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Without waiting, the man knelt down to the girl's throat, took her hands in his palms and left small kisses to her. However, despite all these efforts to calm her down, Özlem was still trembling. Özlem was not listening to the man's efforts to console her. The man was getting closer and closer to her, kissing her fingers with lustful words and pressing his own lips to the girl's trembling lips. Her kiss was becoming more and more insistent. She was burning him tighter with the beautiful words she loved coming from her lips. Özlem suddenly shook herself and pushed the man quickly. The man hesitated and stood up with fear. Özlem was trying to gather herself. And during this time, she was silent. Then she started speaking by spelling with a tense look, and often He knew that he had been in such situations and what this song wanted.

He said it triggered him. There was an unnerving silence in the room.

The man couldn't find the courage to say anything there, he was afraid of being disgraced in her eyes.

Özlem suddenly stood up and said that she had to go. The people at home had been waiting for her for a long time. While she was saying these, she was also wearing her thin jacket.

What the girl said seemed icy and distant to the man, and he wanted to say a few words, but after what he had said during their previous lustful rapprochement, whatever he said now would seem empty to him.

Quietly and politely, he took her to the door and kissed her hand to say goodbye, while he asked shyly: "We'll see each other tomorrow as we agreed, right?"

I'm sorry for kissing you. Also, when you said kissing was an innocent thing, I came to you thinking it was innocent. I hope you forgive me.

Yes of course..

Yes Özlem, i will see you tomorrow.

The man was filled with joy when his longing confirmed Tomorrow as planned without any reaction.

On the other hand, he was touched and admired the silence and elegance of the woman.

They said goodbye and closed the door

The weather was a little cloudy on Sunday morning.

The fog covered the entire sky and it was raining finely for hours.

As we progressed, the air began to clear and brighten, and finally, thankfully, the Sun appeared for the first time and was reflected on the wet streets.

It started to put a smile on the eyes of people watching the sky. The liveliness of Sunday started to show itself in the afternoon.

The sparrows perched on the electric wires were singing as if they wanted to drown out these sounds. Many people who spent the closed weather at their homes took to the streets with the freshness of their light colored dresses to welcome the spring. The bright Spring Sun was reflecting on everyone. While Özlem was walking with the man on his arm, she thought how peaceful and happy he looked, jumping up and down like children, Joy. She was coming to perform. She wore a straight dress and her hair, which normally fell fluffy on her forehead, was held back with pins. So

He was like a monument of innocence, so full of enthusiasm besides all this.

He was overflowing with joy that after a while the man got out of his serious mood and instantly decided to go to the park.

They gave up because the beauty of this Sunday seemed to have brought the whole city to the streets and there they were afraid of the crowds on the way to the Hamamyolu street and the young people wandered around the street called islands.(Adalar. in turkish)

He was sitting on the edge of the stream and chatting. Hamamyolu Park, where they enjoyed visiting, Bloody Poplar Park, represented the green areas lying quietly in the crowd of the city.

However, with the effect of this holiday, that calmness was hidden behind the crowds that flocked to the scene like a herd.

Since it was Eskişehirspor's match, young people were walking along the Porsuk stream, cheering with red and black flags in their hands.

Romantic lovers in boats were slowly moving on the Porsuk stream, surrounded by acacia trees, with a wide end.

She knew a few quiet streets stretching across the fields. Özlem accepted the offer to get on the boat and the man hung on the oars and they slowly moved forward.

The sun was shining brightly, then they went for a peaceful walk, eye to eye from time to time, and felt how beautiful emotions they were filled with in these fresh first days of spring.

Vast lands were green

lovers were walking hand in hand then they went out on Doctors Street

They passed by the shops, people were running, they were making their way through the crowds of trams. When they reached a wide road covered with trees, the man said that this was the favorite road of young people.

They continued walking through the bloody poplar park

This walk helped Özlem to dream.

The feelings of love and affection that swelled in her heart included not only the man she walked next to, but all the beauties around her.

The light breeze of the wind, the ears of wheat swaying with the breeze, the birds covering the sky, all wandering around with happiness and the all-encompassing energy of Spring, wanting to jump like a little child.

They walked for a long time in the park. By this time the hour had passed and it was almost evening.

The sunlight calmed down with the retreat of the shining Sun, signaling the approach of evening.

wander around all day They sat at a cafe on the road to rest due to their tiredness.

The cheerful sounds coming from inside triggered their curiosity and attracted them there. The young people were playing Okey.

Some were chatting, some were playing backgammon, and some were playing a game called Tabu, which is trendy these days.

They were playing. When they entered, they asked for a table from the garden side.

Young people from all over the city were enjoying the spring in the stores, a complete Sunday pleasure.

it was happening.

While walking on the islands street (ADALAR) along the Porsuk stream, some young people were playing live music. They were playing well-known old tunes better than expected. People often joined them. Coins were being thrown into the hat placed on the ground. Everyone was very happy, no one was saying anything.

Özlem was not shy. She fixed her eyes on the man. He gave her a genuine smile.

He was very happy with this comfort and the intensity of the feelings between them.

The cafe owner, who looked like a good-hearted man, came with them with a big smile on his lips.

I said to the people at the table, I personally thought that they were valuable people who needed to do free work. He asked me if I could offer you a tea and after getting approval, I asked your fiancée, what would the lady want?

She suddenly felt her color change in the face of this question that she longed for, she turned her confused face to the other side and just shook her head. Her fiancé was sitting opposite her and watching her without saying anything, but Özlem was busy getting angry at herself for reacting in such a way to this simple misunderstanding, she completely lost her taste for everything around her that could make her feel uncomfortable. Something caught his eye now. All he wanted was to get up and leave as soon as possible.

Meanwhile, the young people outside were playing a romantic song by Kayahan. This is Our Story. Or rather, Ours is a Love Story.

The couples were slowly singing along to this melody. They were surprised by the reactions coming from their souls in the face of the accelerating music. Something melted inside the woman who had just felt ashamed of herself and wanted to get up and leave as soon as possible.

Now he had calmed down completely in the face of the lightness of the song. He was humming along with the lyrics. His feelings were tired with goodness again, and he felt something dancing inside him. As the song ended, the man stood up and headed towards Özlem. And Özlem followed her with pleasure, following the musical team that transitioned from today's popular works. They didn't want to spoil it by listening, so they left and continued walking on the beautiful roads heading towards the crowd. The sun had now set, shining on the Badger stream. The lights were reflecting on the road through the trees. There was a red glow in the sky, like a small fire.

With the darkness of the evening, all the sounds around sounded beautiful. Suddenly, a man broke this calm. Don't you think it was funny that the cafe we went to Özlem thought we were engaged?

After this sentence, HE let out a forced laugh.

Özlem also left the dream world she was immersed in.

I wonder what he meant?

He was in a senseless fear and didn't want to answer what he said, it was funny.

Is not it?

He continued his words by saying how red you immediately turned.

Özlem, not understanding what was going on, turned towards him to witness the expression on the man's face.

Was the man making fun of him?

The man looked very serious and his gaze was not even on her. These words did not seem to be sprinkled with malicious intent as they came out of his lips, but it was clear that he was waiting for an answer.

That's why I couldn't predict how he would react and while I was tensed in fear, I was thinking about what kind of answer he would give. Finally, for me, I can say that it was more disturbing than funny. He said, "I don't understand more than a joke."

He was so clear when he said these

After this short speech, which could almost be described as angry, silence reigned again.

But this time it wasn't a calm silence brought by good feelings.

This time it is a silence that contains an uneasy tension.

While Özlem continued walking, she was also lost in thought. Although she was bursting into tears, she began to fear this love that might consume her like a book that still gave her pleasure but still tortured her in a way. This silence between them was suffocating her and surrounding her like a dense cloud of sound. Then, for some unknown reason, he suddenly felt more comfortable.

SHe got rid of his fear and wanted to end the silence every day and asked math teacher.

It's like you're hiding something from me. What's wrong? What happened? After being silent for a while, the man turned towards Özlem and fixed his eyes on her. He thought for a while and focused on her again.

It was certain that he looked more deeply and meaningfully that time, and he spoke in a very deep voice.

I wasn't aware of this, I'm just now realizing it, I feel a great desire for you.

That's why he stood where he was, there was a tremor, his eyes were fixed on the ground.

But she saw that the man was looking deeply at her over his eyes and before thatHe knew he was waiting for an answer.

She thought about the moment when the man kissed her when she was at his house, she didn't react at that moment to this situation, but her heart felt like it was going to explode, she didn't know whether it was anger, love or shame, and now the fear that the excellent works that the man had stolen had aroused in her over time grew inside her again.

What would happen now?

He thought that the man would not remain silent and continue talking, but at the same time he was very afraid of it.

Said I'm not sure you want to hear what you have to say

Today he wanted to stroll through the parks and breathe in the fresh breath of spring.

As long as the man didn't say anything, he was thinking, please.

All he wanted right now was to watch the roads and empty lands of the city where his voice dominated, and of course the sky.

Looking at the clouds.

Yes, he wanted to watch the clouds, to be freely in the sky forever.

There were exactly 5 Clouds No no 4 Only 4 Clouds But just as he was starting to clear his head the man started talking again.

I've always been afraid of myself, Özlem.

I knew that my passion for you would come to light one day, but I never wanted to be born with fear of it, but here it is since yesterday,

I felt it the moment you came to my house since yesterday.

From the last time I understand that I want you

He paused for a moment and took a deep breath.

And this situation makes me sad, you can be sure that it makes me very sad and I know that I cannot marry you because you have a lover. Only you can understand this.

Özlem fell into deep thoughts and remembered that she felt very jealous when she saw the man next to her geography teacher.

Or if any employee at the school saw a female teacher next to him, he felt bad.

Then the man was right to feel bad, too.

Even if they chatted for a while, feelings of jealousy would arise.

The man continued: "You have the soul of an artist."

you know.

Because you have one of the most precious noble souls, we cannot continue to meet like this, we must put an end to it now.

I feel guilty towards my girlfriend.

He stopped again. That's why he didn't think he was done hearing this. He felt like bowing down to him and begging him not to continue. He didn't want to see or hear anything from now on. No, he didn't want to continue.

He wanted to start counting the clouds again, for fear that he would continue, or as passers-by said, 3 loving couples had passed by so far, for fear that he would continue his words.

He wanted to start counting the clouds again, but all the clouds seemed to suddenly disappear.

There he could see one Just one last Cloud His mind is getting more and more chaotic there all he wants to think about now is the clouds or the passerby

lovers .

Lovers walking hand in hand, kissing lips to lips, the last remaining cloud was gone, it passed over the top and behind the mountain.

He found a right path for himself and the two lovers sitting on the park bench opposite started to hug each other.

He was imagining that his heart was also tied to that Cloud.

It was getting faster now it was reaching further and further away

And finally Özlem disappeared.

While he was collapsed with all his feelings, the man's words began to reach his ears again.

Do you really know me?

I don't know, I think you might have overestimated me a little.

I am not a big person as you think, in fact, there are many things that I cannot even achieve by myself. I am clinging on to life and desire to get the things that I love. I am no more than someone who carries a master's degree. My goal is to make a career and be a man, but even though I work hard for this goal, I still feel that I cannot reach everyone you know. I'm like men.

Actually, I love reading books, I love teaching and I love studying, I am a simple man.

I'm like all the men you know.

In fact, when I love a woman, I not only respect her but also desire her.

And I don't want to talk about you with others.

I am also very afraid that you will look at me with disgust.

I don't want you to underestimate me and I love you so much that I'm afraid to let this happen.

Özlem's face turned white. She was just realizing the real things the man wanted to say and she was surprised.

He wanted to calm down there and start his speech, but he couldn't.

The man addressed her as You, and his voice was soft and loving...

It appealed to him and fascinated him.

He remembered how much he loved the man, just like an old memory he had forgotten came back to life in his mind.

He suddenly felt how the possibility of losing her would hurt him, but on the other hand, he had a girlfriend.

Her boyfriend, who is in another city and calls her every day.

He felt guilty. Everything was like this, it was like a beautiful dream.

The man's voice continued to speak. It felt soft like velvet, now the man's hands were on her, the soft hands of longing.

cesine .

He always knows how to give and never demands anything.

that is, with his holy love.

I believe in love that makes sacrifices only for itself.

But now it's all over.

But I won't love you anymore because of it.

When I found him, he felt drunk, as if he had lost track of time.

Even at that moment the only thing he knew was that he had to lose this man but he didn't want to lose him. What was going on?

He didn't understand, everything suddenly seemed so painful to him.

She felt like she was burning in the sun with her love for Cesur.

He felt ready to make any sacrifice.

There was no thought within him that could be calculated and implemented, all he felt were his emotions.

The enthusiastic emotions he felt flowing through his veins, he had experienced these emotions before.

In Another City, she was dancing at the bar when her boyfriend, who was studying at medical school, approached her.

The doctor candidate said "I love you" in a whisper several times, but he did not miss it and the man shouted and when the voice suddenly stopped, everyone looked at them.

Özlem started laughing and it was as if that memory had been flooded into her memory again.

Under the influence of all this, he stood calmly and said in a low voice, "I have no one else in the world but you. I want to make you happy." As he said these, the slightest shame left in him disappeared.

The only thing he could understand was that he wanted to make this man happy with one sentence.

Did you love me like I love you now?

And I don't know, surrendering completely, without worrying about any details and evidence.