Am I wrong?was always a question stuck in my head

#Tanie#

Waking up to the sound of my alarm I went straight to the bathroom and looked myself in the mirror

I was ugly

I was dirty

I was no longer the beautiful Tanie mom used to be proud of .I have scars all over but only Mr.kim and I knew ,now another one on my face I received it while I was trying to escape from My Father's torture last night but all I received was a slap leaving a scar on my face making me feel more ugly.I needed a bath to get rid of this,

I sat in the tub for like an hour,my mind full of thoughts,thoughts on how I could escape from all of this .I exposed Mr.Kim so bad but who would choose to believe me ,even mother would never,so best forget I'm the victim in the story and bear with it .

A knock on my door inturrepted my thoughts,it was Ji_soo my personal maid .

Jin_Soo: "Miss Tanea I am here with the dress you ordered".

Me:"it's okay put it on the bed ,I am coming".

I finished bathing and Jin_soo was waiting for me so she could help me dress up.

I wore my black long dress that covered every scar on my body,and some make up to cover the ones on my face I did my own hair and we head down stairs because I could smell breakfast cooking and the voices coming from the kitchen.

"Good morning",I said walking past the kitchen to sit with my brothers Jun and Yoongi who are also studying at SNU

Mom:"good morning sweetie",she said helping the maids to serve breakfast fast since she's the one who cooks everyday because mr.kim doesn't eat anything cooked by someone else,he says its dangerous and can't trust no one but he's wife ,the things with rich people,but we are all used to it .

Mom:"tanea.can you go and call your father?"

Me;"yes,mother".I hesitated but ultimately got my ass up and went up stairs to his bedroom and guess .luckily I bumped into one of his bodyguard and had to send him .

I went back and took my sit,after some minutes.there ,he was.He's face not soft at all making him scary so as his bodyguards,with his arrogant expression he moved towards us ,everyone standing up to bow to him ,he sat right next to me making me feel uncomfortable.

Him:"Good morning everyone".everyone replied except for me .

Focusing on my plate he started to talk again

"listen up everyone .we might have a guest from the office .you better not be surprised".he said sipping he's coffee

Mom:"oh.it would be nice if they join us for breakfast,right?"

Mr.kim:"i guess no?"

Suddenly the front door opens ,stood a tall beautifu lady ,looking good in her formal wear .She came closer and bowed to everyone ,"안녕하세요(hello )"

We all stood up and did the same to her,mr.kim went on and shook hands with her,and introduced her as Gang Jihye and vanished into his home office.

The day was quite good because father was busy and for the first I took a walk in the neighborhood with my brothers without a bodyguard.

"Hey,watch out!".she shouted stopping her bike half a meter from me

Me:"you have I sight problem?"

Her:"what if I say yes".She said starting her bike so she could go.

Jun:"hey,let me talk to her".he said when me and yoongi started walking away from this shit,leaving Jun with her.

You can even tell she's rude with the way she was wearing,some denim pants with a leather jacket ,some chains and some sort of boots,and also riding a motorcycle.I've also thought ladies can't do that.

We head back home it was around 18:20

and mom was already making dinner,I went straight to my room and took a shower ,wore something simple and untied my hair.a knock on the door startled me as I was busy checking my scars ,

"Miss tanea,dinner is ready",Jin_soo said slightly opening the door.

I went down stairs everyone was there except for father,do I had my phone tucked in my pockets knowing really well that it was forbidden to have it with me during dinner,but who can call me?

I took my sitter and focused on my plate .while mom was busy chatting with aunt Hana Mr.Kim's about the hotel she wants to sell.

My phone suddenly vibrates causing me to freeze cause I could feel mother looking at me sharply.

Mom:"Tanea.what's that?" She said her voice cold and stern

I stood up and bowed my head,"iam sorry .mother,this won't happen again."

Aunt Hana:rules are rules my dear ,and they have to be followed".

Mom:"give ,it.now".I handed her my phone feeling embarrassed by my disobedience and took a sit to finish my dinner but my appetite had disappeared already.

Dinner time was over ,we started helping with cleaning the table so I could get my phone back

Mom:"next time,I'll take it for a month".She said handing it back.

I rushed to my room and closed the door behind me eager to know who sent me a message

*Am I forgiven?*

I could see the message on the notification bar but from an unknown number

*who's this?*

I typed back eager to know who it wasand what they want. ,but no response.but a new notification appeared.

*Its me*

*Who is me*.

I was now getting annoyed by this person's shit.

*Tae Art,from earlier,I almost crushed you with my precious bike HaHa*

*oh,who gave you my number and how can I help you?*

No response

After her strange text I lay on my bed feeling confused.As I lay there in there in the dark I heard familiar footsteps out side my door,I knew who it was .it was my father ,Mr.Kim.

He had come to my room like he had done every night.He opened the door,grabbed the blanket away from me ,I felt his heavy body on top of mine .his touch was rough and insistent and I tried to disappear to myself pretending that I wasn't there ,that it wasn't happening but it was and it always was.Even my tears abandoned me.I hated what he was doing to me ,I now hated every men,my father being the root of it .

Am I wrong?for hating every man on this planet because of my father ?

End of chapter 1