Touch yourself

"He will salivate." The Devil gapes at Eli. "Did he really say that?"

Yes.

"I don't know about you but I don't think that I can endure this." Sitting on the floor only a feet away from me, the Devil shakes his head at Eli. "I am too sane to digest these words."

Eli smiles broadly, looking at me with sparkling eyes that are filled with expectations and adoration. "Hug me, Nell."

"Just go." The Devil raises his paw and gestures toward Eli. "I will start imagining him with a dog's face if he starts drooling over you literally. I am a cat. Dogs are my natural enemy."

You aren't a real cat. Eli isn't a dog.

"Then, why is he looking at you with puppy eyes?" The Devil huffs at me.

His eyes are shining again. Is it my imagination or reality? It doesn't matter to me what it is. I like them this way. He grins ear to ear, pointing his arms toward me. He mewls with a low voice, "Nell, please."

"Fine." I am afraid that this person might really tell that excuse to his boss. That's too scary. It's just a hug anyway. When I get closer to him, he embraces me with a smile. I inhale sharply when he presses his lips on my collar bone and begins sucking and nibbling without any delay. What the hell! How is this only a hug? "Doctor Sanguine?"

"Mhmm?" He moans softly.

"Will you…?" Before I can finish my words, I feel the tips of his warm fingers slowly tracing my spine. I clutch on the fabric of his sweater as my throat turns dry, curling my toes and keeping myself from moaning as he traces the curve of my neck. His fingers stop on the hook of my bra.

"My wife, can I properly kiss you?" He asks with a low and smooth voice.

He's asking for my permission now. He didn't need permission when he started touching my back and nibbling my neck. I look at him and say, "No."

"I will wait. I can wait." He lets go of me and grins with an undisguised mischievous delight in his eyes. "If you make me wait too much, I am afraid that I might become a sexual deviant beast when that time comes."

"Doctor Sanguine." I fold my arms and gives him a look over. This guy is lean and tall, little paler than my preference, and a little sly. "You said that you are a virgin. I have more experience than you have. In bed matters, I am sure that I can tame you when that time comes."

He widens his eyes and covers his mouth. His eyes become moist. "Wife, are you showing off your experiences in front of me? I am still your husband."

"So what?" I glare at him. "You were not my husband back then. I didn't stop you from gaining experiences. How come a guy like you never had a girlfriend?"

"I never thought that I would be hearing this." He wraps his arms around himself and drops to his side, looking depressed. "But I never wanted to do these things to anyone else other than you."

He can't even take a joke. I pinch his cheek hard and tell him with a serious voice, "Listen, I am glad that you don't have any exes. I am a highly possessive and jealous woman. Your jealousy is too cute in front of what I do when I claim something. So, you might come to hate me in the future. You still have some chance, Doctor Sanguine. I haven't fallen for you yet. I am not claiming you yet. I won't make you mine until I am sure that I love you."

More than I have loved Baek Joon-Woo. I won't love you until Baek Joon-Woo disappears from my heart because it's not the right thing to do to you.

"Just because you are married to me in papers, it doesn't mean that we are husband and wife yet. I won't stay in this marriage because you love me. I won't do this to you. Think carefully. Life is too long to keep loving someone who doesn't love you back. You can still change your mind and find a sane woman who is right for you. If you want my recommendation, Doctor Anderson is quite decent."

Eli grabs my hand on his cheek and squeezes it while looking at me quietly. "Wife, you are too cool about giving me away to someone else."

Cool? Yes, I am. Once I take you, there's no turning back. Even if you beg me, I won't release you. I take a deep breath. He doesn't understand. "Doctor Sanguine, if I decide to take you, you will lose your freedom as a man. If I ever see someone flirting with you, I won't beat that person. I will beat you up. I won't care if you sue me for domestic violence. If I see you acknowledge someone else as a woman, I will get rid of your male part with pincers. You already know that I am crazy. If you ever cheat on me after I make you mine," I shake my head and smile. "I am sure that you don't want to hear it."

I am sure that he would be scared. He is not an average guy, but possessive and jealous women are never pretty and graceful. There's no doubt that he's going to have many flies around him. It would be a hassle. He even looks younger than me. He's showing this side to me now, but the future is unpredictable.

Eli is gazing at me quietly. Did he not hear what I said? "If I make you mine and I see your heart beating hard for someone else in the future, I will cut open your chest and stab your cheating heart until I am satisfied. Even if I turn old and ugly, you won't be able to get rid of me. There won't be any divorce. You can only escape me in death." Just like Baek Joon-Woo did. "If you do that, I will curse your soul to hell."

Like how I still curse Baek Joon-Woo.

He lets out a deep sigh. Yeah, he hates it. This is what it means to marry a crazy woman. That's why I am still giving him a chance. He should run away when there's still time. I am not that into him yet. When I see him, I remember Baek Joon-Woo. Though it's Eli's words and actions that shake my heart, I don't want to… No, I don't dare to fall for him before I am over Baek Joon-Woo.

"So, you admit it now that you haven't gotten over Baek Joon-Woo." The Devil interrupts my thoughts. "You can't get over him if you don't remember. If you remember what he did, I wonder if you can still love someone with Baek Joon-Woo's face."

I don't want to remember.

"I already know that." The Devil yawns lazily. "If you remember, it's impossible for you to feel love. If you don't remember, you still can't get over your first love and fall for this marshmallow. You can't stop yourself from feeling if he's next to you. You also don't want him to give himself to you when you can't give all of your heart to him. You are saying these things to him because you want him to leave on his own. It's easier for you that way."

I don't know what to do. I don't know how long I can resist this man in front of me.

"Nell." Eli gets down on his knees and presses his palms together and speaks with a grave look in his eyes, "My sexy wife who can turn me on by saying that she would get rid of my penis with pincers if I ever acknowledge someone else as a woman, please make me yours right now."

Is this guy crazy? Who can be turned on by something like that? He's openly admitting being turned on. I look at his crotch instinctively.

FUCK! I take a step away from him. FUCK! My face is burning. FUCK! I can't unsee that.

He notices my gaze and lowers his head. "See, I wasn't lying."

"This guy is impossible. Who gets turned on by that?" The Devil jumps down the bed and runs away while yelling, "I don't want to hear this anymore."

This guy scared that cat away. I wish I could escape like that cat, but Eli is between me and the door.

"Wife, I am serious. This is agonizing. I can't endure this." He raises his head and sighs deeply. "Pity me, please. Make me yours now. You have me getting crazier for you. I can't take this anymore."

"Not happening." I point at the bulge. "Go to the bathroom and take a bath."

"Wife, I have never done it before." He grabs my legs. "How long will you take? Please love me back soon. I want to be inside you."

This guy is nothing like Baek Joon-Woo. He's crazy. Too crazy. I can't deal with this. I scowl at him. "Get away from me."

"Nell." He looks up at me with a pained expression. "Not even a little pity? A cold bath in winter is too much."

"Who is feeling hot right now?" I flick his forehead. "You are a man. You know what to do in this situation."

"I know, but if I do it, you will be angry." He rubs his cheek on my thigh. "I don't want to take another bath."

I can't believe that I am having this conversation with an adult man. "Go to the bathroom and do the needful."

" What's that?" He asks me curiously, creasing his forehead.

"You are an adult man," I reply, exasperated. "Go and Touch yourself."

"I don't like touching myself," He tells me with a sad voice. "I have never touched myself."

His bulge is growing bigger and he's not letting me go. Did he really never touch himself? "Don't tell me that you don't know how to touch yourself?"

"Wife, I never needed to touch myself before." He stares at me. "You are the first one. Please free me from this agony."

So, this is going to be like this.

"I will grant your wish." I pull my sleeves up. "You won't feel this agony if I turn you into a eunuch. Let me get the knife first. "

"No, I can't become a eunuch. I want to be inside my wife a lot." He lets go of me and runs away from me. "I am going to the bathroom now. I will do it while thinking about you."

"You didn't have to tell me that." I grab the pillow and throw it in his direction. He is already out of the room. I follow him and sees him getting into the bathroom before I could get my hand on him. He slams the door shut before I could get inside.

"I will scream your name loudly when I am doing it," He yells from the bathroom.

"Get out of there right now." I kick the door. "I need to cut your tongue first."

"Oh, Nell…" I hear him moaning loudly. "My sexy wife… I want you… so much right now."

I cover my ears and go back to the bedroom. Where did I put those headphones? I need them as soon as possible before I lose whatever is left of my mind and kill a certain man.