Lies

I tried so hard to avoid Christian and Melvin and so far I haven't seen anyone.Currently, I'm sitting at the middle of the Field after lunch- I had literature and French which was kinda fun actually. Right now I'm so confused I feel like I have feelings for Christian , no no no you don't just "feel" that way I scolded myself , and then Melvin, he's a nice guy and I didn't want to hurt his feelings so now am stuck with a date , ok calm down Alicia you can do this just breathe! I kept breathing in and out to calm my nerves and then I remembered I still have to call mom ' okay am so doomed '

I layed flat on the grass and tried to settle my inner conflict about going out with Melvin and having feelings for Christian , this is really a tough battle

first of all Christian doesn't have to know I like him I mean his not gonna like me back his not the type to fall in love

so I could just hide my feelings and then still be friends with him