CHAPTER 4

I must be so shocked by what I have seen back there that I am acting fidgety like this. I put my hand on my head and sighed. His face while kissing the girl kept on repeating inside my mind and it is not healthy.

So he's back already, I wonder how long he's going to stay here.. or will he only stay for another month again?

But I don't care anymore, my crush on him has been gone for so long. I was sixteen, naive and pathetic. I am still embarrassed by how disappointed I was when I found out that he had left.

But I am not the same girl anymore, I had already gotten myself off that petty crush on him.

I am glad to see him again, as far as I can remember, he never did anything wrong to me, it was just me feeling conscious about myself at that time.

It was dark, I couldn't even see him properly, and I cannot spot any changes in his physical appearance. What I know is that that scene with the girl kept on coming into my mind.

But I need to get over it.

I went back to the hall after a few minutes and looked for Damon. How I wished I never left him and looked for Aira. I can't find him anywhere.

I went to the bar counter alone, I cannot see my friends so I decided to get a drink alone.

"Xhyrah?" I immediately shifted my gaze to see who was calling my name, turns out, it was a guy that I cannot even remember who.

"Y-yes?" I replied nervously. He's holding a drink in one hand and is walking closer to me.

"How are you?" he asked as if I know him. But I don't.

"Fine," Even if I don't know him at all, I still want to treat him nicely so I tried my best to catch up to his level of imaginary-closeness to me.

"It's been a long time," he said and went to the seat next to me, How I wish I didn't sit here. He is so close and it's ticking me off.

"Y-yeah," I said uncomfortably. This guy has brown hair and eyes, I have never seen him before and I don't think I had talked to him before. I looked around to see if he was just tripping on me and talking to me as if I had already known him.

"You look really good tonight," he said and pushed his face closer to me, I immediately put my hands in front of my chest to push him away, He seems like he was trying to kiss me.

"Thanks-- you're too close," I told him and smiled awkwardly. He smiled and ignored me being uncomfortable around him and continued talking to me.

All his words made me think that he doesn't really know me personally, he must've gotten my name from somewhere and I don't think I have talked to him before.

"Uhm, I really need to go, I am looking for Aira," I told him and took my purse. "It's nice meeting you, bye,"

I thought I will be able to get out of the awkward situation easily but he suddenly grabbed my hand.

"Where are you going? We're not over yet," he said and pulled me closer to him. I felt disgusted and pulled my hand away from him.

"Don't touch me!" I scolded him and glared at him. I walked as fast as I could away from him and hid in a place where he can't possibly see me.

Now I am alone at this party, Damon and Aira are nowhere to be seen. Maybe I should just go home.

I took out my phone to text my driver, I found out that it was still 9 pm but who cares, I can't enjoy this party alone.

I was just about to text my driver when a hand pulled mine away. I almost lost my grip on my phone.

The person started pulling me somewhere. I looked at him but I couldn't see his face. He's not the same person I was hiding from.

"Who are you?!" I asked him but he didn't answer. I tried to get out of his grip but it was too tight and I can't even make him let go of me.

I tried not to walk but if I do, I will be dragged to the floor. He's walking too fast!

"Who the hell are you?! Let go of me!" I didn't stop trying to let go of his grip. I was about to shout for help when he suddenly pushed me onto the wall and started kissing me.

My eyes widened, I used all my strength to push him away but the kiss is draining everything.

What the hell is happening? This guy.

I opened my eyes to see who it is and pushed him out of surprise when I found out who he was.

"Za--" I wasn't able to say his name because he kissed me again. What the hell is happening?!

I pushed him again and put my hands in front of me to stop him, the look in his face made me tremble.

"Do you not know me?! Hey it's me!" I told him. He looked at me and tilted his head. I looked around it was dark so I walked to somewhere where I can let him see me.

I was expecting a surprised expression but he almost-half-closes his eyes to see me and looked at me from head to toe.

"It's you," he said calmly, I can't even hear a bit of a surprised expression from him.

My mouth fell open.

"You--" I scoffed and looked away.

"I thought it was you earlier," he said without a sign of guilt for what he did to me.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY?!?!

Does he mean the one he was making out earlier? We had the same dress, and we did let our hair loose but we are still two different people!

"Don't you like to say sorry?" I asked him sarcastically, he looked at me and wiped his lips using his thumb smoothly. That thing alone made me feel things. but I tried hard to stop it from showing.

I looked at him from head to toe, he got taller and more masculine. He looks exactly like before, his body is not that masculine, but it fits perfectly with his height. He never dyed his hair with other colors. Those extreme dark eyes are still the same. It looks like nothing have changed that much, except the fact that he's a lot hotter and the way I see him now is not the same as before.

"That's because you don't look like the same person from before," he told me and I don't even know what he meant by that.

"Is that enough reason to kiss me all of a sudden?"

"I told you already," he said and sighed, he looked at me and put one of his hands on his waist. "I thought you were someone else,"

"And who's fault is that? Yours! Apologize!" I demanded him.

"Fine, I'm sorry, don't tell anyone about it," he said and left as if nothing happened.

"Ha!" I scoffed. Is that it?! My mouth fell open again, the audacity!! I walked back inside the hall and went to their powder room.

I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that I was walking with ruined lipstick. I used the glossy ones tonight, I have never thought I'd be kissing someone at this party. And it turned out to be that guy whom I had a crush on years ago.

And he couldn't even say he's sorry seriously.

I retouched myself and went back to get more drinks. A few minutes later, I texted my driver to pick me up. I drank everything that I need to sleep soundly tonight and left the venue. I texted Damon and Aira when I got home and slept. I don't ever want to remember this again.

In the next few days, I got really busy with my graduation, I didn't have much time to think about what happened that night. I went to the school multiple times to check some papers and a few days later, It was the day of my graduation.

The final day at school and this is the art when I get to finally say that I have officially graduated. My parents came but because it's 'them' they immediately left without even saying a word to me after telling people how proud they are of me.

They wanted me to be the one to manage the company but I chose arts. They had grown hate towards me but I just couldn't care because I thought I was wise to choose the best for me.

I have a brother but he's not around, I have been wishing for him to finally come back but we still couldn't find out where he went.

I stayed at the venue for a few hours to talk to the people I have been to within my four years in college. We congratulated each other and parted our ways, I walked alone towards the venue's exit wearing my toga that I just couldn't take off because I was busy talking earlier.

I couldn't even get to take a pic of myself, Aira is not around so I didn't have someone to take a picture of me for remembrance. I took a lot of photos with those fellows but never took mine alone.

I didn't have a lot of friends in class, my friends took the other courses.

"You're late," and someone suddenly talked in front of me, I was too occupied that I didn't notice someone is already in front of me. I looked up and saw Zach holding flowers.

"W-why are you here?" I asked him. My cheeks started heating up seeing him wearing something as if he's a hot professor that came to me holding flowers. He looks like he just got from work, His tie is hanging on his shoulders and he's wearing that white long-sleeves and black slacks again. Just like the old times.

"What took you so long?" He asked me and handed me the flowers.

"I was asking you, why are are you here?" I said and repeated the question,

"Aira couldn't come so she asked me a favor," he said and moved the flower even closer to make me take it. "Congratulations," he smirked.

"Why does it have to be you?" I asked and pulled the flowers from his hands.

"You still can't get over last night? I told you, it was an accident," he replied. I rolled my eyes.

"Yeah right, thank you for this, goodbye," I said and walked away, then I stopped when I suddenly thought of something. I looked back at him and he was still looking at me while leaning on his silver mercedes-benz. "Can you do something for me?" I asked him. He looked down and stood up straight,

"We'll see," he said. I walked back to him and put my things on the floor near his car. I took out my phone and took the mortarboard and put it on my head.

"Take a picture of me," I said and handed him my phone, he just looked at it and looked at me, "Please?" I asked him politely, I want a picture to post on Instagram and tell everyone I had graduated.

He took the phone and looked at me, I looked around to see where I shout start posing. I stepped back and looked at him. then I realized that making him take my picture is a really bad idea. I sighed and walked closer to him, "What?" he asked,

"Nevermind, I take it back," I said and took the phone from him but he raised it above and I cannot reach it. He took the bouquet using his other hand and handed it to me, "I told you, I am not going to take pics anymore," I said. He didn't say anything and raised the flower in front of me and clicked the camera button multiple times.

It's my phone, I can just get rid of it later,

"Thank you for giving this to me, goodbye," I said and was about to leave,

"Congratulations, you did well," he said. I am already facing the other way and I didn't want to look back and make him notice what I felt about those words. He was the first person who congratulated me like that today.

"T-thanks," I said and continued walking.

That guy, why does it have to be him? Aira shouldn't have sent me flowers if she couldn't come, she can just congratulate me later,

I sighed and walked as fast as I could towards our car. I went in and my driver congratulated me so I smiled. He congratulated me even before my parents could. I took my phone out to see the pictures he had taken for me. I found out that he had taken a lot of photos, He started taking pictures when I gave him the phone, there are 84 pictures in a very short period of time.

I scrolled onto them, they were not that aesthetic but I chose a photo where he raised the bouquet and took a picture with me, the 'Congratulations on your Graduation!' on the letter was visible. I looked more or less pretty in the picture but I still chose it to post on my instagram.

I looked at it again after posting and captioned it with 'Finally <3' and hid my phone back in my pocket.

Then I saw his car passing through the exit with us.

Thank you I guess?