Ep9: little girl

Oh my..... I'm terrified to enter the house. I couldn't get to tell anyone what happened just now....

Anyhow I put myself back together and entered the house.

I went directly to Moon and Tyin, to see if they are doing OK.

Apparently they're fine but hungry and still awake. I knew they'll never fall asleep without me.

So I made them food first and forgot totally that I need to change my clothes I was in the rain for hours.

However I feed them first and changed clothes of mine. Put them to sleep and I couldn't fall asleep ever after that night.

I was in deep thoughts, pain and grief.

I was hurt badly physically and mentally.

Oh well in those circumstances my amma should console me and baba should be there with me call the cops. Shouldn't they?

But it's been a long time since I saw both of my parents...

I hate my life, I want to give up, I wanna die, I want to scream, I want to cry for god sake please.....

Just an hour ago some Basterd stole my innocence and killed my inner child.

My life was terrible and he made even worse...

Why it's so difficult to live????

(Disappointed...)   

I've been looking at wall whole night merged into deep thinking until my alarm went on...

I got ready and did the chores.

I was about to leave the house for work but as I got closer to the door I couldn't step out of the house I was hopeless. I was afraid to step out my body starting to shiver I fell down on my knees.

My hands were shaking and legs begin to shiver.....

I looked upto the door hoping for my parents to come and give me hug and tell me to not to give up. I looked and looked but no one came... Never.....

I stood up and with whole of courage left in me stepped out of the house for work..... I was afraid but I had no other choice I had to work for my precious brothers....

I love them so much. My little brothers all I've got left....

I thought this day can't get any worse but as soon I reached  to work. The twin's mom asked me what happened to my face and body it was all bruised and wounds were all over my body.

She asked me what happens to you Myin are you Okay? Did someone hurt you? Did someone hit you?

I noded "yes "

Without wasting anymore time she brought First-add box And immediately starting to look after my bruises and wounds.....

She gently put band-aid on me and said "I don't know what happened with you Myin? but I know you're a very strong girl as per your age. In my entire life I've never seen any one like you. You're just 7 and look at yourself. You're so mature more than any adult nowadays. I believe everything will be OK Myin just stay strong. "

I was looking into her green eyes and I felt what she said" she really mean it "

Furthermore she said go home you don't have to babysit today just go home and take rest....

All of these things should be done by my parents.....!

I went back to home spend entire day in solitude.

I heard other girls playing in the neighbourhood like a normal kid.

I never lived my childhood as I should.

As I deserved to live. I still don't know What it feels like to be a small girl.

Twin's mom encouraged me but once a broken child is always a broken .

Like if you break a mirror into million pieces can you fix it ever again like it used to be?