At my wits end(Important)

Hey there readers. Author here.

I just want to say that my plan of continuing this novel is ahm how do I phrase this.

Yeah i'm dropping the idea of the novel, Being summoned isn't that easy.

WAIT! Before you guys start dissing me, hear me out.

It hurts me as well ok? All the damn effort all my dreams of seeing Grant on the big screen in future, dashed by my rashness and stupidity. And lack of skill in writing.

It's been like what. four five years? Since the last time I wrote and now I sucked.

I'm going to be honest with everyone here. For sticking this far, you guys deserve it.

I have BIG plans for this novel.

I'm just a senior highschool student who watched too much anime and read too much novels to think he could make one. So I tried.

But I didn't just try. I poured my heart out.

World map printed. Whoo its lookin real beautiful.

7-10 massive seas and five continents scattered across the globe. This shit made my brain hurt.

Each location marked on that map. Major continents and even the smallest of towns.

Hundreds of races! A plot so juicy that it would probably take me a thousand and a half chapters to properly make everything flow into place.

You like wars? Strategies that would leave you in awe?

You like it when the MC becomes a powerhouse himself? Personal army too?

You like proper harems with members that have actual personalities and times where they and Grant (MC) would Nyan nyan?

You want a badass mc who takes zero shits and is actually smart?

You want real relevant characters?

Multiple badass villains who actually are pretty good and hard to defeat due to their power and mind games?

A real fantasy world with original fantasy creatures.

A world of my dreams. A world that truly screams, THIS REALLY IS ANOTHER WORLD OUTSIDER!

A lore that would make you shiver in wonder?

Well... I was supposed to give you guys that.

But me being a failure of a writer. I messed it up big time.

I wanted Stella to be the classy, royalty onee sama who loves to tease Grant.

"Ho? Come. Show me how good your performance truly is as you claim it to be Grant~"

"Truly strong indeed."

"Wipe that forlorn look off your face. As this princess' partner and man, you should hold your head up high Grant."

"Ahn! Yes that's the spot! More! More you big Brut- AHNNN!!!"

"The night is still young. Let's get to work then. Da-A-rling~"

WHAT THE FUDGE DID I JUST WRITE???

Well that was how I wanted Stella to be. A high class woman with a strong character. Sadly in this novel I made her into a gentle onee sama.

That was supposed to be another character damnit.

I wanted Beatry to be a naughty little chef who makes Grant's day better and to be the one who would melt his cold broken heart and allow the harem to form!

And I want Grant to be a growth type character who starts out being cold and untrusting of everyting around him as if everything is out to get him. I want him to show actual development.

But man I messed the shit up.

probably due to stress and self doubts. Whenever I read slightly hurtful comments or reviews, it makes me doubt my capability.

Yet I am thankful as well. It makes me see light and on how to better improve. What I did wrong is revealed to me by you guys.

Truly thank you.

It is my dream to write great novels, and get them adapted to manga. And once that happens.

I swear upon me that one day, once I become successful as a novelist.

Imma make all my work into anime.

Big dreams for a small shota such as I. Little eccentric, my pen name.

I really am little. 17 but I am only 5 foot 3 inches tall. I have a decent face. Im a boy just so no one gets the idea that im some sort of cute loli. Im asian too.

The reason why I am dropping the idea of the novel, being summoned isnt easy at all is because. I wasn't prepared enough.

I overlooked the system. The skills and the classes.

I overlooked powerscaling. I was never good at numbers to begin with.

That is a big no no.

And some character sheets aren't fully fleshed out yet. It would be alright if that was for another volume but.

Shite. Some of these characters are badly needed in the first volume.

You cant just have Grant run around in Zirakib without running into some sort of conflict no matter how strong he is.

I want conflict that would develop him more and for that I need lesser villain type characters who despite not being on par with the other great evils, would be able to do their jobs well.

If I kept on writing the novel as it is now, It would be mediocre at best...

So I broke down.

I can't.

I just Can't

So I came to a conclusion. I maybe dropping the idea of THIS novel. But.

I will not abandon you guys or my creations.

its time for a complete rewrite of this novel.

Oh don't worry. I'll still be updating this novel just to entertain you guys and keep you occupied while I do shite in the dark. Story goes on as usual but it won't be able to compare to what I have in plan for the rewrite.

I will give you guys and grant what you deserve. A great enjoyable read that fully immerses one into the novel.

I'm gunna drown myself in school work, plotting, character creations and flow decisions. While you guys just chill and read this mediocre novel, awaiting for the day the re written masterpiece comes out while you have this novel to distract you.

I just had to alert you guys of my decision. You guys deserved to know and it was also due to my loneliness.

I have no one to talk to about the novel. No one to truly consult and to help me with this stuff.

My friends may help but they have their own lives as I do have mine. You guys are the only real support I can go to for this novel.

Once I finish 30 chapters for the re written version which would take about two months at most, I'll release all those thirty chaps and i'll set up a patreon and a discord.

Anyone who wants to support me has a place in the discord. What if people get entitled and too demanding?

This shota has a way to deal with such people ehehehe.

Til then, see you guys next chapter and hopefully, school won't screw me up too much so that i'll be able to polish my work.

O right. I have school next week and an important exam the following week after that.

Damnit.