Rhig (1)

I had totally lost control due to the tremendous amounts of Blood Qi and mental pressure, in my mind, there was only the word massacre. When I raised my head to look at the battlefield, I was inside the human village, my vision slowly returned to its original color and I could see the disaster I had created.

The stone buildings had cuts that scratched their surface, the floor was completely covered with blood and random chunks of corpses, there was not a complete corpse on the floor, I could not even recognize if they were barbarian or human, at that moment I realized that I had completely lost control for quite some time and had made a bloodbath even with innocent people.

I had harvested the souls of all the people in the village, including the prisoners, I had killed innocent people because of my selfishness, if I had taken more precautions, or had not been so impulsive there would be survivors, I could not believe that this massacre had been born from my hands.

I turned to see Rin and tears ran down her face and blood stained her dress. Rin had two cuts on her body, one on the shoulder and one on the lower abdomen were not deadly, but they bled slightly even though she was not in danger they were not a joke. I had not been able to distinguish the person I loved most, this day was a turning point in my life, I knew that being Berserker was a double-edged sword, but I did not expect it to be so formidable.

"Rin, kill me before I go crazy and kill innocent people, you are the most valuable person for me and I almost killed you...". I fell to my knees as I said this, I would rather die than kill the people I loved.

"Rhig, okay, you can't blame yourself for being a Berserker, you were born for war, it's a cruel but not a bad fate, I trust you, I trust you can change the Berserker's fate, don't give up," Rin said in a soft voice, as she lifted me from the ground and hugged me.

I couldn't forgive myself, my feeling of guilt was overwhelming me, almost murdering Rin. How could I defend my family if I could murder her in an outburst of madness?

I made a promise at the bottom of my soul, either I dominated my destiny as Berserker or I would cut my destiny with my own hands, I didn't want to be used to unleash a massacre in the universe.

While I was thinking about everything that happened we kept moving to the next target, I didn't have the spirit to look for money or treasure in the village, so we left after adding the tests to the badge, the other missions were quite simple so there should be no problem, only the demon nest was a 5-star Knight Mortal mission, and it was the penultimate mission before we returned to the Port of Greenstone.

We only had 8 missions left, with these missions it would be enough to reach the stage 4-Mortal Knight at least. I tried to convince myself that I was walking the correct path of the Berserker, but the scars on Rin's skin reminded me every day of the curse I carried on my back.

We managed to clear 4 missions in 3 days, they were quite easy missions, the only one that was interesting was to eliminate a nest of monsters, there was a great concentration of monsters in a particular area, the mission was simply to annihilate most of the Storm Bears, it was an evolved species of the conventional bears, they had absorbed Qi Elemental improving their bodies and I could add in their attacks some Elemental Qi, but they were not a threat to me, but their white coat reminded me of the polar bears of the Earth...

The more time passed the stronger my will became, to see Rin every day treat me as always despite almost ending her life, it hurt as much as tearing my soul, I had the conviction to win or die this time.

Due to the massacre of the 5-star mission my cultivation had reached the pinnacle of Bone Strengthening, I would need a large amount of Blood Qi to break through the threshold and fuse all the sets of bones into a single closed circuit, greatly improving the circulation of Blood Qi, the speed would rise highly and the impulse to untie it or convert it into structures would improve enormously, especially the speed with which the structures would form.

The next mission was to assassinate another group of bandits, it should not be a problem, but the sin by the murders was accumulating inside my being, before I was not aware of everything I had done but since I lost control the fear grew, I was afraid to be myself and to kill innocent people again.

Although my mind had cleared up these days I still felt an oppression in my soul, I was afraid, and the fear was choking my Berserker's heart, if I continued in this way I would never progress again even if I survived the outbursts of madness, I had to look for a solution immediately.

"Rin, I can't go on like this, when we reach the demonic nest, let me go alone, I need to know what's going on, I can't give up so easily, if I don't appear after a long time, run away and consider me dead, I know it's cruel, but I don't want to become a monster...". I said softly to Rin one night, while I stroked her silver coat, as soft as velvet helped me to calm down and fall asleep.

Without saying anything else I fell asleep, I knew she had listened to me but she tried to pretend as if she hadn't heard anything because she didn't want to leave me.

The next 2 missions were the simplest of all, they were simple 2-star Mortal Knight missions that we had added to fill the path to the demonic nest, we soon reached our greatest challenge the demonic nest, it was even more dangerous than the village conquered by the barbarians.

Rin's embrace woke me up as usual, but today it would be different, or I would lose my mind completely or I would dominate Berserker's heart, I was clear.

Seeing Rin cooking, I smiled from the bottom of my soul, I couldn't let such a wonderful person suffer my own fate, there was something I didn't tell Rin, every time I absorbed Blood Qi from the others some drops of my Blood Essence condensed, I had accumulated enough for this moment, I needed to keep Rin busy for quite some time and this was the best resource.

Thinking of the Blood Essence, it appeared in my hand, this time 50 drops had materialized, the Blood Essence was the most valuable thing in my body, so I could only fall into the hands of the most valuable person in my life.

Through the connection with the blood, I learned that I could leave simple tests, if she could pass the challenge my pet would receive the blood, if not, she would not receive anything, it was a trait implemented in the blood so that the demands would always be high and never stop improving the pet.

I could not allow Rin to pass a life or death challenge, so I chose the simplest one there was, a focus test, I limited it to 7 days, more dangerous time because I could not take care of Rin's body, although she could unconsciously sustain herself from the elemental energy, it was not enough to last more than 10 days.

Depending on the approach during the 7 days she got, she would get more or less Blood Essence, and she was forced to spend 7 days in the test.

While throwing the Blood Essence seal towards the Rin, I picked up some meat to eat on the way, grabbed the claymore and gave Rin a kiss on the forehead, while putting it inside the tent, a crimson wrapper protected her, the blood essence could protect while one of the pets was in the test, but it was limited to the strength of the Blood Essence producer.

With a smile I went towards the demonic nest, bathing in the light of the dawn I adjusted my mental state to the maximum, perhaps it was the last time that I could enjoy the dawn, if I did not manage to control my state of Berserker I would end with my own life before provoking a disaster to the others.

With this resolution I arrived at the entrance of the demonic nest, inside a small army waited for my arrival, removing all the worries from me, I smiled and threw myself directly to the combat, today there was nothing that held me back.