A nightmare

There were still some questions to ask Ai but they can wait for now as much as I don't want them to. Knowledge is the most powerful tool in a battle and while we have no idea who actually we are fighting and what they are capable of while they might just know everything about us, we are at a major disadvantage.

We cannot just sit and wait for them to attack us not knowing anything so we have to know more about the things we will be encountering. Honestly, what I am most worried about is this lord of night. I don't know what she is capable of but since she was the second vampire and I have the blood of the first, she would probably come after us as soon as she wakes up from her sleep. Ai alone might not be enough to tackle that situation so I too had to get stronger but then it raises the question, how do I do this?

At the moment, I have no means of getting stronger. I cannot always stand behind Ai and let her fight our way out like today. Sure, she is strong but there always might be someone who can be stronger. This is so troublesome.

"I am getting out and preparing dinner. You stay in for a bit longer," I said to Ai who was covering her chest as I stood up.

"Okay."

I got out and quickly dried myself before wearing my clothes and dried my hair. They were a mess right now so I finally decided to comb them. Maybe I should take more care of my appearance. Maybe.

I stepped out of the bathroom not before realizing just how many clothes were not washed and just dumped in the washing machine. Note to self, do that the first thing in the morning tomorrow.

I went to the kitchen, brought out the ingredients, wore my apron, and rolled up my sleeves to started cooking. I was making curry so it would take some time and right now it was fifteen minutes to eight meaning if I don't get the food ready quickly, we might be hungry till nine or so. Whilst preparing the curry, I got the rice in the cooker and turned the switch on letting them cook.

After fifteen minutes or so, I heard footsteps behind me indicating that my roommate was out of the bath. I did not turn around because I was too concentrated on making the food. In fact, this was going to be our lunch for tomorrow too. We don't really have ingredients for tomorrow's lunch since that completely slipped my mind and the one for dinner will...no, in fact, that would be perfect.

After half an hour more, I was finally done with the curry and the rice was also cooked meaning it was ready to be served. I got the plates and spoons out to serve the food. I also put a glass of water along with it since I might have made it a little spicy and I don't really know if Ai can handle spice well or not. Taking all those and setting them on the dining table, we both sat opposite each other and looked at the food.

"Itadakimasu."

"It looks so delicious," Ai said staring at the curry.

"Then eat it. I am sure it would be a lot better," I said and started eating the curry. "Perfect."

I saw Ai relishing the food with a satisfied smile on her face. Fortunately, it was not too spicy for her. Soon, we were done with our dinner and I was exhausted for the day and wanted to go to sleep already but not before I wash the dishes. Once done with that, I just went and crashed on the bed. I was so drained today.

As I got under the covers, I felt something creeping on from behind me. I turned around to see it was Ai was lying there and gave me a sweet little smile. Should I ask her this now? I think I should. No, wait...ah screw it.

"Hey Ai," I called her out and she looked at me. "Those stakes that you used to kill those vampires, where to keep them?"

"Hmm, is Kazu-kun curious?" Ai said in a teasing voice and then crept up to my ear. "I can show you if you want to~"

"You know what? Don't show it. I have lost all interest in it," I said averting my face and heard Ai giggling. "Say, when you first told me about my blood, you said that it was at this time that it was the purest and now you are saying that it is this time when it maturing. What do you actually mean by it?"

"I don't know much about it but right now your blood is the purest and also starting to mature. This cycle normally should start when you were a little kid but your body back then won't be able to handle the blood of the first. So now that you are sixteen, it is finally showing itself completely and your blood is also maturing at the same time. It is truly a rare case," she said to me wrapping her arms around me and snuggling up to my back. "Hmm, Kazu-kun is so warm that I don't want to let go."

"Then don't," I said and closed my eyes.

"E-eh? K-Kazu-kun..."

Not replying to any other of her remarks and tries to get my attention, I let the darkness envelop me and I dreamt, in so long. Unfortunately, it was not the best dream I could have had.

I was standing in a pool of blood with bodies all around me. Everywhere I looked, I saw the crimson red color enveloping the entire landscape. This much blood could not have come from just one person which was when I noticed the bodies floating in the pool of red. Males, females, kids, and...people I knew but also didn't.

I walked aimlessly in that pool of blood or more like my legs started moving on their own. There right before me, I saw a big door which I opened and stepped in. The pool of blood disappeared but the crimson red color was now spattered on the walls and the windows of a room that looked like it was of a castle of some sort.

In the middle of all that, stood a figure twirling around covered in blood. There was blood on the white dress that they wore, blood on their snow-white hair still making them look not less attractive and their green and red eyes were looking at me with an affectionate look in them. They took one step but stopped as some blood started spattered out from their chest.

A hand went through their chest which had a wooden stake in their hand. The next thing I know, the person tried one last time to reach for me but their entire body was cut up in less than a second. Their killer stood behind them and their red eyes glowed brightly.

I could see the face, it was a mature woman with long white hair, pale skin, and ruby red eyes. She wore a black dress completely contrasting her white skin.

"We can finally reunite my love," she said to me appearing behind me. "Now you will only be mine and mine alone. My dearest."

I was pulled into the never-ending darkness by those cold hands. I could not resist and my body was being pulled away from the cut-up corpse of the girl I know lying there lifelessly but still somehow calling for me.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" I tried to shout but no voice came out of my mouth.

"This is your fate, accept it and we will be together forever my dearest," I heard the woman's chilling yet soothing voice.

"Kazu-kun!!" I heard Ai's one last scream for me.

I felt cold on my arms and saw a white figure grabbing my hands stopping us from going further in the darkness. I was relieved that it stopped but I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. The figure's hand went through my stomach making me spit out blood.

"If you cannot be mine, you will not be of anyone else too!!" the figure shouted and I was now being split into pieces by the two females pulling me from their side. My tendons were being ripped apart one by one.

"ARGH!!"

I finally woke up from the nightmare.

I had no idea who the woman in the black dress was but I knew the other one was definitely Ai. Turning around, I saw her face too close to me. Her soft, cold breath was tingling on my skin and her pale white skin still looked apparent even in the dark. Her being so close to me was something I never thought would happen. I was one of the people who admired her but from afar. It always felt like we lived in different worlds. Even if we are in the same world, I want to tell her something but still cannot let the words out of my mouth.

It has just been a short time till I actually got to know her but I knew one thing in this time, this admiration that I had for her it soon turned into something more than that. A lot more complicated feeling, a lot more intense feeling, and a feeling which can no longer be called mere admiration.

"But I am so lame, and such a coward," I muttered under my breath.

No matter how close I am to her, no matter how much more time I spend with her, and no matter how much we tease each other, I know just what kind of person I am. That is what I hate the most, myself, the same self Ai loves so much. But I still cannot get myself to feel better about myself, about my existence. Even now, it feels like a mistake.

"I should have never been born they said," I muttered yet again. "I still think that is true."

I don't deserve this life, I don't deserve having Ai, I don't deserve Natsumi-san's guidance. I thought I was ready to die but at that moment, I hesitated, my heart shouted that it did not want to stop beating and my brain went into defensive mode. Just how lame can one person be?

"I'm so tired of this."

With these last words, I closed my eyes and turned around, and let my consciousness leave my body temporarily.

You still don't know everything about me Ai.

Of all that happened before we met.

Of all that happened when I was merely two years old.

You still don't know everything.

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