My diary

You are never wrong this is all my fault. Please get out of my life please stay away don't make me dizzy."

"You're too easy to say love, baby, my life, my life, my breath and I'm so tired of hearing that bullshit."

"Proof don't love, proof when I'm sick you don't even care, that's what love says and that's what you say dear and you are my life?"

"I'm tired of the words of love that come out of the crocodile's mouth, but have I ever considered them guilty, but instead I blamed myself maybe this is a curse right?"

Yes, it's all from Kezia's diary, which was written because she was bored with the bullshit of the male creature, but don't get me wrong, she's an LGBT person, Oh, of course, it's still normal, it's proven that she even dated in high school, even though it might be for the first time and last.

Bad past

"Assalamuaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

morning all....how are you? I'm Kezia, the daughter of a transfer child from SMA Negeri 1 Seputih Banya," said Zia on her class themes.

"Waalaikumsalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, hahaha...." said all his new friends in class accompanied by laughter mocking Zia's uniform.

Zia just looked down and felt embarrassed, how can she not be laughed at even her clothes are not common, she is wearing a plain white shirt with a Scout skirt and a brown headscarf, of course it is an outfit that does not suit other students. And even not only the students but some of the teachers laughed at him and some thought he was weird. This is all the decision of her uncle who doesn't want Zia to drop out of school and repeat next year, she is forced to wear a makeshift uniform because her mother will register at this time.

" Never mind, don't laugh at your new friend, he doesn't know the rules here and you have to understand that he's a transfer student and will adapt first to new friends and surroundings. Kezia Putri can sit behind Agus, Agus please stand up and sit back down." Mrs. Eka's words stopped the laughter of the students in the class and caused a smile to look at the new boy with pity.

Zia just looked down in shame and walked towards the empty seat behind Agus, she sat alone and even many of her other students looked at her strangely, amazed, curious and others. actually zya is very uncomfortable with their gazes but she still has to go to school because school is very important to her life.

"Hay Kezya, introduce my name kety you are very unique, do you use uniform like that at your place?" said kety with a mocking smile, but still held out his hand as an introductory greeting.

"Of course not, I just forgot to bring my uniform to the dormitory." Zya said with a scared face, but still shook her hand with a slight tremor..

Zia is a woman who is not easy to get along with new people, she is very introverted, sometimes she is even afraid that someone will approach her because she thinks they will hurt her or make fun of her. She is just around her house, novels and stoves, apart from reading novels, Zia also likes to cook.

" You don't need to be afraid of me because now we are friends. I was a cousin of your friend Yesi'a when she was in elementary school, she used to tell me about you," said Ketty with a sincere smile.

"Thank you, Yesi, which class?" Zia said and tried to smile revealing Ketty.

"Yesi is in the same class as class A, while our class is class B, later if you want I will take you to meet him," said Kety with a friendly smile.

While many other students in the class looked at him not like it because it stole the attention of the students in the class who paid a lot of attention to him and even you asked for his cellphone number, and there are also those who openly want to make him their lover but they all refuse, Zia prefers to read his novels which always he carried it everywhere instead of watching the crocodile-mouthed creature.

"Hay Yesy?" Zia asked the old man, but he turned out to have changed both in appearance and in relationships, and Zia just stared in surprise.

"Hey, who are you, what do you need?" said Yes I who seem to have forgotten himself.

"I'm Kezia, Yes... you forgot?" said zya in a sad voice.

"Kezia who? We've known each other before, you just look weird like this, don't you think you're on the same level as this beautiful me?" Yesi said with a smiling face.

"Yes, I'm sorry if that's the case, I'll just go." Zia said in a low tone, Zia was very disappointed with Yesi's words.

While Ketty who was listening to that all just looked confused, the two of them, and then Kitty pulled Zia back into the classroom, actually she didn't understand the direction of her cousin's thoughts how she could forget Zia, who she thought was her only closest friend when she was in elementary school, right? he doesn't go to the same elementary school as his cousin. But she didn't expect her cousin to be that bad.

"Hi kety, who is she?" someone said from behind Zia.

"Hi An, he's a new friend in our class." said Ketty while looking at the person who called him.

"Kezia? seems like the name of my friend first." said the person. Then out of curiosity walked in front of Kezya and looked at him.

While Kezia just closed her eyes and looked down, for fear of being ridiculed, or humiliated like before.

"You really are Kezia, my elementary school friend, but the difference is that now you're wearing a headscarf and you're even more beautiful," said the person.

Then Kezia opened her eyes slowly, apparently in front of her was her primary school friend, Anna. In the past Kezia, Yesi a and ana were close friends but ana was often sick and ended up changing schools, and now they are back together with the same characteristics, except for Yesi who has changed character.

"Ana..., are you really ana..? how are you?" said Kezia accompanied by a smile.

"Thank God I'm very good, and now I'm not sick anymore. Are you okay too?" Ana said with a sincere smile.

Kezia never changes, always smiling and friendly, even though sometimes she's scared, because she's been traumatized before.

"Thank God you finally met your old friend who had a good heart. I will interrogate my cousin later, so he keeps his mouth shut when he talks to his best friend. "You don't need to be sad or afraid we will be friends and I accept people who are a little naughty, but I don't like to see people sad and isolated". said Ketty sincerely while looking at Zia.

"Thank you, I'm very happy to be friends with you, you are very good" Zia said with a sincere face.

"What's wrong with Yesi? Your cousin isn't just him?" said An curious.

"It's better for us to just go to the cafeteria and talk about it there while eating, I'm very hungry, let's go Kezia." said Kety while pulling Zia's hand walking towards the cafeteria and followed by Ana.