A monster..?; Day 2

'At last reached the airport'

Andrew said in relief after his tears had stopped at long last,

He was tired of trying not to cry;

That bastard already gave in another challenge,

"from now on, whoever stays in the following states,

Die too,'

If I remember correctly he first mentioned the state nearest to us,

"Rhode island's"

Then ours too,

"Massachusetts"

But I had been taunted by this disgusting idea,

Lurking, and struggling in my head;

Andrew had hated using anything which normal people wouldn't notice,

But it just came to his head,

Again, and again and again until he threw up;

He felt relieved after he threw up,

He felt relieved that he wouldn't get any more disgusting thoughts for a while.

'I should be killed'

A thought crossed his mind,

But he kept on walking towards the hall where many sat and had been talking.

And at a moment, he heard them talk with a serious look on their face

"We have a plan to take the planes with people here and go to somewhere safe"

"But where?"

A man with a child behind him asked,

"We don't know.."

The man with multiple stars at his chest frowned;

At this moment, I don't know what went in my mind,

I spoke to clear my mind,

for my selfish thought,

I just wanted to...

"Boston"

I whispered,

...Clear my mind.

"Oh yeah it's near too!"

'Huh?'

"Boston but there is another problem"

'why aren't they realizing it?'

"One of us has to stay behind to-"

I was feeling nauseating,

I felt disgust at myself,

Because, that was the thing I had been thinking till now;

When someone is thrown to take in important information,

They would normally take in just the important 'present part'

And nothing else,

Boston,

Was also a state called out where one dies if they stay in the state,

And it was told right after Massachusetts.

The father of the small kid braced himself and spoke,

"I Ca-"

"I can"

I wanted to say more,

More than what I had just said,

But I couldn't,

The clenching in my stomach was increasing,

Even speaking two words was far more difficult;

"Are you okay..? Mister…?"

The little kid said behind his dad's arm,

I just stared at him,

With a cold eye,

"I'm sorry,"

The child's father said with a caring look at his child,

"... But my kid lost his mother last night,

If I could I would stay behind…"

I knew what he was going to say,

I was a father too,

"I couldn't leave him alone"

And right after

"Thank you"

He bowed down and thanked me,

I was clenching my stomach to not throw up,

"Then we'll be going…"

What am I doing?

I should stop them..!?

But my other half told me not to..?

I was disgusted at myself,

I knew if 'she' was watching me...

I clenched my fists,

Crunched my teeth to no avail,

I had to guide them to their very death;

Why was I doing this?

Why didn't they realize it?

Why..?

**

I threw up,

But I didn't feel relieved,

I felt hatred building like blocks,

"Huh…?"

Tears..?

I was crying,

I couldn't stop the tears in,

Or else I would've wanted to kill myself…

"WHAT KIND OF MONSTER AM I!?"

My tears were rolling on to the floor,

I was holding my face with both my hands,

I didn't want myself to be seen..!?

"THIS MONSTER IS NOT ME..."

the tears he wept were for not the same reason as his family,

he led them to their death,

he hoped that some miracle,

would save them,

and kill him,

"trust me…"

He made up his mind,

He would die,

Right where he guided them to their own death;

He continued to cry,

Until he fell asleep;

Whispering to himself in his sleep,

"I'm not a monster"

Just to make sure he was being heard.

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Character Notes:

Gavin (father of the kid)

Father of a single child, he lost his spouse at 12:00 of day 1.

Appreciates everyone who help him out and feels indebted to them.

His kid is currently 9 and his father made an excuse that his mother "will be gone for a while" to calm him even a little.

His spouse's loss has made him unstable in mental health.

Traits: 1) Thanks every part of his life.

2) looks for a positive part in negative aspects.

3) Is very emotional.

cons: 1) dislikes everything for a while.

2) Is not very tolerant towards a loss

Born at: December 23

Zodiac sign: Capricorn

Favourites: 1) Spending time with his family.

Looks: Is good looking but normally wears skinny clothes.

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