The silent Man

I woke up i check my phone a day has pass,is

3 AM my pain and heavy body have passed away i feel better but still burning hot. this is worse than when i went to school on sweaters on summer.

I cracked a smile thinking that i will not see my good friends that made my life at school better than my life at home.

I felt sad and lonely and wish that they when to heaven they really were a blessing back them.

I stoped my self of the habit of remembering the past and not moving forward. I get up from bed, I looked out side the rain still there is dark out side, only the lamps on the streets lit the dark and empty houses cars and streets. The only word or sentence on my head that can describe this scene is.

"Dark, Darker Yet Still Darker"

I hear nothing on this sad days for the ones that gat left behind while thinking they were good and a happy day for those that cannot come back to sanity.

To explain why i was left behind is because i never believed in God. I always though Religion is just a way for other's to enrich themselves more and more while the poor stays with hopes of a better future. I saw how they talked about god but committed sins all the time back them i was a saint and never understood such nonsense now i understand that a human is and will be forever weak.

I always hated everything and everyone all was but lies hatred to each other i saw my parents as no more than monkeys screaming at each other for a banana in this case it was money.

It doesn't mean they are no good in people. I saw in my eyes how people can be great and amazing and a figure to follow. But my life got ruin by the worse of people by the recurring object that so many want so few have and so many will die for or killed for...

Is now afternoon i ate some but not much electricity is working everything is normal and keeps moving. I heard a lot of gun shots they came next street them they stoped after that it took and hour for one more to be heard and i haven't heard no more since.

Silence did not remain i saw two people rushing there from different directions i think someone now has guns hopefully they are not together.

All of that happened while eating a Flan, That almost made me laugh honestly. The world around me has crumble while i remain silent enjoying what is left of it i have enough food for a few months.

Im thinking of having a exploration around the neighborhood but im still not sure it seems to risky to make a move too soon.

I went to my back yard to see black Blood rain once again i touch it it burns like when your finger touches a hot pan i think is some sort of acid. I went back inside grab my trusty backpack a hoodie and put pants and shoes.

I still feel nervous about going out side but is now or when things get worse. i hoped the wood fence and when to the house next to mine, of course the door was locked. But luckily there was a window, I bring a knife just in case with me I hit the window with the back of the knife it bounced i hit it harder and i made a crack on the window hit it again with more forced and it cracks all the way to both sides.

I put the tip of the knife on the middle crack and with a rick i hit it like a hammer to a nail it starts cracking until it open. I clean all the remnant crystals around as to not get cut while i get inside the house. I get chills down my spine everything is dark and some how it fells more silent than my house i more around making almost no noice.

I visit every room i saw bathroom room 1 room 2 kitchen and the best place the tv room but when i look to the left there was still one more room while checking the house there were some thrown stuff here and there idk if it was after or before Earth became Hell.

I move the door handle it moves i push the door slowly as to not make any noice i open half and i see legs floating a scene that i always had in bad dreams and that sometimes i though of doing it. A person hang himself it was a big grow up man probably late 33 he had water on his eyes he had pictures of his wife and kids they seem lovely.

There is a note next to him...

I get near to the table were the sad note sits on the dark as if the world pointed at it, the light from a window shines at the Note like the only hope around darkness honestly i hope this is a good note...

I pick it up and i start reading it.

Note: Hi my Name is John you already know why i was not a good one i asked nothing but understanding hopefully the one reading has sentiments...

I lived with my daughter her name was Bell as of Tinkerbell my Wife's name was Britney she was a lovely woman with blonde hair and a great smile. Since i saw that smile i always try to be the best men i could.

I regret not leaving with her, because back them when i was young i made mistakes that i deserve to have stayed in Hell. Wile Britney was my girlfriend, I cheated on her with a woman that seduced me i fell for her tricks she was Lauren and mischief. I was cheating on Britney because it felt good to feel my blood pumping every time i did i really deserve this Hell of mine.

For 3 months i cheated on Briney i started to hate being a double man and feeling devastated when she smiled at me it felt like a knife stuck deep inside me, everyday was becoming a living Hell... Huh funny. I had to stop before i regret it was the only though on my mind but Lauren tricks were more powerful than my will.

I stoped all content with Lauren and a week passed i once again felt better and like i was living in my head i was regretting everything that happen while make britney happy and happier and made her enjoy her time with me. It was like me trying to ask for forgiveness...

Lauren came at Britney one day and tell her everything that happen and lied that she knew nothing that i was taken. Britney toll me herself i felt powerless my heart broke and the only word that came out of my mouth was "Let me explain" she just stood there and walked away without saying a word...

My heart could not understand all the emotions going inside me my head was going on and on about why why why why... why i did what i did it was a question inside me that bounce around so much until it hurt like a rock hitting my head every time asked. I went to a bar near my house and a forest i drank until i had no money left i drank until my feet and head hurt i drank until my throat was nothing but a dry and painful mouth after a while alcohol felt like water but i kept going it felt better to leave my mistake and fear on the bottle them inside me.

I left nobody stoped me from getting inside my car. I regret getting in and not walking home...

as i drived home my vision was black the cars were flash of light that went slow and fast it looked beautiful like a show only for me. my eyes felt tire my mind was off place and my body felt heavy i closed my eyes and open them again like a flash of light i saw my self hitting another car.

I open my eyes again everything was dark i regain consciousness enough to get out of the car and looked at what i did i saw blood a old man was on the car i crashed he was bleeding from the head my head was still in confusion and the only think my mind could think was drive away. I went to my car and ran off, it was like auto pilot when i regain enough consciousness to process what happen it was to late i was miles away from the forest were i crashed i was lost in the mourning when the sun rose and shine.

I always assumed the old man survived until now.

Months later after the accident Britney forgave me and later got married i forgot what happen until now im sorry hopefully you the reader understands my pain...

I finish reading the letter almost about to cry i take the man down and put him on his bed i went to my house exhausted and tired i felt once again my body heavy and more heavy i flop into my bed...