Prologue

Loving somebody is never been a sin neither a crime but when your love start to turn to an obsession and an addiction then a sin will born.

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It feels like the world know her pain, the sky is crying together with her. After moving to the countryside she had lived alone living a secluded life. She thought his anger would be last after a few months but who'd know that even after living together he never change his hatred towards her.

"mom, I don't think I can make it to next month. I lost my sense of taste, I literally lost my interest in everything" Carmilla was crying while she was on call with her mother, Mrs.Lenoir

"Dear, please don't say that. if he don't love you, at least you have us who never stop loving you. He is not everything!" Mrs. Lenoir was crying, her only daughter was deeply in love with her friend's son but she couldn't do anything to help her. Her sweet girl was accused murderer although it was proven she was innocent but her friend's son still strongly believed that his girlfriend's death was caused by her daughter.

"mom, I know I was wrong, I should've stop loving him, after knowing he already love someone else but how could I stop loving him if I'd been in love with him since Iong ago. I don't even know the day I started to love him also ain't everyone also agreed and said that we're well suited couple? " Carmilla couldn't accept the fact that she was never been in his love list

"Please help me mom, I wish there's a potion to make me lose my feeling" she said it while sobbing, losing him is her biggest fear but what can she do if the person itself is trying to make a distance with her, she had to step back to not worsen the situation.

"Honey, mom have a way but you need to be agree to make it work, if you don't cooperate how could we make it? isn't it, dear?" Mrs. Lenoir has no other choice but to sent her daughter away, living in another country is different from just moving to another city. Her daughter need to meet new people and new environment, she need to see something new and not just keeping her focus to a single person or situation.

"whatever mom, everything's here is torturing me" she lose her last gamble so she left the game.

loving him is a curse, I couldn't stop even after I tried my best-Carmilla