My Decision

I quickly answered your question, although with a very scared feeling, in my heart I hope Marco will come quickly and talk to you.

"You are ... as a brother, instead of teaching his younger siblings to be right! So that they can be the children of hope for mothers and fathers too! To dream of being like this, you have never even done it, even if you do, honestly you can be like somehow How do you think so that you can become like this, parents always expect you to be the right child, parents hope that you can become someone who is smart, who knows who taught you to be like this? .... replied Mother ...! ANSWER. . !! or the DOOR is open for you OUT OF HERE !!! "Mother snapped at me.

Mother is now at the peak of her anger, Mother no longer sheds tears but her index hand is always pointing towards me and the exit from this house.

"Ma'am ... Don't be angry Mom ... Sis Alin isn't guilty ... Sis Alin just wants her life to be free ... don't be angry ma'am ..... don't be angry with Sis Alin ..!"

said Nian, whining to Mother.

Mother immediately sat limp after hearing Nian's whining to her. Now I am the one who feels that Half of my heart may have become hard as a rock because I don't even care about my behavior and their words my determination is now only one that is to leave them and I don't want to cry or ask for forgiveness from all of them, I don't know if it's washed. by what my brain is, what is certain is that my determination is unanimous I really want to leave this house and this is for their good, because I don't want to see my mother and father hurt because of me, I also don't want my younger siblings to suffer because of me , let them cry now because I know this is all just crying for a moment at least they know that I will always be healthy and be able to step my feet properly to live a life outside this house.

"Alin. Try to think about it again, well, before you step your foot out of this house, don't hurt Mother and Father, please think about it again ... in the least, I never judge you badly and I don't care what is said. by those out there about you because whatever happens to you, you are still a mother's child ... that you love and that you raise ... I just think you have been wrong in socializing, come back Alin ... come back in a hug Both of us, the love of Mother and Father never runs out of time because it will always be there until death picks us up, Alin Whatever happens to you, Mother and Father still love you. "

Mother said with tears and a sobbing voice, but all of that still did not touch my heart and I feel dear with my tears if I have to weaken at this time, only a cynical smile can I give to my mother and father, I You know that even though I make anger today and annoy you and Mrs. at this time, they won't be able to hate me, they are angry but only in their mouths, but their hearts are like cotton that will still love me and also love me, for a moment I am angry. right these eyes because honestly I can not stand to see their faces both in front of me and with a loud voice in front of them I dare myself to say to my mother and father ...

"Mother, father ... it's not that Alin doesn't want to be devoted to both of you and it's not that Alin doesn't love you and you, but this is precisely the form of Alin's sacrifice that Alin has to do for this family, Alin doesn't want Alin's cause Everything becomes damaged, even though it is just a sneer and their eyes on you, it is not easy to change, except for one thing that can change it is Alin's decision to leave this house.

"Sis Alin ..... !! don't go sis .... !!"

My younger siblings cries began to ring in my ears they embraced my body and hoped that I would not leave them. the sound of wailing voices emanating from their mouths did not make this heart knock or shake from my resolve in the slightest.

Never mind the mother who was crying and the father who lowered his head because he covered the tears that fell on his hands, seeing all this my heart felt a little hurt, I wanted to feel like I went over to them one by one and embraced them all, but ..... no! because what I do all this is for their good, because this is my fault so let me bear it. I hope that if I stay away from them then their lives will be more respected and in the view that they are in this community.

"Go away if you really want to leave this house! Don't take anything out of this house, bring what you are currently wearing on your body! And remember, don't you ever have the intention of returning to this house even though you are wallowing in wealth! Forget us! Let's just say that we are dead like we have never been born into this world .. !! "The angry voice of the father echoed in my ears.

With sharp eyes and reddened from holding back tears, father yelled at me and then kicked me out of this house.

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