Chapter 39 - I Love You...

I remember thinking 'how could someone be the last thing you think about before you sleep and the first thing you think about as soon as you wake up'. Things like that only happen in the movies... Until I met you. I know that it took a very long time for me, but I see the world differently now because of you.

I remember when we had our first real fight... I have never been that scared of losing you. Hearing you open up the way you did, it scared me knowing that I pushed you to that point. I have never known a love like this even existed. And I know that is no excuse or exception.

I know that you are beyond tired and that I am not much of a help. I know that I stress you out sometimes. Something that I was afraid of... I never meant to push you at all. I am meant to be your rock, your pillar of strength when you feel like caving in. But how am I going to do that when you have to pretend to be okay around me all the time?