Whenever She's not Present

I noticed that marga and the others started to talk less and less. And whenever I'd call marga to come and meet with the others she would just say she was busy. And so did the others when I asked them. It was obvious something was wrong. But I never saw them fight at least once. But now even the others were starting to notice marga's change in demeanor. She was no longer the old marga who used to be very talkative and social. She was now marga the groups left behind friend. She slowly but surely replaced us. But we still talked once in a while. She was still pretty nice and she treated me okay. But I couldn't help but notice that she was starting to get even more distant with me. She sometimes wouldn't even talk to me anymore. She would only notice me when Alex wasn't present. She didn't even message me anymore. She never said happy birthday like before and she didn't say merry Christmas anymore. It was as if we ceased to exist in her world.

Me and the others started to talk on how distant marga has been. In my ymind I wanted to tell them to just unfriend her all together but I couldn't believe what I was thinking. I felt ashamed for even thinking of doing that to her. So I never thought of it again. The only good thing was that I got to socialize more without her. I even got to see my crush at 5th grade again...

Alexis was my crush since grade 5. We moved schools together and we'd always cross each other's paths but we were never classmates. Whenever we met it would feel like fate wanted to make us closer. I liked his company a lot as I felt very comfortable with him. He was a really nice guy and he was soft spoken. He was quite a gentleman and he had many friends like me. I'd even go to his classroom sometimes to hang around and many of his classmates shipped us together. But he never reacted to any of it. He'd just say we were friends and all. I never felt hurt about that as we were young and I've always knew me having a crush on him never meant I loved him but instead that I admired his gentleness and caring personality. But all changed when I met his female friend from another section. She was very welcoming and we'd even hang out when he wasn't present. We even went home together because our paths were the same. But one day we were joking around and many of his classmates started to tease us again. His female friend was there and to draw out the attention I jokingly said that his friend liked Alexis instead. Everyone laughed about it but once Alexis left me and the girl were still chatting and I was teasing her. But then she said something that made me feel chills down my spine...

"Shhh! Don't be too loud! He doesn't know he's really my crush!"

It felt like my whole world came tumbling down. I was devastated. But I kept my cool and I kept my smile. We kept on talking until Alexis returned and I made up an excuse to leave. I was in shock as I didn't know what I've done. I made the biggest mistake of my life just because I teased them. I didn't know what I was feeling if it was heartbreak, confusion, anger or just shock. I needed marga to console me but once I walked in our classroom I just saw her talking to Alexandra. She was busy and I knew it so I didn't even bother her. Luckily my new friend Cailee spotted me and saw me. She gave me a warm smile and called me over. She immediately noticed something was wrong with me so she asked what was wrong. Once I told her she was in complete and utter shock. She couldn't believe it I could see her smile turn into a worry but I just teased and we just laughed about it so she tried to console me.

Cailee: Girl! He's not dating her yet you still have a chance!

Me: Cailee are you crazy? I could never... I don't want to break their friendship out of jealousy!

Cailee: Whatever you say then stupid. All I'm saying you still have a chance in making him like you that's all.

Me: Even if I have a chance I wouldn't even try.

Cailee: You dumb bitch don't waste your chance! Use it while you have it. At least you have a chance while I never had one. ಥ_ಥ

Flashback about cailee not having a chance...

Me: Hey ian do you really have a girlfriend?

Ian(Cailee's crush) : Yeh.

Me: Like I'd believe you.

Ian: I really do have one then.

Me: Oh really? Then what section is she then?

Ian: St. Leo is her section.

Me: What the fu-. You pedophile that's a section from the 7th grade!

Ian: So?

Me: We're in the 9th grade you pedo! You really have a crush on a 12 year old?!

Ian: Yeah?

Me: Whatever good luck on that.

After that conversation I went to cailee who was sitting in front of Ian. I went to talk to her during lunch time when the class was empty.

Me: Girl... Are you okay? ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶

Cailee: I hate this placeeeee!

Me: Cailee what do we do now? ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶

Cailee: I don't know...

Me: Cailee do you accept it?

Cailee: Accept what?

Me: That he doesn't like you?

Cailee: Come here you dumb bitch! (๑•̀д•́๑)

Back to current time...

Me: Yeah you chased me all over the classroom. I even attempted to jump of the window so you wouldn't catch me but sir Migs came.

Cail: Let's just forget about that part. ಥ_ಥ

And so me and cailee just laughed it off. She showed how much she truly cared...