Guilty Pleasures of Forbidden Love
The reason why Toby isn't in this story anymore was because, for some reason, I thought she ghosted me. Ever since she began to act differently odd the last time we talked, which wasn't herself anymore, she just left, unempathetic of my mental issues and I fell asleep in the bliss of sleep.
Just to wake up without her by my side in the same bed, we used to do such erotic things to each other. She never came back, not even a single word from her on other social medias. Not even on Discord.
That's when I met April at the time.
Then Toby came back to me, saying she was just busy at her university with her studies. That's when she found out and threatened me. With that same phrase that she had to repeat herself since last time. It was to blackmail me of false accusation of rape.
By that time, I knew I felt terrified for my life. Lady Lilith was right. Once the pact has been sealed, there is no going back, and there are consequences to my actions. And what we agreed on was for eternity.
That's when I felt so nervous that I had no other choice but to be with her again. I had to force myself to block April after all the precious time we spent with one another.
But to be honest? What if April was just a hallucination as a coping mechanism since Toby left? All because Toby was manipulative and toxic towards me. I couldn't help myself but to fall back in love with Toby despite her telling me she was never obsessed in the first place.
Toby told me her obsession was all an act just to win my love, as she knows the fact that I have Stockholm's Syndrome. But by the time she came back to me, she wasn't herself anymore. As if she is finally showing her true colours. Which is someone who is unemphatic, controlling, possessive, and manipulative. But I loved her regardless, and I don't know why.
Until I told her that when she was gone, I told her about my father. And she felt bad about it. I'm not sure this time if she really feels bad for me or just another act just so I can think that she actually cares.
I'm quite confused if I'm being honest.
I felt bad for April.
I feel bad for everyone I've hurt in my whole life because of this mental breakdown I'm having.
I've gone insane and there's no way to revert back to it.
Although, during the time she was gone, a colleague of mine on WebNovel. Another author herself flirted with me as a joke. Both of us are jesters in a manner of flirting with one another. We never take our head-over-heels moments with each other seriously in the headquarters of WebNovel. She herself admitted she was a hybrid between a vampire, werewolf, and an angel.
As for myself, I'm a hybrid of a fallen cherub, which is the second highest ranking angel of the heavenly dominion. And no, not the little baby angels, you know, the BIBLICAL ACCURATE ANGEL type of cherub.
That's my soul, but the blood driving inside my body is vampiric, in clan Lunace/Lunatic Clan, but my body is completely human. She, herself, goes by the name Kir, but her pen name goes by "KirLove98" on WebNovel (please check out her novel by the way).
She is currently 24 years old, well in this universe when she first came into my reality. But in her universe she was 16. There had been some kind of wormhole accident on the way in my world that turned her body's timeline to the future but her memories still stay the same. Which is quite weird, ain't it?
But Kir's maturity is the opposite of her age. Back in her world when she was 16, her mind was highly matured, but here in my world, she accidentally turned 24, her mind became immature.
She always started flirting with everyone in the building of WebNovel where we usually work. And she gets all the men to simp over her like some weird polymerous harem. But it goes the same for me. I'm a harem king myself.
I just didn't like adding more female characters into my story, but in the apparent world, you, the reader, are living in. I have a harem of simps on a lot of servers on Discord if I'm being honest, which she is the same as well, Kir that is.
That's when Kir and I started flirting with one another and we began to slowly become half-serious with most of our flirting to the point where we act head-over-heels, a couple as if we were soulmates in the building of our workplace making her simps jealous of me. Because she spends most of her flirting with me more than anyone.
Due to my narcissism, it made her feel charmed more than any of her other platonic lovers in the building. Making me her favourite. The fact that I spend most of my time with her than the rest of the other women that are drooling all over my charisma.
It seems that Kir and I were more attracted to one another than to the rest of our platonic lovers, which aren't actually lovers, rather, just a collection of people to toy around with their feelings.
Then, it turns out that the closer we got together, I realised that I am friends with someone with the same mental illness as mine. Priceless!
We stopped all the roleplay flirting and started to become more honest with one another, getting slowly more attached to each other.
The fact that she knows that I am soon to be married to my psychopathic girlfriend that is planning to propose to me very soon, that I could not reject, Toby, she doesn't care and wants to love me the same way I do for her.
And the fact that I know she isn't accepting anyone to be in a relationship with her despite being available, she's not currently looking for a relationship and probably won't be for a long time.
Because Kir is focusing on her goals, career, other important works and her future. That's the same thing I was aiming for myself, but sadly, Toby is ruining it all for me. The fact she came back to my life once again, cursed. While not able to resist Toby's charms towards me. Despite being psychopathic and toxic, really.
So, Kir and I spent our final moments in bed one last time, behind everyone's back, before I'm going to marry Toby. And to keep it a secret not just for myself, but for Kir's benefit as well, because I can't ruin her image as a queen and goddess for every man at our workplace to stop oozing over her. I want what keeps her happy.
Kir loves me and only me and she just plays with other men. And she proved that I'm the only one she actually is interested in calling me her "British Lover" at her work place and always giving me too much attention, then the rest.
After our final intimate moments, we knew we had to part ways. All because I can't risk going to jail because of Toby.
It was forbidden love, for Kir and I were meant to be, we are soulmates and twin flames, but we knew we had to leave each other at some point in our lives no matter what happens because destiny sometimes doesn't play out well and has something bigger planned for us. Knowing the fact that she's my soulmate, I knew someday we may meet again.
And the next morning, Toby was inside the cathedral waiting for me in the aisle. When I came in the door, dressed in a red suit, herself wearing a black gown. Everyone was wearing white for the wedding.
And that's when my best man, Jaynel, was there for me (I booked him a plane ticket all the way here, by the way, you remember him from the second volume), and the bridesmaids waited for the bouquet to be dropped to one of them.
The funniest thing is, Toby was holding a funeral wreath and threw it behind herself and that's when one bridesmaid caught it. I winked at the best man, Jaynel, to que it.
Jaynel shouted, "You're next! You're the one that's going to die next!"
And I laughed hysterically. So did Toby. She likes the idea or murder and dark humour. And the rest were just quiet and asking what the actual F was that all about.
It was planned. It was funny for the both of us, but Jaynel didn't like it at all. I just promised to pay him a lot of money to say just one phrase. Which got him caught on 4K with an actual 4K camera recording our wedding.
Oops, someone is getting cancelled. The pianist played "Another One Bites The Dust" by QUEEN for our wedding. And I kneeled before her, putting the ring in her finger, which was an obsidian ring all coloured in black and a ruby gem on top of it custom-made that is mixed with my own blood for her.
As the pianist started to get serious about the wedding and played an appropriate melody for the atmosphere. It felt romantic, and it was the best goddamned day of her life. And I saw her face, so happy, so ecstatic, so excited, that suddenly made me feel bad for having an affair with Kir. That's when it hit me. I felt too guilty to go on, but I can't ruin her special day. So that's a secret I take to my grave.
Until someone showed up. It was Kir. She came here to stop the wedding. That's when Toby knew. She knew she had to kill her, and me!
So, she dissociated to complete catatonia. Slowly and slowly spiralling inside her fragile clinical mind, she snapped, grabbing the knife from her thigh that was strapped around the whole time, and jumped to kill her.
That's when I had to jump to save her. She accidentally stabbed me. Knowing the fact that my body is only human, and not completely vampiric. I knew my body was still as fragile as any normal person. And that's when she realised her mistake. She stared as her body shook as well as her voice for stabbing me by accident.
"N-No… No, no, no, no!!! This can't be, Klei!!!"
She snapped back to reality and started weeping over me. It was too late already. The knife was in my throat. I know by this time I am dead. Where my entire life flashed before my eyes, I've seen everything. I've found the ultimate purpose of life. And by life, we were all born just to die. That is the meaning of life.
Which is why in the cycle of life, the final transformation is death, and the next stage of death is to be reborn again. That's when I finally met my fate. Then, that's when the noise of some angry demonic woman flying out of rage across the entire cathedral made my mind slowly slip away from life. Where my consciousness stayed in my body, but my soul had descended into the infernal pits of the lake of forever fire in the eternal darkness.
Lady Lilith was there.
"How many lives are you going to beg for me each time you die just so you can experience the perfect life? Reincarnating from one life to the next, and once you found your inner peace, that's when you want to finally ascend?"
It is no joke that all souls go to hell first, before reaching up to heaven for judgment. Because demons are the wardens of sinners, and everyone on Earth is a sinner, regardless.
That's when Lady Lilith came to me and asked once again.
"How many times are you going to plead with me to reincarnate you again? And which universe this time?" she asks impatiently but keeps her voice calm with her body lying back on her throne.
"I don't know." I answered hastily, not knowing what else to say.
"I could give you another chance. I can only take you back to Earth, but to erase all the universes you've lived through and go back to your apparent reality. And start from there again. I can take you to the present time of your original universe. You will remember everything so you can fix your future mistakes. However, our pact is still sealed, so you are stuck with Tobias. You understand me?"
"Yes, Lady Lilith."
"Good."
And that's when I woke up to the apparent reality. The original world I've always been in. And all of everything that had happened was written in this manuscript, just to be published for all to see.