12-Ryuk>

You know the quote "That was the straw that broke the camels back".Never thought the day would come when I would actually relate.The play.It felt like I was trapped and there was nothing I could do.Why did I agree to this?It felt so real I couldn't control myself.The trauma of my brother lurked around me holding me down as it breathed husky words down my neck "Dont hurt my daughter".Thoes words struck me like lightning.As Jasmin tried stopping the killer I felt myself shaking and shivering.The hands of trauma choked me as I tried gasping for air.Nothing came out.I was trapped in my own real life nightmare.I tried reaching out for help but nobody saw my suffering.Was I invisible?From all the times this could of happened it had to be JASMIN's performance.A wave of fear washed over me as I couldn't breathe.I couldn't move.It felt as if I was paralyzed by fear and problems and nobody was here to save me.Wow I guess my life is ending at 15.Expected my life to end differently but oh well.This unknown pain is going to be the end of me.Why was I all alone?where is Kagashi? where is Mira? where is everyone?Was I in a dream of suffering or real life?Honestly I cant tell.I feel stiff my legs aren't moving.Its as if I have no control of my body.Trying to call out for help was like calling out to air.Nobody could hear me at all.Just as I was losing hope-"RYUK it's fine I'm here hold onto me".Mira...

Mira.Its as if she heard my calling and came to me.Holding my hand she calmed me down.She kept reassuring me everything was fine and to hold onto her.Leaving the theatre it felt like i had left trauma's shackles.All thanks to Mira.She took me to a cafe and held onto me the whole time.Kagashi texted me but right now I don't feel okay.The fact how that happened to me scares me.God knows what would have happened if Mira wasn't there."Ryuk are you okay?".how do I tell her my brother's a murderer that killed someone."yeah I'm sorry I just don't like tight spaces" I smile at her.I already worried her I don't want to drag her in my bullshit.i can tell she is not satisfied with my answer ; what does she want me to say?while we were walking home i couldn't help but wonder how she knew I wasn't okay."You were having a panic attack ryuk it was very obvious Kagashi tried helping you but couldn't so he called me so thank Kagashi really"she smiles.Mira can read minds.AM CONVINCED.When she dropped me home I just fell asleep.