Chapter 17 - I Was A Real Idiot

All of a sudden, it turned out like this.

I know it's all my fault.

"Why…"

How many times have I muttered these words?

I was a big idiot.

It's often said that you realize the value of something after you've lost it, but I thought I understood that once you've lost something, it won't come back.

But I was a genuine idiot, a dunce and a helpless fool.

My beloved's heart has left me.

"I'm so…stupid…"

I stare at his LINE. No matter how many times I stare at it, the LINE remains still, unmoving.

It's all my fault that I ended up like this with Yukishiro.

I remember when I met him.

It was an ordinary moment in our daily lives as we gradually approached summer.

When I went to the classroom to pick up something I had forgotten, he was alone in the classroom studying.

We were only freshmen.

I naturally looked at his profile as he was studying hard. I don't even know why I was standing there staring at him like that.

To be honest, I think I already liked Yukishiro then.

I think it was love at first sight.

"U-Umm…"

I called out to him for some reason.

"…? What is it?"

He looked at me with a curious expression on his face.

"Yukishiro-kun. We're in the same class, right?"

"…Yes. That's right, we're in the same class. You're Shinohara Yuuki-san, right?"

"Y-Yes."

"So, what's going on?"

"Um, are you studying?"

"Yes, I just thought I'd finish reviewing for today."

"I see."

At first it was such an awkward conversation.

However, the awkwardness gradually disappeared as we conversed, and we were able to speak without honorifics to each other.

That day, I had promised to play after school with my friends and that was it, but A person called Yukishiro occupied a part of my mind.

I remember that day.

From there, I became more and more attracted to him, started talking to him more and we even went on dates.

Then, I confessed for the first time in my life.

He looked surprised, but nodded.

I was so happy that day that I stayed up all night.

Since we started dating, we've gone on many dates, held hands, and even kissed.

One day, when everything was going well…

"Hey, Yuuki and Yukishiro-kun are really close, aren't they?"

"Yeah. I like Yukishiro a lot."

"How nice. I'm going through a bit of a rough patch right now."

"…A rough patch?"

A rough patch, huh… I don't think it's any of my business.

"Yeah, that's why I pretended to be a fan of an idol to make my boyfriend jealous."

"Heh…"

"Then my boyfriend got so jealous. He was so cute and looked at me all the time…"

"Is that so?"

My friend spoke so happily.

Thinking of Yukishiro looking at me all the time and getting jealous, I…

I was a real idiot.