The monster that dwells within

"Yes, I was dumped and I accept that, (I took a step towards them) I do not care what you think about me but I will not be accused of being jealous, there are a lot of men out there to pick from and he and I can do whatever we want this includes dating other people. Should he want to date Vero that is his choice to catch a disease or virus off these hoes, same goes for you guys too. Now leave me alone and I will leave you alone, hoes and you will keep you pretty faces, and I won't inturn break your bones one by one." I had a blank cold face on the one I use with my army trained asshole uncles I never show this to people this is my dead inside look my eyes are dead and I am focused on killing at this point thats why uncle stopped training me I was too violent and he couldn't control me. Only he knew this face I take a deep breath and calmed myself I placed a smile on my face but it was not genuine I grabbed my things, I guess I will be missing class today they watch me walk out towards church and I know someone is following me, I hope they stay back I am still pissed off and beatings are on sale. I got to the doors and opened it shaking, I walk to the front and kneel there breathing to calm down. Roli runs in and finds me with my fists clenched. He calls to my grandpa but I am in zombie mode he can't get through to me my grandpa comes in shocked and Roli explains the situation to the best of his ability grandpa dismisses him. He takes me to the back where he calls my uncle. He was informed that I have violent tendency when provoked hard enough and to look for some signs 30 minutes later my uncle came in full uniform in an army truck.

Grandpa tried to get Tali and Rudzani to leave with the hoes and the other two were gone but he also needed people to hold me down if a flip out. I see a light on my face and looking at my eyes ai follow it. I hear him say it is not serious he was worried I was breaking things and causing harm. He took us to the back and kept those stupid boys there bandaged my hands and I knew what he wants me to release some of the anger, but I turned to walk away. He slapped my back hard and I looked at him with rage in my veins in laughed and ran at him I punched him and he blocked so I kicked and hit as hard as I could till I no longer felt angry. I calmed down and looked around at the stunned faces then looked at my uncle with a bloody lip and dirty clothes on the ground I looked at my hands, I lost control and I helped him up. "feeling better? You are getting rusty with your punches" "I told you to avoid trouble I guess that was too much to ask for he grabbed my pen and took the card before I could snacth it so I yelled because he would make the boys suffer "don't look through that I will tell you, please I don't want to change schools because you beat my bullies up" "I am mad because it has been a bad week, on Monday I was cornered in the library and a boy tried to force me to kiss him I did not see him as my eyes were covered (lies I know it was Ndivhuwo) on Tuesday I was dumped but that's not important (heartbroken), Wednesday I was labelled a hoe and people lied on my name. Today they did it again but they got violent and I beat them up only for them to lie again and have me disrespected and now we are here" I whispered all this to him as he hugged me and turned to my uncle to say I am not a danger to people who do not provoke me, he is happy I am learning control because I never had that and this time all he had was a busted lip. I would have calmed down in a few hours by myself, but he sped up the process. He kissed my head and held my and as we walked towards the office so I can go to class. I put my hair in a ponytail my smile was back on my face. Now 3 new people know that darkness lurks inside uncle tells them not to say anything as he wants me to have a normal school experience, I do not like counselling so instead I work with kids.