You Bettered me

I was just a normal girl who lived with her mother and had enough to make her have a better life but everything changed when I lost her in a car accident. I thought it was a game over for me, but someone I never thought will come and rescue me came and gave me a better life. Gave me a job, gave me a chance to build my life and become something even greater. Neither did I know that I was putting myself in danger, I was becoming a monster, my life was changing from better to worse. The guy I thought was my only saviour was the monster, the devil himself. He was supposed to be my one only my rescue. My shoulder to cry On. My ride or die. , I will only die with you. My, I will never leave you. My, I will have always be with you by your side, but everything changed. The love I had for him couldn't all to vanish. He lied to me and I fell right back to him. He cheated on me, I still chose to forgive him. He opened old wounds, made me insecure but I still went running back to his arms. Why can't I leave, why is it hard for me to leave him? I mean, he made me a monster. I did everything I can to fix our relationship but nothing is left for me. Why do I even try, why do I stay, why do I forgive him, why do I break myself, why do I destroy myself, why do I stay with him, why is it not so easy for me to just walk away. What is it about him that attracts me so deep to him even if he opens old wounds?