VOLUME III Epilogue

The longer I stay with April, the more my mental health starts to incline. My overall health from mental to physical, even emotional, especially began to feel much, much better. Despite my loss from my father, she had always been there for me, all because of her.

I recovered drastically from my post-trauma from my father's death and my past becoming a distant and burning memory now. And having myself to live alone doesn't feel so bad anymore.

I began to work in nine-to-five jobs, ironically, while still keeping touch with my fanbase on WebNovel and still do a side gig as a freelance writer and editor on Fiverr.

Basically, I have one employed job, one is self-employed, and one is getting paid for my favourite hobby. While having myself still receive disability benefits from the government through Social Security.

Not only my personality had changed without having to be dissociative about it, my attitude and compassion became less edgy to none, and I became obsolete to being the kind human on earth because of my mad love for April.

That's when I forgot all about the past, stopped worrying about the future, and started living in the moment.

I even began listening to mainstream, overrated love songs that we usually don't hear nowadays in this generation of music. But to listen to the only ones that are left for my new taste for love music. I don't think there are any modern love songs in this generation nowadays.

I feel older, which didn't fear to grow old just to die without a purpose now. My purpose is living in this apparent reality to make April happy. And I could not want anything better.

All those toxic exes I've dated are none compared to April. The fact that I feel like I am disrespecting April by comparing her to the worst types of girls to date, which all of my exes are nothing but Discord e-girls.

Sure, April is not kinky, she's not submissive and breedable, she's not into degradation, but that's what makes her so perfect! Even if she doesn't call me daddy, she doesn't need to! THIS. IS. WHAT I WANTED- no, scratch that, NEEDED ALL MY LIFE!

Because she is so simple, doesn't show any red flags, doesn't cheat, doesn't like sex at all to the point where she won't bother to jump on some other e-boy's dick like all the rest of my exes do behind my back because I wasn't sadistic and abusive enough.

I am not abusive; I am not an e-boy; I am not an alpha daddy; I am not a dominant sadomasochist.

I am just a simple man who wants nothing but a serious romantic commitment where we can spend our time giving each other true affection, communicate healthily, supporting and walking through our sufferings together, give each other comfort for our problems no matter how dark and down bad.

She is the embodiment of a perfect woman, regardless of appearance.

And that is what makes her perfect. I stopped being the type of toxic sadistic manipulator which is what my exes wanted me to be, and became my true self in front of her.

This entire rabbit hole insanity and madness all came from one simple ex-girlfriend I had. Her name is Jerusha, you know her, in the very first chapter of Volume 2, Book of Voltaire: ZERO;Rebirth. The one who left me to be some side hoe for some alpha dommy e-boy who already is in a polymerous relationship with ten more girlfriends. I wrote all this dedicated to my pain with this one woman.

And do you know what happened? That same e-boy left her for the same reason why he left every other ex's he had. He played her all for nothing but sex.

Oh, she's an e-girl, by the way. But doesn't look the part at all, just a wannabe. Her favourite internet celebrity is Belle Delphine. I'm not even joking. No Cap!

*SPEAKS IN ROMANIAN ENGLISH TOWARDS THE READER*

Enjoy reading my updates. My servants are not here at nights in this castle. I will not be here in the morning. For I have several appointments. Please, enjoy your stay here in Castle Voltaire. I bid you goodnight, Mister/Miss Reader.

Farewell…"