Why have a Death Note when you have Anime and Manga

For many years, many people have dreamed of going to another world, to be reborn, to be given a second chance to do it right, to live with no regrets.

I was one of these people, when you know of other worlds through works of fiction, where groups of characters band together for a common cause, with powers beyond our imagination. It makes you want to be a part of it, to have people to care about you and you them, to have the power to do anything you want.

As I said I used to be one of these people.

Keyword, used.

That was until I myself was blessed with the dream of reincarnation in a fictional world.

Or should I say cursed?

It wasn't a world where I could travel the world in search of treasure with a dream to realise. Nor was it a world where people band together for a just cause. Or even a peaceful world where you can solve everything with the power of friendship and family.

I was born again in a bleak world, where justice is imperfect, where the innocent get corrupted and the corrupted are deamed as good, where those who try and uphold justice and do the right thing struggle against power beyond their comprehension.

Where a Death God takes joy in watching a Death Note using serial killer with a God complex fight against the Number one Detective with a high IQ, as they try to out smart each other, to get into each other's heads and to take the other down.

Where many many people die for their crimes with no chance of redemption. Where people are afraid to make the smallest of mistakes, afraid that they'd be killed for it.

A world where the bad guy wins, for a good few years before the good guys finally win.

Hi, my name is Light Yagami or well, Yagami Light. And I'm someone reincarnated as the one who will have the highest kill count in history and lose my mind in the progress.

And to that I say, Fuck that.

I don't know why Death Note of all worlds or even why reincarnate as The Light Yagami, the future Kira, the one who defeats L, the self proclaimed God of the new world.

But they should've known that killing is not my thing. Just the thought of hurting someone makes my stomach sink with dread.

Anyways, I've been Yagami Light for a few years now. I am now 13 years old and will be starting Junior Highschool pretty soon. Meanwhile Sayu is 9 years old and will be 10 in a few months.

Reliving childhood again has been a mixed bag, on one hand I was able to breeze through the curriculum but in the other hand it was boring af. I never related more to Conan Edogawa as I did in that moment.

There was also the opportunity to form close friendships with my classmates, something I never was able to achieve during my first childhood, the years spent alone still haunt me to this day. It was both easy and hard, I was able to easily entertain them and be one of them but I wasn't able to engage in meaningful conversation due to the gap in intelligence and wisdom. Many of them were fans of Kamen Rider while I prefered Power Rangers more.

They wanted to go out to catch bugs while I wanted to just sit inside and read a good book.

I couldn't always be on the same wavelength as them or I'd risk being a sheep, wearing different masks just to fit in. Which was one of the leading causes of Yagami Light's boredom.

Boredom was a foe I constantly fought against over the many years, it was worse during my years as a babe then toddler, when I had little to no mobility and many sources of entertainment was out of my reach.

But with my rebirth I received a very helpful boon that staved off my boredom.

Apparently when you die, the last regret you have will be rectified in any way it can.

My last regret was being unable to finish multiple works of fiction. It was vague I know, my there were so many manga, anime and video games that I barely touched, much less finished. I kept wanting to indulge in them but never had the time to.

So, I was given the gift of all time access to any Anime, Manga or video game I'd like. Constant updating with a new episode, chapter, dlc or new works.

As well as Death Note in all forms except the musical and live action series or films.

God I wished I still had access to musicals.

But at least I have a direct source of information and reference to future events, of one possible future.

Watching anime or reading manga in my mind has helped a lot during lessons I already know the material to, which gave me a lot of time to catch up and remove boredom.

Playing video games in my head was really weird in particular, and could only play during peaceful moments. A lot of people think I'm a really mindful and calm child as I would often be found sitting somewhere and gazing at the scenery, as though meditating. Not knowing I was engaged in the fight of my life in Elden Ring.

Being born with Yagami Light's brain has helped a lot in easily acing my schoolwork, homework and exams. As well as multitasking in engaging in my mental entertainment as I work.

A part of me wished that music was included in my last regrets as I missed listening to my favourite songs while working.

At least I have Persona 5 to play music from. I can just set the protagonist to chill in Cafe Leblanc and have Beneath the mask play on loop. Or use the Persona 5 Royal Thieves Den and set the background music to whatever song I want.

Got to take what I can.

Now though, now being 13 years old. I have been able to catch up with many works I had intended to catch up with in my previous life, with many also finished.

So I hit a roadblock in my path to avoid boredom.

I've finished all the works I had interest in and was struggling to find the next best thing.

Every new anime, manga and game that I have a lick of interest in are either, very short or falls off midway.

I didn't even have the luxury of manhwa or fanfictions to fall back on during droughts.

Just when I thought my world was coming to an end, a thought came to me.

'When you can't find what you want, make it yourself'

In my past life I showed signs of ADHD but never got tested but whenever I experienced a content drought I go out of my way to make my own aka fanfics.

But AO3 doesn't even exist yet, and would take years for it to flourish.

And that is without even mentioning the current state of computers and the Internet.

With no means of writing and sharing fanfics, or fellow fans to enjoy said fanfics with no source material to refer to.

I decided to make the pieces of work in my brain a reality.

Both for my own enjoyment and in hope that I can entertain Ryuk should I ever meet him.

I always liked to share my passions, so this is essentially a dream come to for me.

First things first on the agenda is mastering one of the many different art styles in order to recreate even one manga.

Why start hard with works like One Punch Man when I can start off simple and easy.

Like Detective Conan.

Fitting for a world with a genius Detective, wouldn't you say?

And it may also so I can release some of my annoyance of having to relive my childhood.

It was my number one favourite story in my past life and never before has it become so relatable.

The only thing in my way is getting my parent's permission to start drawing seriously, as well as a way to publish my works.