showers, while women had public women's showers.

"Tim said he was sorry." The kid said. The kid's name was Wendel. He ran off.

Tim shouts at Behoeden, "Meet me in private."

Behoeden just went to him and asked. "Hey, um, how did you get a job?"

Behoeden responded with a confused and awkward sounding, "What?"

Tim: "You don't know?"

Behoeden: "I don't have a job."

Tim asked: "Are you married?"

Behoeden: "No."

Tim: "Do you have a kid?"

Behoeden: "No."

Tim: "You're weird."

Behoeden: "Why? I'm 14. What are you asking?"

Tim: "The teacher made me have sex with her and got pregnant."

Behoeden was in pure shock. "Which one?" He asked.

Tim: "Yours."

It was weird because they didn't even go to the same class.

Behoeden: "Listen, ask my dad. He was, like, 14 when he got married to mom."

Tim: "Can I go see him?"

Behoeden: "He's not willing to let strangers come to our house."

Tim: "Please, I need to care for my son or whatever. I don't know what to do. Help me❗"

Behoeden: "Sorry, dude."

Tim: "Ask your mom?"

Behoeden: "My mom doesn't take care of me as much as my dad, and she's not safe to chill with."

Tim: "I'll ask my mom and dad. He was 4 when he married mom."

Behoeden: "4-year-olds can't get jobs."

Behoeden was shocked to hear his age; 4-year-olds were off-limits since they were so young.

Tim: "But he got one at 11. I wanna know how he did it."

Behoeden: "But, like, isn't she like his mother? Didn't she have to get a job to support her frickin' BABY⁉"

Tim: "That's why dad says they were poor; mom knew he was too young but refused to get a job."

Behoeden: "Uh- Listen, dude, you can... I... Okay, have you thought of kidnapping the baby and dipping?"

Tim was just 13.

Tim: "She drugged me and did it. I don't even know if she did it."

Behoeden: "She's pregnant; that would mean it wasn't your baby, so why are you trying to get a job to support a baby that isn't even your baby⁉"

Tim: "We're getting a DNA test, and I need to get a job, or else I'm screwed."

Behoeden just got bewildered.

Behoeden: "Just abandon her; it's not your baby❗"

After the 1 day DNA test was taken a day later, they proved it to be Tim's baby.

Behoeden: "You gotta kidnap the kid."

Tim: "I can't kidnap my own baby❗"

Behoeden: "She's a rapist."

Tim: "It isn't rape."

Behoeden: "Yes, it is."

Tim: "No, it isn't."

Behoeden: "How is it not, though?"

Tim: "I'm a guy, and she's a girl."

Behoeden: "That's an archaic way of thinking passed down to our generation."

Tim: "Have you been on the internet? Even if you say it, they don't want to believe it."

Behoeden: "They have raped you, Tim."

Tim: "Men can't be victims."

Behoeden: "Yes, they can."

Tim: "Listen, my mom wants me to marry her."

Behoeden: "What?"

Tim says, "Mom says I have to take care of my responsibility."

Behoeden; "You're just a child."

Tim: "Mom says my dad got her pregnant when he was 15."

Behoeden: "SHE RAPED YOUR DAD."

Tim: "Statuary."

Behoeden: "STILL RAPE."

Tim: "Listen, I not only have 1 extra sibling to care for, but I also have my mom. I can care for a kid."

Behoeden: "Why are you so obsessed with your son?"

Tim: "I don't want him to get raped, too."

Tim was just afraid of her touching the baby, so instead of ditching the whole family, he took the kid and protected it."

Tim: "She'll touch it when I'm not around."

Behoeden: "Then kidnap it."

Tim: "I'm trying to rescue it, okay? And stop calling it a kidnap."

Tim agreed to kidnap his child from the mother to protect the kid but was too afraid to stay around her or go to school, but he secretly planned to kidnap the baby once the child was born to keep the child from being molested.

To be continued...