Though my soul may set in darkness,
it will rise in perfect light.
I have loved the stars too fondly,
to be fearful of the night.
~Sarah Williams
***
I'm rocking back and forth, taking in the reality.
I could pray, to the Moon Goddess whom I never talked to, or to any divine spirit above- for Atlas to save me.
But as the hours go by I wonder if I will have to relive my darkness over again.
There is something different about it this time.
Maybe because I know what will come.
Because I have a small taste of knowledge of the cruelty I'm about to face.
I'll fight him.
I think back to those months with Jay, training. I think about Atlas. When I told him how I didn't fight him the first time.
I'll fight him.
This time would be different.
Even if the outcome came out the same, I could at least say that I didn't make it easy.
I could at least say that.