Chapter 1: The Thing That I Regret The Most.
The black night covered the sky of its coat leaving only appear the glittering diamonds of the stars, they shone, danced with a certain frantic joy which made Wei WuXian giggling. It seems like small fairies dancing in the sky.
But even his lungs couldn't handle this happiness, so he started coughing loudly, trying to make as little noise as possible so that the sleeping soul in the bed at the back of their room wouldn't wake up. His white handkerchief was now stained with blood. His blood was flowing from his mouth and nose. For a short while he felt himself leaving, his eyes far away, his ears ringing profusely.
The night was cold, he could not sleep as his mind was busy cogitating on all sorts of trivia. Life was long, the end was finally approaching. But fear also made him flinch.
A thick cloth was put on his shoulders, he hid the immaculate cloth now red in the sleeves of his dress, but it already seemed obvious to the clear eyes of the man who came to sit beside him. Smiling at him, their lips met with tenderness and love, like the caress of a feather on skin, their tongues moved with joy. They then detached from each other and Wei Wuxian went to lay his head on the shoulder of the tall man with a divan-like face. This individual possessed an uncommon lunar beauty; of clear eyes, thin lips and a skin as clear as porcelain not contrasting at all with his cold and distant habit that he gave to others.
" Lan Zhan. You know, The only regret I have in this lifetime is that I was not able to give you an heir. See, I was useless to this world until the end. " Lan WangJi sighed before grabbing Wei Wuxian hands in his intertwining their hands.
" No, it doesn't matter to me. " The cultivator replied. Wei Wuxian chuckled at her husband's words.
13 years in all they bowed to heaven, earth as well as to the elders. Although their union wasn't well received in the society of cultivators who feared the power of the couple at best, over time everyone came to terms with it eventually, as long as someone managed to keep Wei WuXian's devil at bay, any solutions were worth considering. To lie would it be to say that they were not eagerly hearing the news of Wei Wuxian's death from his incurable disease.
But the person concerned did not feel any regret on each of his decisions because by taking such a perilous path, he ended up being enlightened on Lan Wangji's feelings as well as his own towards the latter and that was the most beautiful thing that was given to him from then on.
" Don't you want to? " He insisted and the clear-eyed cultivator said nothing. Wei Wuxian then looked up at him.
" There are so many solutions. " He attempted in his legendary known stubbornness.
" They were each more dangerous than the other, I'd rather have you safe, than know you being in danger. There are things in this world that can't be changed. "
" I'm going to die either way. "
The grey-eyed man looked down at the ground, he could feel Lan Wangji's grip tightening in his hand and he winced in pain from the force of the grip.
" We've discussed this many times before. " Said the cultivator through gritted teeth, " Don't give it another thought. "
" And I never listened to you convinced of otherwise. We could have founded a beautiful family, all these years have passed for nothing I should have tried even if you have several times formally forbidden me. "
This need has never left him. This need to have always wanted to bear children of her valiant husband, but all the solutions were dangerous and Lan Wangji knew sometimes how to convince his soul mate not to venture head down especially since the best Doctors they consulted also persuaded them of the dangers that it represented for a man to carry a child for almost a whole year.
" All the happiness that you have given me during these last thirteen years, I don't deserve it at all. Apart from humility, I don't see what I've been able to give you in return. Ah, it's so frustrating to think about that now. Now where I stand at death's door. "