WHY AM I IN A NOVEL?

Suddenly one day I remembered "I am a villain in a fantasy novel??!!" Me who lived my life as a mob character in my previous life is a villain now? well, what can I do? I will just live as I want or so I thought. Can my life be that simple as I wish?... A real life mob character. Maybe that's one of the way to describe my past life. But I never hated that kind of life, neither loved it. Cause it saved me from a lot of troubles. Peace was the only thing I needed. It was enough. No main events, no plot change, no trouble. Continued to live as a mob character and then finally die as a mob character. This shouldn’t be a teenager wishing. Maybe because I am an orphan and wanted to know what its mean to have a family. It always made me sad and sometimes this kind of thought made me realize, that I was living a meaningless life. To get out from that boredom, that's why I tried to step in to the world of books. That's where I met “Magic kingdom.” And in this novel what I really hated was the life of Londo Alexandria. He was once a man who only knew how to love. Losing his only childhood love to the protagonist was made him mad. From that day forward he saw everyone differently. Even his attitude towards his family changed. That was his greatest regret. After losing his family to the Monster invasion he lost his mind. The hidden power in him awakened and he was on a rampage. Unable to control his emotions, unable to control the power he destroyed everything on his way until the protagonist slain him. In short he was just a stepping stone for the protagonist to move on. Everything that made the protagonist stronger ,was what led him to his demise. Now I regain my memories?, before everything started?. By the way, how the hell did I die in my sleep??!! ........ Series [SACRED HEART] [FIRST BOOK] ..... cover photo not mine... .....