My life as Naruto

Chapter 1

I woke up from my bed and started looking around. I was in a small dirty room if that can be even called that. The room was more like a garbage bin. At that moment i froze in my place looking at the Hokage monument. There was four faces on it.

Next moment I was like in a dream where I saw my entire life. I saw how lonely I was, how naive I was, how easily I trusted people to get rid of my loneliness only to get betrayed. I saw how the man I saw as grandfather lie to me with a straight face. How I was told to sacrifice everything for the village and villagers who hates me. How he put the thought of trying to protect the village at any cost.

And how I accepted and thought of becoming the Hokage to get rid of those stares... loneliness...the pain.....for someone to care about me....see me as Naruto Uzumaki not that boy or a demon.

All the memory made me sad because my life was just...full of loneliness.

Again another sets of came makeing me overwhelmed. In this memory I saw what happened before I was born and what will happen in the future.

In this memory I saw even after his death he made my life hell. I was running after and protecting all the ungrateful peoples. Those people never cared about me. They were busy with their own goal and thoughts. And after all that suffering and hard work I was able to become Hokage. But died because I was no longer the main character. Because of me being Hokage and a naive idiot I lost the family which I always wanted.

My tears started to fall. 'To think that my life was just a joke. I fought and suffered to get what I wanted but all was lost because I was too weak and such a BIG IDIOT.....' I shout inside my head. ' Was that it.... After becoming so strong I lost all the power and became a loser. I had so much potential but I wasted it all to get other people's attention... And in the future I was nothing without Kurama.'

' I ran after my teammates but both of them didn't even gave a single thought about me. They even sacrificed me without any second thought.... The people I fought for didn't cared about me.... And after my death they again started their war... Yes I have to agree I was wrong that there can be peace...' I said to myself. I made it clear to myself that I am not going to be the same clown. I am going to become strong...so strong that I will be able to live with my family without fearing anyone.

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"Last night I graduated and I know about the Kyubi. So my change might become suspicious but it still not much. I have a week to prepare myself before I join the team." With that I freshen myself.

When I opened my fridge I only saw there was only cup ramen. Looking at the state and thinking about peoples hate I mentally slapped myself to ever thought of becoming Hokage. The job was thankless. I had so much trouble managing the entire village even with the shadow clone made me think how much of a clown I was. I was helping this ungrateful village with my shadow clones where I could have done that to train myself or be with my family.

And after all that savings them from Otsutsuki and sacrificing myself they themselves tried to create more and more problems for me. When Konohamaru became the Hokage they started their war.... Again. Boruto was able to stop Kawaki but what next. They made different types of weapons and killed so many peoples. At the last when Sarada became Hokage the wanted to play their politics and said to take all the responsibility on it. All because it was a Uchiha who started the forth war. Bastards didn't saw the other three wars.

And after all that things went back to the same when first Hokage made the village. Because Boruto didn't ran around for peace and stayed with his family no village even thought of attacking the leaf.

So all these came back to make a single point and that is if I want to stay alive I have to be strong. Stronger than other BASTARDS who want to meddle with me.

With that thought I made few shadow clones and transformed them into different people. I know that I have an Anbu watching me but I don't care. The Hokage didn't made me into a mindless puppet not because of just the promise but it was also became only an Uzumaki can handle the Kyubi's chakra.

I started to walk towards Iruka sensei's house. I need someone to guide myself and Iruka sensei is perfect for the job. I lack the basic knowledge and foundation. Iruka sensei is currently my best choice to help myself. Also I am ashamed to admit it but I am no way near to become a genin. Maybe I have shadow clones and with it's help I can tire others and defeat them. But I also without Kyubi chakra is nothing.

I arrived at sensei's house ignoring the villagers. " IRUKA SENSEI, IT'S ME NARUTO." and just after few moments he opened the door. I looked at his state it made me a little sad. " Don't worry it will be fine in no time." He said to me seeing my sad face. " So Naruto why have you came to me. It is still a week later that you will have your team. And if you are here to know it I will not tell you." He said with a smile.

" No Sensei I came here to get help from you." I quickly said. " What kind of help do you need?" He said with a small frown in his face and a little lost hearing that." Last night I was weak... I was not strong enough to help you... I don't want to see something like that. So I was." I wasn't even able to finish my last sentence before he took me inside.

" Wait a minute." With a big smile he went to another room. And after a minute he came back with 10 books. " I am happy that you want to improve but I still have a lot of work. So these are my personal experience and in one of the book I wrote how you will be able to make you foundation stronger." I was amazed. " Even though you don't like reading you have to at least read these books to even have the idea on becoming a ninja. I will be able to help you on your taijutsu in the morning and late afternoon." With that for an hour he explained me different things.

With the promise to come back in the afternoon I went back to my small and dirty apartment with the books on hand.

When I entered the room it was clean and I had different kinds of food on the fridge. I know I am not an idiot or stupid. I was a clown. To get everyone's attention I stopped my foundation or basic training. So that's why with my shadow clones by my side I started to learn reading and writing perfectly. The knowledge of future me was helpful but my body was not. Also it was vague. I only know them like looking at a dream.

So with a goal in my mind me and my shadow clones started my path to become strong.

[ I was not having much Idea on writing the previous fic. So I thought I will try this one. I can write this style of fic. This is just a test to see the response. If you like I will try to continue.]